Saturday, November 02, 2019
Saturday! I am down to 169.8, I will drop my insulin again tomorrow or Monday at that will be 15 units, I am almost weaned off guys! I am pretty happy today. DOG TIRED literally, but happy. The dogs we are watching, one of them has been up all night whimpering and there is no real reason why. I think she just wants to be with us. Like, in our bed. We have never done that with her and have no intentions starting to do that with her. I think she may be in heat because my male dog is very interested in her. HE is fixed, the two girl dogs are not. I am not too familiar with dogs in heat. I remember between ages 4 and 12 we had a female dog that was not fixed. She would go into heat. She didn't act up that I remember but my mom took my underwear cut a tail hole in them and a slit to tie them and threw a pantyliner in it and put it on the dog. The two female dogs I am watching, aren't messing. But must be giving off some scent that humans can't smell. Anyone know if female dogs throw a fit when in heat? The one throwing the fits at night is perfectly fine all day and evening. We have made sure they get attention, play, walks, but not allowed on furniture and must show discipline for personal attention and treats. We have tried to have her in her own crate and tried to put her in another crate with her "sister" because they are used to being together. She isn't in need of medical help for the whimpering. It is just she wants attention all night when everyone is sleeping. Or trying to. Like a baby that cries but doesn't need anything. We have tried checking on her. Tried periodic timing hoping she will self soothe. Tried ignoring it but man she can be loud. Last night we just had to shut the bedroom door. That didn't drown her out. So we put on the music channel and had to turn it up some- which was too loud for me to sleep. I wanted to give her what she wanted, which was just be held so she can sleep, just like a baby. But I didn't give in.
It is a beautiful day here. I am sure a bit cold outside. We have had snow on the ground for a few days now. I had 2 scrambled eggs cooked in coconut oil and coffee with cream for breakfast. Lunch will be the Mongolian beef I made yesterday. And dinner....not sure yet. It is not an intermittent fasting day. I will restart that tomorrow. I did finally find the Lays grilled cheese and tomato soup chips. My son and I got a snack size bag to try. I told him I only wanted one or two and he could have the rest or share them with someone. I just wanted to try them. I LOVE grilled cheese and tomato soup. These chips kinda make me giggle and think of Willy Wonka, and how he made a candy to taste like all meals....anyone remember that?!?!
Ok, I am not sure what is on the agenda today. I think I am supposed to get a phone call from one of the situations that has come back into my life. And that makes me happy. Gosh, I am trying to digest I am now in the 160's. Given it is the highest end of the 160's but I made it there. Next stop...140's. HA we can just skip the 150's. My healthy BMI weights are between 98 and 130 lbs. So I am getting close considering I started at 240! And I was probably heavier than that, just didn't allow myself to look at the scale. I need to get rid of those shirts I hung onto to "just have clothing". It is ridiculous that I got rid of everything else but kept shirts to have something to wear when those shirts neck hole can slip past both shoulders! Crazy. I treated myself last night. I bought a tankini online in a size Large. That on their site was a 12-14. My size 16 jeans are too big. And I just got those a few weeks ago. I will need a swim suit cuz I donated the ones I had because I'd be swimming in their size...ha, pun intended. I will need a swim suit cuz I have a trip to Texas coming in December- another treat to myself- and there will be a pool and hot tub. And why not take advantage of the amenities.
Big deep breath. Ok on with the day! Hope it is a beautiful day for everyone. If I can do it, you can do it too! I believe in you.