I think I just learned the true secret to success...
Thursday, November 07, 2019
Hello my fellow Spark Peeps! Happy Tuesday!
Today I participated in a sleep study to see whether or not I have sleep apnea or some other type of sleeping disorder. I probably do based on my symptoms, but I won’t know for sure until the results come back in a week. Let’s hope I don’t have sleep apnea or a bad case of it, at least - I really don’t wanna have to sleep with one of those noisy CPAP machines! Knowing that I might have to has been a great motivator for me lately to keep up my weight loss efforts!
I started taking a magnesium supplement today because I learned that magnesium and omega-3 can be beneficial for weight loss and depression, among other things. As a side note, am I the only one who hates (and I mean HATES) taking pills? Especially those gigantic horse pills!! Ugh, the things I do in the name of health. :-)
Holy cow I actually had pasta today! I haven’t allowed myself to eat spaghetti in such a long time since I tend to overdo it on carbs, especially pasta. But in this case I’m really proud of myself because I was disciplined enough to measure out a healthy portion of pasta on a food scale before cooking it. And since it looked like a portion meant for ANTS it was so small, I filled half my plate with salad to bulk up the meal. It was a great reminder that there is no such thing as “good” or “bad” foods. The saying - “all things in moderation” - is cliche, but true.
My sister had bariatric surgery last week. Surgery was something I strongly considered doing last year, and got approval from my doctors for it, but ultimately I decided not to go forward with it. I’m still happy with that decision - no matter how tempting it may be to do the surgery and speed up the weight loss process, I am so determined to do this without surgery. There’s no shame in having bariatric surgery, and, who knows, maybe one day I’ll change my mind and have it done. But for me it wouldn’t address the underlying food addiction driving my disordered eating, so I’d just end up regaining the weight eventually.
My past weight loss attempts have all failed because I was missing a key ingredient - one that is so simple, yet so important. More so than ever before, I believe that in order to overcome my food addiction and maintain a healthy lifestyle I must learn SELF-COMPASSION.
I just finished reading a book that I HIGHLY recommend to y’all. It’s “Self-Compassion: The Proven Power of Being Kind to Yourself” by Kristin Neff. If you’re like me and struggle with perfectionism or being really self-critical, then read this book. I could go on forever about it so lemme just say that this book realllly changed my perspective and taught me some really useful techniques. Since reading this book and practicing the techniques every day, I’ve really started to notice an improvement in my moods, motivation, and confidence.
So here’s my new goal: From now on, I will be kinder to myself and more forgiving of when I make mistakes or have setbacks (which we all do). Being overly critical and judgmental of myself doesn’t motivate or inspire me, it just makes me miserable, insecure, and less resilient.
Now, I finally understand that you can’t hate youself thin. Eating well, exercising, drinking water, and generally treating your body with care is an act of self-love and respect. And no pill, surgery, or diet program can teach me that. I have to work on improving my relationship with me if I want to be successful long-term.
So I promise to y’all that I will commit to finding inner peace, self-acceptance, and self-compassion as I continue on this path to deep inner healing. That’s a pinky promise. :-)
P.S. Can I just say..I’m so grateful to SparkPeeps like you for coming along on this journey with me and taking the time to read and comment on my posts. It means a lot to me, so seriously, thank you.
Good night, SparkPeeps, and stay awesome!