11/12/19 addition

Thank you to everyone who showed me compassion today. I just want to be clear. My depression is not something that needs professional treatment. It is situational. And today my heart was broken. My trust in someone was broken. And I hurt pretty bad and am very sad about it. I don't know if or when it will be mended but I am willing to try because this person means so much to me and has for 28 years. My heart is just broken my future hopes shot. At least for now. It is taking everything I have to not cry. I did reach out to one friend. The only one I can remotely talk to about this and he wasn't really there either. I don't have family I can talk to or anyone else. So I sit with it. Alone. It isn't a thing to go get professional help over or to seek out someone I don't know.

Thanks again for all that showed compassion.