Wednesday, November 13, 2019
No one is ever prepared to see your parent failing in health. I am at that stage in my life witnessing my mother developing a very recent onset of dementia and the helplessness I feel is almost overwhelming. I have done this before. My father had Alzheimer’s over a decade ago, so losing two parents with a horrendous brain malfunction is horrible.
This is what is happening in my world.
The facility where mom resides is 6 minutes from my house so I visit her often. My sisters visit as well, but they live much further away. We are doing the best we can, loving mom and making sure she is comfortable.
Even though my mom is up there in years and also has had an incredible life that my father was able to give her; it is heartbreaking knowing that soon the cognitive thinking will totally disappear and recognizing the people she knows and love will be no longer.
Yes, my heart hurts.
I am coping with the inevitable, accepting what will be is something I am working on daily. Life and its cruelty can be brutal. But I am living healthy, taking my long walks in the morning, living a life I should and trying to be the best daughter at the same time.
I wish things were different, I wish my mom was back to her ol’ sweet self, I wish for another chance to have a meaningful conversation with my mom like I use to.
But it just isn’t going to happen…