Thursday, November 14, 2019
I've been having severe, severe, SEVERE emotional problems lately and as a result have eaten really poorly since Halloween. I've been crying a lot, neglecting to exercise (I did 8:26 last night, the length of the video I was watching, and it was super hard), and just eating all the candy in sight. I gained a pound, and probably have gained more since then. I'm a mess.
I finally plugged in the SAD lamp and it might help. I need to FORCE myself to do my exercises even if it's only every other day for under 10 minutes. I was doing so well and I'm struggling so hard. Like... I want to be under 300 by the end of the year. I KNOW I can do it, if I just stay under my TDEE and exercise.
One good thing, I found my knock off Skechers shape-up shoes. They fit badly and hurt but I could tell they were activating my calf muscles, just so I wouldn't fall over.
I messed up with candy. I went on such a long chocolate binge. I'm still not over it, I made coffee with 1 1/2 packets of hot cocoa mix, creamer and cinnamon and it was SO GOOD.
I've also been alternating between constipation and diarrhea.
AND I'm having lady problems, I had agonizing ovulation and then 2 weeks later, equally agonizing menstrual cramps. My doctor's appt is a week from today and I want to schedule a transvaginal ultrasound because I think something's wrong. I'm almost 35, there shouldn't be this much pain anymore. And always on the left side. Hell with that.
One really good thing, I've been on track with brushing my teeth every day and as a result haven't broken a tooth with all those candy bars and whatnot. No tooth pain at all. It was a pretty good experience.
I'll survive. It's been so hard and my emotions have been all over the place but I think I'll be okay.