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15th November

Friday, November 15, 2019


"Look at life through someone else's eyes, and see their perspective"

Today I took part in an amateur music festival - different 'classes' of music perform and are judged and given points etc. I was with the adult 'ensemble' recorder 'class'.

We played one piece - that we've rehearsed, of course. And which I have rehearsed over and over at home.

I was surprisingly nervous, lost concentration and came in a bar too early at one point. I recovered myself, but I was mortified and felt myself blushing. It felt SO terrible to let the group down like that. I have NEVER made that error before - it must have been nerves. But dammit - I wanted the ground to open up and swallow me!

However, when the adjudicator gave his feedback to the ensembles, we got 86 points, and the winning group got 87 points. He didn't mention my slip-up at all. And I'm sure he would not have missed it!

All I could do was say "sorry" to my fellow musicians........... I felt so bad.

However, what it showed me was that in the grand scheme of things, my small error was not the huge mistake I perceived it to be. From the adjudicator's point of view, there were so many other aspects of our performance to consider, that one note played at the wrong time wasn't even worth mentioning. Perhaps, also, he was being kind by not mentioning it - and not picking one person's mistake out from the group's performance. He was looking at the musical accomplishments - shape, tone, unity, timing, shade and interpretation, the 'mood' it evoked.

Perhaps my mis-placed 'toot' was only a millisecond long and it didn't matter.
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    Well done, looking back and getting a fresh perspective. So many times others don't notice the things we do.
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    27 days ago
    What a good lesson. While we're busy catastrophizing (and I do this all the time) the reality is, others just don't see it as the catastrophy you do.

    Congrats on 86 points!

    HUGS and have a good weekend.
    27 days ago
  • DSJB9999
    Well done for taking part and almost winning! I agree with Ramona we do notice our mistakes more than others do or will xxxx
    27 days ago
  • MAWMAW101
    As Ramona says, we tend to see (hear) our mistakes. Congrats for putting yourself out there! emoticon
    27 days ago
    That is so brave of you to compete!! I would have had nerves too. But what a great experience. I hope you do some more festival participation. I would have been mortified to be a weak link for my group but also, with a more mature perspective, I think it is great to push through and improve and also, most likely, the others probably enjoyed their role as an individual and as a group and would be encouraging everyone's experience.
    28 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/17/2019 3:35:07 PM
  • RAMONA1954
    We tend to notice our mistakes more than others do.
    28 days ago
    It is so easy to think a small mistake we made was huge. I’m glad that you didn’t get docked for it and I’m sure your fellow musicians understand it happens. I also think it’s pretty brave to be in a group like that to start with ☺️ Kudos for trying!
    28 days ago
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