Pain, inflammation, fatigue, it's hard, but don't give up!
Tuesday, November 19, 2019
I've had 3 surgeries this summer, and managed to keep up with all of my normal activities. However, pain and inflammation, and fatigue are finally kicking my butt. I didn't worry about logging, exercising, planning my food, whether I cheated or not. I thought it would be easy to get back with the program when the time came, and I deserved a break, right?
Wrong, it's not so easy. I'm dealing with healing, PTSD, family stressors, and still trying to stay active. It was more important than ever to keep up with the things I COULD keep up with. Yes, exercise was out for a while, but I wish I'd balanced it with journaling more, or meditating. I really did try to pace myself, but honestly, I used it as an excuse to quit doing the things that had helped me before.
Now, I'm trying to plan my day AND my food in the morning. It's much easier to stay on track with a plan and I can pace myself better. I'm trying to log my exercise and DO it. I'm trying to keep track of things and using the start page and looking at the progress I've made can either be demoralizing, or I can try to do better. I choose to try to do better. I'm not back where I was, but I'm on the way. I need to count my blessings ALONG with my challenges, so I'll start journaling again. I'll start using the spark tools again.
I had a good excuse to forget that I'm an addict and sugar is a REALLY bad thing for me for a number of reasons. I cheated a lot, and now I'm paying for it. But maybe I've learned something, too, about myself. When times get hard, it's not the time to go easy on myself. It's time to try harder.