Monday, November 25, 2019
took 40 units of insulin today. fbsl 178 weight 169 lbs
I have been having a very rough couple of weeks with situations in my life. I went from being on top of the world for the first time in my 47 years of life to devastated and these situations are not just effecting me but my family. I have really been looking to God to help me through this. I am struggling very hard. I am trying so hard to pull myself out of the darkness. I have been trying to be a good human being. To be understanding and forgiving and stay myself. But it is so hard because it is so painful right now.
I just need support. Not advice. Just people being genuine to me for once.
I need my focus back. I need to patch up these deep wounds and see if anyone comes forward and realizes my true self.
Have a safe holiday season everyone.