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Terrible Year

Tuesday, November 26, 2019

In January I lost my mare, Fancy. It was something expected with her, since she was 34 years old, but it still hurt. In August my sweet little dog, Cassie, was diagnosed with lymphoma. We fought for her and prayed for her, but on Saturday I had to help her over the bridge. She wanted to be with me still, but didn't want to come in the house even though it was really cold outside. She refused to leave me, though, even though the lymphoma was taking its toll. My heart is totally broken and I have been having total times of crying, especially if I start thinking of her by my chair where she always lay next to Orzo and me. Or like this morning when I was thinking whether she was watching for me from her crate, then realized she wasn't there. I hate that she is gone. I hate the disease that took her. She was so healthy just a few months ago. Now she is gone.

I was watching "The Good Doctor" tonight and he was asked what he was afraid of. His answer was "being alone." He had a reason added on, but being alone is one of my main fears, too. Oh, I have friends, but at home I am alone. What happens if I get hurt and no one knows. What happens if I end up in a coma and nobody knows? I am alone and nobody would think to check on me.
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  • HICKOK-HALEY
    I know how you feel. We lost both of our Horses within a month of each other. Munchie, the last of our 4 dogs we said goodbye to, 2 months ago. I so missed him. He laid by me all the time, and went with me most places in the car. I told my Hubby I couldn't take it any longer I need my own dog. The hounds are my Hubby's dogs. 2 weeks ago I adopted a Germ Shep mix from the animal shelter. She is small about the size of a Beagle. I am so glad I did this. It has really lifted my heart. When you get to where you think you can adopt again, then do it. emoticon
    47 days ago
  • MONAMAC1
    So sorry, Darlene. Being alone can be hard. Perhaps you could arrange with one of your friends for the daily wellness phone call. Hang in there. emoticon
    61 days ago
  • GRANNYJACKIE2
    I'm so sorry for your loss. Pets are family members and it's painful to lose them.
    61 days ago
  • MILPAM3
    It is difficult losing a beloved companion. My condolences. The earlier suggestions certainly have merit. Put at least one of them into practice.
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    61 days ago
  • TWIGBISKIT5
    So very sorry for your losses. I went through the same thing with my beloved little dogs in May of 2017 and April of this year. They both were 15yrs oldand I had them since 5weeks old. They are waiting for me at the rainbow bridge so we can be happy.
    62 days ago
  • IMPROVINGME
    I am so sorry for all your losses that have happened this year. That is an awful disease that took Cassie.

    I live alone, too, and sometimes I also have those same questions. I can't tell you how many nights I have not felt well and then got up to unlock my front door so that EMS could get inside in case I had to call them. My children live in other towns, and I don't hear from them regularly, so they wouldn't miss me for awhile, either. I do have a pact with a friend who also lives alone, though, and we call each other once a day to check on one another.
    62 days ago
  • DUGDIXIE1
    You know some of the smart phones have sensors in them if you fall and a emergency button. You could carry it in you pocket. I heard on the news one night that a lady had fell and she call out jay seri dial 911. I don’t know if that’s a option or not
    62 days ago
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    62 days ago
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