Turning up the Volume
Tuesday, November 26, 2019
My Mom started hospice.
I've been watching the fire of my mother's life flicker and it's frightening, agonizing and painful. Even more painful are the reactions of family members who have rejected me because Mom is now in hospice. My brother and sister once loved me, but no longer are kind or encouraging words sent my way. Their critical attitudes can be contagious and seem to spread in my mind like the flu virus. Thank God I have positive friends who are like a shot of positivity in my life. I GOT MY SHOT!
I have chosen to be brave for mom, and I press on to mom's final days. I turn up the volume on the positive, to drown out the two negative voices that scream, criticize and demand answers. Too much negative causes me to lose my way. The negative words point out my faults and failures. The positive shines a light on the path ahead of me, and bring life to my dreams, strength to my actions. My positive friends help me to choose courage and to be my best self. I choose happiness and I'll keep the positive voices louder than the negative.
Today I took the time to count the positive people around me. By far, there are more sho let me know that I am on the right course and that God and family are with me. Perhaps the two negative voices will change one day. Perhaps!