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Frustrated / Lost Vision

Sunday, December 01, 2019

I'm having a hard time finding my Why lately. I thought my Why was to be more attractive to women. Now that women are finding me attractive (surprisingly, the old adage was true, in that they like me for my personality and physique is just a bonus), I'm struggling to get to the gym and get more than the bare minimum done. I'm done with personal training and don't want to find that route any more. I'm also stressed because I promised myself that I'll move out before I'm thirty, which is in six months, and I have less than my intended savings. To me, though, the bigger issue is that I seem to have lost my vision. I'm not sure where to start. There are a few folks who inspire me, but my inspiration usually lasts anywhere from five minutes to half a day. Back when I was doing excellently, I had someone by my side, constantly speaking affirmations and reminding me of my goals, picking me up when I fall, etc. For a while, I had internalized him and had his voice in my head, but now he's gone and the voice has faded. I just feel lost. I've felt lost for a while. I'm up 45 pounds from my lowest and I'm down 48 pounds from my highest.
i just wish I could find someone to drive me. I think I know some resources I'm going to tap into and get my head straight. I just need to get past the holidays.
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  • PICKIE98
    I was just wondering how my friend is doing today. Enjoy ONE thing every day.. each day is a gift...
    44 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    How is Matt doing this week? Enjoy your day!
    46 days ago
  • SPICY23
    Can you remember the encouraging words or phrases that your accountability partner used to say to you that made you feel great about your efforts? If so maybe write them on an index card (or several) and use them to remind you of his positive voice (you don't have to let it fade). You might even be able to use the same with a new training buddy and share the power. Good luck.

    Peace and Care
    52 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    Physical attraction is fine, but being yourself is who you will be for your entire life. Making outward changes to attract somebody may only last until differences surface.
    Any person who is only attracted to another one by appearances, is shallow at best.

    The voice to listen to is Matt. He knows you best. Making a list of what you NEED, and another of what you WANT, may open your eyes.
    Goals are affected by many outside influences. Your mental setback may have changed them.

    Loving what you do to get you in shape may help. How about Chris Hemsworth's workout or parts of it? You are healthy and strong, he started slowly,,

    Getting a workout buddy can be hard sometimes, male or female.. maybe start there.. even another guy meeting you for a bike ride or just working out , meeting groups of gym-goers..

    anybody at your workplace go to the gym?

    54 days ago
    Keep trudging that road to happy destiny emoticon
    54 days ago
  • LORI-K
    I understand what you’re saying. Ultimately YOU are going to have to be the one who drives YOU. Do it for you, you, you.
    Hang in there with the holidays. I hope you can wrangle these feelings of frustration.
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    55 days ago
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