Wednesday, December 04, 2019
Last night, I had a big event at the college where I work. It was a lot to manage, and it went well but not perfectly. I was exhausted, and all the way home I thought of all the little things I didn't do right, the foibles here and there, etc. I picked myself into a state of anxiety and ended up going to the carbs... which are often so satisfying. I overdid it. Anyway, that's not what I'm writing about today... the food, the late night snacks... because that's not the point. My food choices are a side issue to the ways I study my imperfections so relentlessly, and this is something I'd like to give up in 2020. I had a troubled night. Woke up at 1 a.m. and couldn't go back to sleep until after 4, then had to get up at 7. I didn't have time or make time for my yoga or weight training this morning, and I could pick at myself about that, too, but no. There's a lot of day left. Let's see what you and I can make of it, everybody. What kindnesses can we give to ourselves and others? What gentle words or words of empowerment? What motivation and inspiration?