Something from "Indygirl's Coaching Corner" that finally broke out....
Friday, December 20, 2019
I hope you don't mind if I share what I just shared on INDYGIRLS Coaching Corner page this evening. I know a lot of you know most of this already. I only mention this again because someone out there that hasn't read anything about issues about these may have had them themselves and get some insight into what another has gone through.
We all have to remember that we're not alone. There are a lot of us who experience the same things and don't realize there are others to get ideas from.
In a way, I learned this again just posting the first time on Beth's Coaching Corner. It does help to know that others may know and can help.
I'm sorry you've been dealing with Hashimoto's for so long. I'd heard that can be just as bad as cancer. Then again, when they told me it was their opinion I should have the surgery they felt the cancer was "possibly" the quick-growing kind or bad kind. Sorry, I don't remember medical terms. After TWO surgeries, they decided the cancer wasn't the dangerous type after all. Thanks for ruining my life.
I'd only been on one antidepressant at the time of the thyroid surgeries. Afterward, they felt my depression and anxiety attacks were bad so they upped my dosage and added more medication to my tab. My Endo kept saying we just needed to get me on the proper dosage for the lack of hormones. Neither my employer nor my psychiatrist at the time cared.
Believe me when I say it changed everything to the worst at work and at home. By the middle of last year to the beginning of this year, I was so close to suicide many times, mostly because of the stress at work. I felt they were always working against me, even when I was keeping to myself and just doing my job. They let me go at the end of March then fought, and are still fighting me about having to pay unemployment even though they let me go knowing what I was going through.
Since I've been gone from there, my health has improved somewhat. My blood pressure has dropped to a reasonable level at least. It's a start.
First, I had to give up being so angry at the injustice I felt, and still feel, at times on their treatment. Even though they had letters from my doctor as to what to expect with the medication I was taking and the fact he was attempting to get me off of some of them. FMLA didn't seem to matter to them in this matter apparently.
I still have a ways to go admittedly. I can't give up on myself. The stress isn't there as it had been. Even with the decrease financially, my husband has been on my side in this matter. He's doing the best he can to help me keep on an even keel, so to speak.
I'm trying to start an online retail business selling dog supplies. I don't have any help doing this except the professional company I've paid to set up the site for me, teach me what I need to know to run it myself once my contract is up with them. The contract was signed in May. It's in effect until May 2020. My husband, daughter, and son-in-law may be starting to help me, finally, since the site officially opened (too early) due to my husband not understanding the process of starting these sites. I "Might" be able to actually get things off the ground very soon.
Yes, it may seem like I'm still under a lot of stress. Not even HALF the stress I had with my job though. At least I can take breaks when I need to. Take a whole day off. Sleep in. It's a priority, but my health is a top priority too.
Sorry. Once I get started I tend to go on and on.
Thank you if you've read this far.
I really do know that I'm not the only one with problems. My problems aren't as bad as others have. This is something always kept in mind.
Take care and Merry Christmas! Blessings to all.
Hugs and Love,