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Christmas day...whew...I made it through!

Wednesday, December 25, 2019

Merry Christmas to all my sparkling friends! emoticon

I hope your holiday was wonderful. I managed to have a pretty okay day today. I missed my sweetheart of course but that is nothing new.

Last night I prepared my delicious egg casserole. It has to sit in the refrigerator overnight to meld all of the ingredients together.

This morning I popped it in the oven and then set about wrapping gifts to take to both households. Just little things but I did put some thought into them so I think they were well received.

I then packed up two big bags and was on my way.

The first stop was my friend Michele's house who I've known for some 30 years. We have been through a lot of thick and thin things so we are sort of like sisters. She does drive me nuts from time to time because her entire life is filled with drama. The saddest thing is it's drama that she brings on herself...ugh. I just have to back up from time to time and take a break.

Today there was again...issues...but all family stuff on her side so I did my best to go with the flow and mind my own beeswax....lots of Chandon came in handy...happy for small blessings...especially the bubbly kind! ha ha....

Later we traveled over to another friend's house and had some yummy appetizers and a while later ham, scalloped potatoes, roasted veggies and a grand finale of pecan pie with ice cream. A really yummy meal and I didn't overeat on anything. Basically, a small portion of more like a tasting menu...so yay me.

I came home and gave my Macky cat his little catnip toy for his Christmas present and have called it a day.

I'm off for several days so I'll see some friends for lunch, do some chalk painting, work on my jewelry and see if I can brainstorm what the next chapter of my life will look like.

The gals in front of the tree.

Michele and I

Momma Carol...the sister's mom who I just adore...she is such a little fashion plate at age 84!

So all in all the day was nice...I'm really glad Christmas is over this year. Now I just have to get through New Years and I'll feel like I've survived the holidays. emoticon emoticon I hate the fact I had to face down this sad milestone but so far I've survived a few.

Coming home to a dark empty house was the WORST! But I learned to leave some lights on.

Going to work every day by myself and handling the business on my own. I did have a slip a few days before I closed when I sold a few items that Don had handprinted the sales tickets. I always used to crab at him that his handwriting was too messy...so these tickets were so carefully printed...I just burst out in tears seeing them. The customer must have thought I was nuts...some days I really think I could be. The loss is so deep and so searing and so permanent it can make you lose your mind a little. Death is the end of a life but it's never the end of a relationship. That lives on in your heart and mind forever.

I've learned to gas up the car on my own figuring out the pumps, where the credit card goes and what gas quality to get. Who knew I'd ever need to know these things since my hubby always handled all of that and 90% of the driving as well. I HATE driving...especially at night...but if you want to get from point A to point B you have to drive in FL. I must say that Don would NOT be happy that our car is dirty now. He took great pride in driving a nice clean car...I'll work on that now that I have a few days off.

I've learned to pare down on my cooking. I always used to cook for an army since we had many friends over to the house. Now that just seems silly. AND...some nights if I feel like it I just have popcorn. You have to look for the silver linings in loss my friends.

Other little challenges are changing lightbulbs, smoke alarm batteries, calling AAA for changing out a battery on our big Toyota.

I've even managed to pull off a dinner party for 20 people although everyone chipped in by bringing a side dish while I handled the main dish. They also helped with the clean up so I was really lucky on that! My hubby always used to be so good about vacuuming and helping me ready the house. I surely miss that so much.

I just miss being able to come home and share what happened at our consignment gallery. Most days he was right there working side by side but we always managed to find something work-related to talk about. Only for a short time and then we'd move onto personal stuff or if he had a construction job he was on he'd tell me a little bit about it. We shared so much together I feel like I've lost 1/2 of myself...actually 3/4 having lost our beautiful son also.

One thing I have learned is that I'm really tough...I give myself a pep talk every day and roll out of bed. I don't know what is ahead for that day but I do know that with lots of prayers and the loving help from you my friends I'll continue this journey...hard as it is...it's a new chapter that needs to be experienced.

Merry Christmas my dear friends! emoticon
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    I can't imagine how difficult it must have been. You are blessed with many friends to help you through it. Best wishes for a year of recovery and growth. I hope that Mac the cat is doing well also.
    47 days ago
  • LINDA!
    I continue to keep you in prayer. I am certain the holidays were rough without your hubby. Happy that you did have friends to spend time with - your photos are great.
    50 days ago
    I hope that all of your celebrations were good. You are one strong lady and you will find a way to get through this. It's never easy and you shouldn't have to apologize for memories that creep out of your eyes at times. Life is NOT easy and we all do the best that we can to make it from day to day. Sending many prayers and big HUGS for you!
    51 days ago
    So happy for you Bobbi. You are a strong woman and it continues to show. Don must be smiling down at you. May 2020 be a year filled with peace and health for you. Happy New Year.
    51 days ago
    55 days ago
    Thank you for the smile and the inspiration. You packed your blog full of wisdom and courage, dear Bobbi.

    I felt your tears: "...when I sold a few items that Don had handprinted the sales tickets. I always used to crab at him that his handwriting was too messy...so these tickets were so carefully printed..."

    And your quotable, by FloridaSun: Death is the end of a life but it's never the end of a relationship. That lives on in your heart and mind forever.

    I'm grateful for your "sister" and friends, especially the fashion model. emoticon For learning new things. For forging on. Most of all, for taking a few days off to really self-tend to your artist heart. I love you. emoticon
    57 days ago
    Yes Bobbi, you are really tough! And amazing. emoticon
    57 days ago
    57 days ago
    emoticon You are an amazing woman. I know your family would be so proud of you.
    57 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    Bobbi, Maybe this will help: Spirits do not need lights,, they can see in the dark. Your two guys are there waiting for you when you come home, even in a blackout. emoticon emoticon emoticon

    Thank you for the beautiful pictures. Friends. We cannot be there with you, but know that everybody here is there with you, gently trying to guide you to peace and happiness.
    You are a special friend to all of us here. Linda
    57 days ago
    Bobbi Anne, you are a survivor! I admire your toughness in the face of such a huge loss. Coming home to a dark house, having to do lots of things yourself that Don used to do, not having anyone to talk to about what happened at the gallery--so sorry you have to endure this rather lonely time! I'm glad there are some good people in your life. Your fashion-plate 84-year-old friend looks delightful, and it's wonderful that you have these long-standing friendships in your life to help your get through this time of grieving.

    I hope 2020 will be a year of new hope for you, my dear, although I know you will never stop missing your sweetheart Don. Take care, and keep on keeping on!
    58 days ago
    Sending hugs and prayers to you emoticon emoticon emoticon
    58 days ago
    Bobbi, you are so very strong. I am so proud of you for doing so many of these hard things. I hope you can enjoy your days off from the gallery.
    58 days ago
    So glad you pull threw Christmas, you are finding out you are stronger than you thought, and I am sure Don and Josh would be proud of the strong woman you are becoming. YOU WILL PREVAIL, AND GROW.
    58 days ago
    So glad you had a nice time and laughed it is so energizing to be with friends that love you emoticon
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    58 days ago
    Soooo proud of you -- you made the most of what could have been a very trying day. Sounded like a pretty good day of activities to me. emoticon emoticon
    58 days ago
    Thanks for sharing and kudos to you for all you have overcome. Life certainly does throw curveballs and you are learning how to catch them and stay in the game. emoticon
    58 days ago
    An immense change in your life but you are learning and
    growing. So glad you have a wonderful day.
    58 days ago
    Merry Christmas and may your new year be better than the last. You are doing great!
    58 days ago
  • LYNCHD05
    Merry Christmas to you too Bobbi. I think you have done amazing this holiday....
    58 days ago
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    Awesome! Way to go!
    58 days ago
    Yes, you are a tough cookie and I'm proud of you. Big hug.
    58 days ago
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