Look at that

My last blog was Jan 31, 2019. How is that possible? I've been around. I have Spark as one of my tabs on my computer, yet, somehow words elude me for a year.

Anyhow, I am here whether anyone else is listening or not. Mostly the words are for my own mind.

I've been doing this for such a long time now that I had to rediscover my why.

Turns out it wasn't just vanity.

It's my excessively high heart rate

It's my fear of a heart attack with a 50 minute ambulance wait here AND to hospital. Let's face it, I'm a gonner.

It's my beautiful granddaughter. I always thought once I'd raise my girls, I'm good. But no....I want more. I want my husband, my girls, my granddaughter...so much more.

It's for me.

And yes.

I want to be skinny. I want to not cry when I'm in a dressing room. My mother in law took me shopping for clothes. I think she was disappointed that I grabbed the first thing and was ready for lunch, but...I mean....I hate shopping. She knows this.

so

my why

Now to earn it.