The Keto Diet
Friday, January 24, 2020
Hello hello! It's been so long since I've written, but I've actually been doing something positive! Well, depending on who you ask. :)
On December 31st, I started the Keto diet. Now... before anybody is like, "Hey, that's bad for you", I did my research. I read a lot about it and I decided to do it anyway, despite some of the concerns out there. For every bad research study, there's a good one. And I liked what I read in the good ones and understood the concerns in the bad ones.
I'm not doing this diet permanently either. I'm doing it because it's forced me to give up sugar and carbs so I don't feel the need to eat bread, french fries, and chocolate all the time. I'm doing it because you have more energy on Keto. I'm doing it because it helps people with PCOS. I'm doing it because it's a challenge for me.
But, after I get to a comfortable weight, I plan to add some carbs back in. I miss potatoes and bananas and carrots and things like that. I almost don't care about the pasta or chocolate/sugar or bread though. It's like once I stopped eating it, after about two weeks, my desire for those things has dropped severely. Do they sound good? Sure. Would I be disappointed if someone put a plate of that stuff in front of me and I couldn't eat? Maybe a bit. But for the first time in my adult life... I have no significant desire for them.
It's rather fascinating to me. I wasn't sure I could make it this far, but here I am, day 25. I have many days/weeks to go. My goal is to get through 100 days of Keto before I go back to anything I can't have now and even then, it'll be a slow introduction.
Admittedly, I ate some cauliflower, cheese, and bacon tots last night. All those things are GOOD on Keto, except the breading on the tots. So... I totally blew my carbs, almost double what I'm allowed (39 net carbs... I'm allow 20) I made a conscious decision to do it though. I hadn't had any cheat days or cheat meals since I started and I was having a rough night. I thought... I'll go over on carbs and calories just a little bit, relieve the pressure (because I told myself absolutely NO cheating ever for 100 days and I was mad at myself for such a tight restriction) and I'll see how it feels.
And you know what? Today I'm totally fine with the decision. I didn't go wild and go to Taco Bell or McDonald's and gorge on fast food. I didn't eat a loaf of bread or a box of crackers. I had something that was MOSTLY good, just a little too much of it, and it was a conscious choice. Not mindless. I still counted my calories even. I know exactly how much I ate.
It is rough changing the way you eat. Changing the way you think. Especially in the winter when it's cold and snowy and dark in the evening. All you want to do is snuggle under a blanket and eat.
I keep reminding myself of all the reasons I want to lose though:
- My 10 year college reunion in May
- A float trip in the summer (bathing suits!)
- New clothes and a few things I haven't worn in awhile or years
- More energy
- Less embarrassment about being chubby or fat
- I'll look better in pictures
- I'll fit better in airplane seats
- Wearing shorts with confidence
- Wearing dresses with confidence
- Feeling good about myself
And probably more! It feels good to have reasons to remind myself... "Hey... don't you want to look GOOD at your reunion instead of people thinking about how much weight you gained after college?" Yes, yes it will!
The idea of NEEDING to buy a new swim suit for my float trip too? It sounds glorious.
I want to learn to eat in moderation. I want to learn to cook better. I want to stop eating out so much (I only have when I was on a work trip and I had no other options). I want to be in control of my choices.
Could I do this without Keto? Absolutely. Is helping me to have strong restrictions? Yes! It's giving me structure I've never head before as an adult.
I'm feeling good about my choices and my control and that's exactly where I'm at right now.
Next up... add in exercise. That's my February goal!