Illness--What Changes When I Don't Feel Well?
Friday, February 14, 2020
I suppose people have written hundreds of books about the relationship between getting sick and how it affects normal day-to-day function, motivation, perseverance, stamina, perception.
But I don't get sick very often. So I haven't thought about it much. Meta-cognition is the thinking about thinking. We use it in school. But this morning I am aware that coming down with a cold--which could be any illness affecting my body--and fatigue twists normal processing all up and spews it out like a rag. I can't think clearly.
Yesterday I posted that I had a disappointing day. I was frustrated. I was disappointed with myself. What I didn't realize at the time was that I was coming down with a cold. And now I feel awful.
I did not go to the gym yesterday as I had planned to do--to make up for the zero work-out from the day before that and to get back on track. But the way I was feeling, I thought--I need to reserve my energy to give my body a chance to heal itself from all this drainage. I knew I was coming down with something. And I did.
So today I'm wondering how I can continue my get fit self-challenge with a cold. Do I NOT work out so I can rest and get better? Does it make any difference?
I'm pooped and it is only 5:48 am.
And it is Valentines Day.
I just made some sausage and cheese balls for Jim. Ben is coming home today for a job/internship interview for the summer. They will both enjoy that.
But it is going to be a hard day at work. I already know of one teacher on my team who will be out. I sure hope her sub shows up. It stinks when we have to farm the kids out to other teachers--and I've already had her kids farmed out to me once already this week. I think my goal will be to not speak as much as possible. And try not to get irritated at every little think. Let it go. Take a breath. Monday will be a school holiday. I can make it til 3:00.
Father, this is going to be a hard one. Please be with me today. Be my little light. Strengthen me enough to do my job and be pleasant to others. Help me to make healthy choices to take care of my body and my mental health. Help me to be kind and thoughtful to Jim and others. Help me to be a blessing instead of a curse. I have been so discontent these past couple of days. Help me know how to give my body a rest and still be healthy in the long term. I need you today. Amen.