I saw the Sun Rise Again
Friday, February 14, 2020
I literally saw the sun rise again and it was triumphant. After being sick and/or tending to sick kids (one of whom got 2 viruses back to back), I finally did a morning walk for the first time in too long and the sunrise was particularly lovely this morning. When I am sick and/or tending to sick kids for a while, a dark cloud comes over me. I run around looking like something a cat dragged in and after enough days my sense of optimism dwindles.
I am so sick of visits to the pediatrician to make sure my kids don't have the flu/strep/coronavirus. I am sick of helping them keep up with schoolwork and endless exams as they start to feel better. I got sick of feeling lousy myself. Pre-kids I envisioned myself as a selfless, natural and effortless caregiver. I am for about a day or at least a few hours (minutes?), and then each successive day I realize I am oh so imperfect and flawed and increasingly grumpy!
The good news is the sun rises again as it always does and things do eventually get better. I hated having to stay home the days I work outside of home, but I decided to nap when my kiddo(s) did and it helped me lose the 2 pounds I had gained recently.I ate lots of vegetable soup as snacks and prepared healthy meals in the hopes it would lead to healing while helping sustain me without losing my marbles.
It seems like everyone is now on the mend...knock on wood..and we can get a little more normalcy back. I really hope Zumba class is not cancelled tomorrow because I need to get lost in the music and dance. I am fortunate to have the luxury of exercise classes, meditative morning strolls, an able body, and a job that is flexible. I was starting to forget my blessings, but now I am back to counting them and enjoying the bounty. The sun is rising again!
Happy Valentine's Day!