let down in a small town
Sunday, February 16, 2020
So far 2020 is a bust.
I know its early in the year and time to start turning this around!!!
I find myself blue and depressed very much recently.
Internet outages have plagued us the entire year, I possibly lost a job because of it.
The employer had tried to contact me to get some needed info and I missed it for days.
Having a phone that works only with internet doesnt help.
And. I had applied to a local company that hires for customer service online, and I sat here looking for a job, with no internet, so that wasnt gonna work.
I have had 4 techs out, new equipment installed and checked, then re-checked and still getting up to 8 to 10 hour outages daily.
Which beats the 4 straight days of outages previously,
The job search has been a massive failure thus far,
I have applied to 7 jobs, and had ONE interview....and was rejected.
I know that doesnt sound like many jobs to apply for, but with the internet outages and the horrible weather we have had the last few weeks I have just been so down.
I feel like a failure before I ever even put my name on the application.
Considered taking some classes at the community college, but the thoughts of it makes me cringe.
Sitting in a classroom with people half my age taking classes to help TRY to find a job....the same job all of them are probably gonna be applying for as well.
I have worked in private duty home health care for years....yet I applied for an office job in a home health care facility, that I was more than qualified for and was turned down.
They would hire me to bathe and change the elderly, just not do their paperwork.....
Small town politics, jobs are few and far between and they usually go to someones cousin or neice.....
someone much younger than me.
I know I am feeling sorry for myself.
I will keep looking, but honestly cant think of anywhere else to go....a kitchen somewhere probably.
Dont get me wrong, honest work is honest work but its harder work when you are older and fatter.
So, that is where I begin.....working on improving myself and my attitude.
But I wont get my expectations that high again.