Blast from the past.
Friday, February 28, 2020
I thought about making a brand new profile. I was scared that by re-starting my journey on my original, 12-year-old SparkPeople profile would "taint" my past successes. I went from a 172-pound 20-something to a fit, active, happy 134-pound 20-something... and now I'm a 177-pound busy mom of two 30-something. How dare I?
The cliche "life happens" is what happened. First, the weight I had lost back then was too much. Sure, 134 pounds at 5'6" is "healthy" by the book, but it never looked or felt right for me. (But, hey, being a size 6 was pretty cool!) Slowly, the weight creeped back until I was happily at around 150 pounds. That is truly my happy place.
But, then I grew complacent. We got new jobs and left Cincinnati, relocated to Boston, got married, moved to the suburbs, had a kid, and lost all but 10 pounds of baby weight. "Sure, 160ish is fine!" I'd tell myself, but over time I gained 5 more pounds. Then I had another kid, and lost all but 10 pounds of baby weight (again).
And, well, here I am.
Even before I re-joined this week, I had started half-heartedly working out a couple of months ago. But, as I know from my past CICO life, it's 80% diet and 20% exercise that yields success. I tried other trackers like MFP and Fitbit. I even did a trial month on Weight Watchers. Eep! But, I know I need to stick with what worked before. Sure, my life isn't the same as it was 10 years ago, but this place is still here because it works. And I want it to work for me again.
The things that are very different this time around are, again, cliche:I work full-time and have kids. My gym time is limited to 3 times a week over my lunch breaks at work or before my work day begins. (Luckily we have a great little gym on site at my office!) The weekends are full of activities with the kids, or chores, or other life things that always get in the way. But, the thing most in my control is food. I do the cooking and most of the grocery shopping. Yes, my husband is pickier than our 4-year-old so finding something for all of us to eat is difficult. But, it is in my control.
Anyway, that's what's going on. That's why I'm here and what I need to do to get to my goals. I want to get out of these size 12 pants and back into an 8. I want to be able to run 2+ miles again. Hell, maybe even a 5K! I want to feel the success that comes with having control over my habits and my own body.
So, I'm glad to be back here. Back where it all started.