In my life, W-O-R-K is a four- letter word. Some might say I have an unhealthy relationship with my job.
I am a perfectionist, a self- motivator, a loyal, dedicated, give- it- all- you-got kind of girl, who loves to be challenged. And worse yet, a genuine people- pleaser. Unfortunately, together all of these ingredients have the potential to spell disaster.
For some, work is perceived as a necessity; but for others, like me, it became a life's passion and a means to personally being fulfilled.
For a long time, I found my job to be very rewarding. The more rewarded I felt, the more committed I became, and the more committed I became, the more tasks my supervisors directed my way.
You see, not only did my company recognize that I was loyal and committed, they also honed in on the fact that I would not speak up and say enough-is-enough. Each week I found that I was working longer and longer hours. And each month I found that I was slipping farther and farther behind.
So now, that dirty little word called W-O-R-K is eating away at my well-being, day by day. And here I am....at least fifty pounds heavier than I need or want be, tired, overwhelmed, stressed out and defeated.
My fulfilment has been replaced by dread, my challenge has been replaced by frustration and my motivation has been replaced by depression. I want my happiness back! I want my life back! And so does my husband!
I am smart. I know I need to find work- life balance. I know I need to take control of my life and my health. I know I need to make time to loose weight and exercise and do things that make me happy.
So, here I am. Blogging for the first time in a very long time, when realistically, I should be working on my income tax return; but writing makes me happy and also brings me fulfillment in a healthier way.
Next up, working healthier foods back into my diet, eating away from my desk, and finding the time for some short little walks. Who knows what else might be on the horizon?
Spring is coming soon and so is revitalization!