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W-O-R-K is a Four-Letter Word

Sunday, March 01, 2020



In my life, W-O-R-K is a four- letter word. Some might say I have an unhealthy relationship with my job.

I am a perfectionist, a self- motivator, a loyal, dedicated, give- it- all- you-got kind of girl, who loves to be challenged. And worse yet, a genuine people- pleaser. Unfortunately, together all of these ingredients have the potential to spell disaster.

For some, work is perceived as a necessity; but for others, like me, it became a life's passion and a means to personally being fulfilled.

For a long time, I found my job to be very rewarding. The more rewarded I felt, the more committed I became, and the more committed I became, the more tasks my supervisors directed my way.

You see, not only did my company recognize that I was loyal and committed, they also honed in on the fact that I would not speak up and say enough-is-enough. Each week I found that I was working longer and longer hours. And each month I found that I was slipping farther and farther behind.

So now, that dirty little word called W-O-R-K is eating away at my well-being, day by day. And here I am....at least fifty pounds heavier than I need or want be, tired, overwhelmed, stressed out and defeated.

My fulfilment has been replaced by dread, my challenge has been replaced by frustration and my motivation has been replaced by depression. I want my happiness back! I want my life back! And so does my husband!

But how?



I am smart. I know I need to find work- life balance. I know I need to take control of my life and my health. I know I need to make time to loose weight and exercise and do things that make me happy.

So, here I am. Blogging for the first time in a very long time, when realistically, I should be working on my income tax return; but writing makes me happy and also brings me fulfillment in a healthier way.

Next up, working healthier foods back into my diet, eating away from my desk, and finding the time for some short little walks. Who knows what else might be on the horizon?

Spring is coming soon and so is revitalization!





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  • SHARON10002
    I know you are writing from your heart as it comes through loud and clear. It's an important realization that you have realized that your life is out of balance, and you have decided and focused on fixing that. You have defined some of your weaknesses in the process to focus on, and that probably involved some serious reflection on your part. That is a emoticon start! You are definitely on the right track.

    A suggestion . . . If I were you, I might begin by understanding how all of these are intertwined, and which behavior/response fosters, and encourages which. It might even help you to draw a “map”. You might be surprised to find all of the tendrils that your map has. If you can break it down in this way, you’ll have a clearer understanding of where you need to begin. There may not be a “clear” answer, and in that case, you'll have to decide which one to overcome and conquer first. I know you will approach this change with deliberate, and insightful truth and honesty.

    An easy first step you might immediately start incorporating today is some “dedicated me time” each day for nourishing and nurturing your spirit and soul. Making time for you is probably one of the hardest things to do because once you leave work, there are many, many more things that demand the remaining hours in your day. You must start small in making “yourself a priority in your life”. As with everything, start small so you don't throw yourself off kilter. I have complete confidence that emoticon !
    248 days ago
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    274 days ago
  • JAZZYGF
    so glad to read your blog you are working to hard and I beleive employers punish good workers or least they did me
    keep focusing on your health emoticon
    274 days ago
  • HARLEMPAPILLON
    Well done as well as well put---I admire your graphics. I'm glad and GRATEFUL that you realized the devastating path you were on before it was too late. As women, we are often told that it's our job to take care of everyone else and most us welcome and are happy to accept that role, even to the extent of neglecting ourselves
    I've learned (perhaps a bit later than I would have liked) that we must take care of ourselves BEFORE we can take care of others! Hang in there, I for one think you're on the right track!!! emoticon
    274 days ago
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