Life in the new lane
Saturday, March 07, 2020
The mental honeymoon after sleeve surgery is starting to wane. Emotionally, I have to accept my new way of eating. Tiny meals of 1/2 cup of food; 5 meals in a day. The need to focus on protein.
I've had to deal with compulsive thoughts of food; had a couple mini binges. Right now I'm focusing on the mental work of letting go of food as a drug. I've read Geneen Roth's "Women, Food, and God." It was kind of hard to wrap my head around it.
Now I'm listening to an audio book by her called, "When food is food and love is love." It has 12 separate sessions; read by the author. I'm on lesson 5. Some lessons have meditations or writing assignments. It's really catching my attention.. One of those times when "the student is ready and the teacher appears."
I'm glad I'm retired. It can take up a lot of time eating and tracking these frequent meals, the supplements, timing the drinking around eating, blood sugar and insulin, etc., etc.
I've only been out to eat once in the 6 weeks since the surgery. I had shrimp fajitas, no tortillas, and brought home leftovers. It went OK. I would have eaten so differently before surgery.
I'm working on getting up the gumption to go to the pool and get in some pool walking. Gotta get off my butt. The activity is the thing I need to work in. I started walking on my street. I can go about 2 houses, then turn back. I've lost 40 pounds, but still weigh over 300. I can really feel the 40 pound loss. Walking and standing are easier.
I really recommend weight loss surgery. I'm 40 pounds down and wouldn't be if I had not had the surgery.