The aftermath of losing a loved one
Sunday, March 08, 2020
It's been almost 2 1/2 weeks since my boyfriend Mike passed away. I'm holding my own. I have good days and bad days. My work placed gave me 12 days off which really helped when I first got back. I could actually speak about him without bursting into tears.
A few things were upsetting about his passing but things I'll let pass by. I was not mentioned in his obituary even though we had been together 10 years. His family went in to his apartment and started taking stuff out, some of which he had promised to me, but again, I'm not going to make a big deal about it. It's not worth it. I don't want to tarnish what we had together and it won't bring him back.
Sometimes moving past all of this pain is the hardest thing in life to do. I'm not angry he was taken in fact I'm happy that it didn't drag on and that he didn't suffer more then he did. In the end he took one long breath, laid his head back and that was it. Mike always slept sleeping in a recliner it was easier for him with his CPAP machine. This was one of the only times I actually saw him laid back in a bed. He looked so peaceful.
Memories....thank God for them. SingSnap.com....Thank God for that program I can listen to him sing whenever I want to. That's how we met. I came across his singing. We lived close so after a few months of singing duets together we decided to meet. The rest of our 10 years is history.
The link to this song below is the last song we did together. He loved this song. He played the music and I'm singing.
I hope everyone enjoys their day. Here in Ohio it is supposed to be in the 60's. I have a few things to do, drop clothes off at the Goodwill, pick up a few things at the store and drop some mail off and my electric bill. So I'll be enjoying this sunny day.