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Hardest time of the year for me

Saturday, June 20, 2020

Please forgive me if i am not here or here but dont talk. this is a very hard time of year for me. My head tells it I should be over it by now, but I still miss my little brothers even after 50 years for one and 48 for the other one. I still wonder what life would be like if they were here

I wonder how many kids they would have, what they would be doing for a living, who they would be married too. Maybe someday I wont hurt so much or I would not feel so guilty for still being here,
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    Remembering back on these days are good..that's how I remember the ones I've I lost, but I know that
    was God's will, and I remember that they are in a good place with each other, and that makes me feel much better. emoticon emoticon
    45 days ago
    Sorry for your loss !
    47 days ago
  • EOWYN24241
    47 days ago
    Grief is not finite.

    If you haven't already, I strongly suggest that you talk with your Dr about it. Altho' I have said grief is not finite, 48 and 50 years is a very long time to hurt (and feel guilt) to the degree you are. Ask your Dr for a referral to a Grief Therapist, and IF you are on any medications, it might be time to tweak them.

    BIG hugs,
    Kris xxxx
    47 days ago
    It is natural to think back & wonder what if, however you can be glad you are here to remember your brothers.
    47 days ago
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