Gym, Stress, Bed
Wednesday, July 22, 2020
I did get to the gym on Tuesday. Having that specific time and expectation really got me out the door. I'm really sore today from it!
Food prep has kept me straight. When I get home and I no longer have that food prep to keep me straight, and I go haywire. Last night, especially, I over ate. One thing I've noticed though was that my parents stress me out which contributes to my eating. I was looking at a few apartments locally last night. I'm still unsure if I want to do that. If I do move out, I will need to do a short term lease or rent month to month. I'm still planning to move to Michigan, but the only communications I've received from employers has been rejection letters.
Gym went... okay. My stamina is maybe half what it was in February. That's not surprising. When I first got to the gym, it was nice, because almost no one was there. As the night rode on, more and more folks came in. I got more and more nervous, until finally a pair of guys sat on the bench next to me without masks and within 3 feet. I promised my girlfriend that I would simply leave if I thought it wasn't safe, and that's what I did. I just left at that point. The crowd was too much for me. My girlfriend is obviously not please in general with me going to the gym so I may have to go with the alternative solution of working out at home.
My girlfriend and I are doing well ATM, but it's really bugging me that I will only get to see her for a week, then I won't see her again for nearly three months. As we get closer, it's harder and harder to be away from her. My mom had asked for my girlfriend's resume to put her in a position at her team (which looks like it may have been subcontracted to the company I work for, which could let me earn brownie points by recommending her). I think my girlfriend would make a lot more money and do well in that position, but I still would rather move up to where she lives (for those who haven't been following, my gf is in Michigan and I'm in Maryland; 10 hour drive between us). The debate about who to move where has been stressing us both out. It's easier money wise for her to move here. It's easier in every other way for me to there. Stress isn't fun.
Still trying to get my sleep back where it needs to be. Bed is screwed up. Need to trash it and buy a new one. That's a hassle that's even more of a normal hassle due to CoVid.
Been thinking more and more about my WHYs. I don't have many that associate with my core values, so I'm struggling to make them important. But I'm working on it.
Stay Strong, Sleep Long, and Keep On Keepin' On!