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Struggling

Wednesday, August 05, 2020

Since my husband's death on July 24th which just happens to be our 27th wedding😭 anniversary things have been very difficult, as you can imagine.. I'm struggling. I used to love to exercise. And now just something of a pastime. My eating habits have suffered. I've been basically living off of his ensure and boost drinks because I haven't had an appetite n I don't want to pass out. Tonight I ate my second dinner since he died. ldk why is it feels different because we basically never really ate together anyway because of a work schedule. There was many a night where I cooked for 1 and ate by myself and was fine. Other than dropping my plate because of my SCI. 😆 No problems. It feels different now. Everything feels different. Not only did my husband die too young n too soon. But soon I'm going to face eviction and I have to put down a dog (old n cancer 😥) And then find a place to live that will let me keep my other pets. But that's a pipe dream because we weren't prepared for this, my husband had no life insurance. I spoke to a grief counselor and I think I'm supposed to speak to her again this Friday I'm not sure my mind is reeling with everything I have to do. It doesn't help. Without my husband who I've been with since I was 19 years old, I feel lost, incomplete and, alone. I have no family nor did we ever have any children. I need to make sure I keep my movement up because of my sci bc it's a part of both my OT and PT at home. I must to make eating a priority. Because if I don't have my health will suffer. Sometimes you just have to put one foot in front of the other and doing nothing more
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  • A1DENSMOM
    I'm so sorry to be reading this. If you ever need someone to, post on my spark page and I will give you my email.
    71 days ago
  • GOULDSGRANITE
    I am so sorry for your loss. Grief counseling can be most helpful, your blogging similar. Hopefully some of us can help with encouragement and a listening ear to bear some of the heavy weight you are carrying today. Thank you for sharing.
    93 days ago
  • BEATLETOT
    God. It’s all too much. I am so sorry for your loss and all the stressors in your life right now. I’ll be thinking about you.
    113 days ago
  • no profile photo LYNNLONG1
    I am so sorry for your loss. Just take one day at a time. I would suggest you start exercising because it makes me happy. 😄
    113 days ago
  • 7STIGGYMT
    Take one day at a time. I wish I could give you a hug!
    113 days ago
  • YOUCANDOITNANA
    I am so sorry. Sometimes the only thing you can do is simply put one foot in front of the other, as you wrote. You have much to cope with right now. Sending positive thoughts of strength and peace to you.
    113 days ago
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