Today is my last day of my 40's
Thursday, August 27, 2020
Going into my 40's... my sisters, mother, friends, everyone told me that was going to be my PERFECT decade... in many ways it was... it seemed like there was so much going on in life... my kids were slowly becoming teenagers and I wasn't afraid to speak my mind. My marriage was stronger than I could have ever imagined and we camped and did stuff together. I was in good shape physically and mentally.
Today I am looking back longing for some of those moments... just a moment more with my parents (who are both deceased now), or to have a bed full of sweet little kids who still want to snuggle their parents. I want to go back and live them again and again and again... because they were great. I still have those sweet babies but they are growing into amazing adults. I still have that amazing husband but we stay home more. I do still speak my mind... sometimes too much but oh well... and I am in good shape still physically and mentally... but I see that the 'check engine' light has come on with a lot of my family and friends now.
I don't want to be physically limited and that scares me ... I just for a moment want to be in the throws of my 40's.