Self-Sabotage and Mental Roadblocks
Sunday, September 20, 2020
A friend asked me to join her in her goal of losing 40 pounds by January 1st. We started this past Monday- September 14th. We had both gotten off track and needed to really jump start. Here's the thing: if I eat in my carb goal range, I should lose an average of 7-8 pounds per month. That's not going to make me lose 40 pounds in 3 1/2 months. Did I tell my friend this? No. I don't want to do or say anything to sabotage or make her doubt her goals. I agreed to try to lose the 40 pounds, and I will. I have decided that if I lose 30, I will be happy. If I lose 40, I will be ecstatic. It's not impossible. It just might be a bit of a stretch. The importance is in the trying. Every right move you make is a positive.
I have been contemplating setting September 1st as my start date instead of September 14th, even though I didn't actually start until the 14th. It would increase the possibility of losing the actual 40 pounds. If I set my start date as September 1st, I would be 6 pounds down as of yesterday. If I set my start date as September 14th, I would be 1 pound down.
All of that said, weekends are my downfall. I ate things Friday night that I shouldn't have eaten, going pretty far over on carbs. And then today, I did the same thing. I ate pizza, breadsticks, cookies, popcorn... Why must I always self-sabotage? I know that come Monday, I will be back on the wagon- maybe even on Sunday. But then weekend will come again. I don't know why I do so much better on work days. I guess it's because I'm not at home for as many hours, and at home, the only people who see what I'm eating are my family, and they're eating the same things. But I need to stop screwing up on the weekends. I am working on building up my stock of low-carb items/low-carb cooking materials, but I have to build it up fairly slowly as it's extra stuff on the grocery list.
I think I have some mental roadblocks that I need to work through, I'm just not sure how to go about it. Time to do some researching. :)