Well, yesterday afternoon I got the … heebeejeebees. DD is having a rough time in St Louis. I can’t help. DS2 here in the Rockies … is having a rough time. I can’t help.
Then this morning DS1 in Texas called to share bad health news. I am still processing it. Cirrhosis of the liver and he is NOT a drinker. Next steps aren't until mid-October when he is seen by the specialist. I want to get in the car and drive 18 hours to get to him. But was told ... no. When the head and the heart aren't on the same page ... what to do, what to do.
The desire to eat the house down was more than overwhelming. Lots of tears. Lots of pacing around the house. Lots more tears.
I chose to hit the treadmill and try to "work" out my feelings.
More from Steve #30:
Fat people eat for instant pleasure.
Fit people eat for delayed gratification.
Fat people use food like a drug to alter the way they feel. Every few hours, the food junkie needs another fix to keep their emotions high.
This eating for instant pleasure addiction is easy to develop and requires commitment and courage to break.
The key to breaking this addiction is to find other methods of altering your state of mind. Fit people use exercise to enhance the pleasure they experience.
Fat people believe change like this require great discipline, but fit people know that building a new habit gets a little easier every day.
The most painful part of the process is making the decision to do it.
Critical Thinking Question: Are you using food as a drug to alter your emotional states of mind or do you view it as your body’s primary fuel source???
Action Step: Start to monitor the reason you’re eating what you’re eating and when you’re eating it. This will give you a glimpse of why you’re getting the results you’re getting.
I HOPE to develop the habit of using exercise to alter my state of mind. I do feel better these days participating in exercise.
I have used food to anesthetize myself for eons. So, the habit to cruise the kitchen when my feels are overwhelming is deeply ingrained.
Yesterday I banged around an empty kitchen coz of the home improvements. I looked kinda funny staring into empty cupboards but it brought to light the “habit” coz my studio is actually our make shift kitchen and I never walked in there.
PS … today's painting the hall ceiling project got put on hold.
Change your mind … and the rest WILL follow.
Coz … I want to be ME.
**Within this blog is my longwinded thoughts based on my reading and humble understanding of Steve Siebold’s Die Fat or Get Tough and years and years and years of searching for thinness and … self-peace.