Halloween and the full moon
Monday, October 05, 2020
Some of you might know that I was raised in a satanic cult in which horrible things were done on halloween but especially if it fell on a full moon. I have done LOTS and years of therapy and went from being triggered by everything in the stores, being petrified and panicked on all the kids wearing masks on halloween to being able to even pass out candy to kids.
You know how memories come out in layers. I honestly thought I was done with the cult memories but this year as October hit, I feel panic and my PTSD full force. I can't stand to look or see anything about halloween in the stores, tv etc.
I have no idea why I am saying all this, I guess trying to make me feel this is real? or that if I put this out there, I will somehow be safe? I don't know.
But please be sensitive to maybe someone about this upcoming halloween and the full moon. Just writing this now makes me want to cry. why do I have to do this again? I hate this. I want this month to be over already. I just thought I had come so far and over this. Why now? Why more? I don't' want to do this again.