Back where I started, but better
Tuesday, October 13, 2020
My weight isn't where I want it to be. I'm back wearing the same size pants I wore when I was at my biggest and many of the same shirts. I can see myself intentionally choosing clothes that are too big in order to hide myself. I hate my stomach. That said, I've reached out to a trainer and, if he's busy, I have another trainer I'm thinking of as a backup (and a third trainer, if he too is busy). Aside from that, I've been going through my own head and reviewing what I know, what I have done, what worked and didn't work, etc. I'm trying to remember the lessons I learned.
Last week was terrible for weight loss. I had a weird work schedule and was oddly sleepy. On two of my four day weekend, I slept all day, only getting up to eat. I was simply super sleepy. Even today, during work, I'm feeling really sleepy. I should go to the gym anyways, but Idk.
Martial arts was cancelling Sunday, so the last time I've worked out was Thursday. Bah!
Well, I've been thinking about workouts and sleeping a lot. It's actually made me a lot less foggy-headed, which I didn't realize I was. Mornings have been harder though. Going to hope back on the tracking bandwagon, if nothing else. Need to be accountable to myself.
At least this time around, I have some idea of what a deficit is, how to build a workout, and how to get the support I need.