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Looking for My Inner Strength

Friday, October 23, 2020

I have been doing pretty well BUT those nagging doubts are starting to creep in so I need to put these thoughts on paper where I can see them and put them in perspective. I have been at my goal weight for 28 weeks (6 1/2 months). This is my second time around and after failing so miserably the first time--I am determined to succeed this time. I was afraid I wouldn't be able to adjust to maintenance for the long term. I know I need to continue to track and measure my intake--that is key for me. Lesson learned. I know I need to continue with regular activity and exercise and that is such a habit now (except for ST--still working on that) that I am not concerned about sustaining that part of a healthy lifestyle. What does concern me is how I have been feeling lately. When I started in maintenance, I was hesitant to add back in calories to stop losing weight and I was afraid I'd add too many and start gaining. Slowly, I did feel more comfortable adding a few calories, preferring to stay at the lower end of my calorie range. My weight has stabilized and I had been feeling very confident that I am and will be a success story. However, it has only been 7 months so far and I am a long way from being able to say I've lost the weight and kept it off long term.

I have noticed that lately, my motivation is faltering. My mind has been telling me "go ahead and have that piece of candy--you deserve it". And another part of me says "remember what you want more than you want that candy". All through my weight loss process, I did not deprive myself and I was able to stick to just one piece of candy or one cookie but for some reason......I am finding it harder and harder to stick to "just one". I am afraid that one will become two and then two will become three and then the pounds will start piling on. I knew this stage would be hard. I thought I had it all under control. I am starting to have my doubts.

I am reminding myself of my "why". I am looking at before and after pics to remember where I was and where I am now. I am continuing my healthy habits. I am reaching out to others for support. I am baring it all here to acknowledge and face my reality. I use distraction and activity and water to prevent overindulgence. I am concerned it won't be enough. I remind myself to take this one day at a time, to make one good decision after another. Relax. Breathe. Carry on.
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    Suseee, you are doing a great job of maintenance. Like Elaine, I am also a yo-yo dieter so I understand what you are saying perfectly. I hope you find a way to deal with this. I find what works best for me is to do projects that keep me too busy to think about food - in other words, distract myself. emoticon You are so inspiring.
    34 days ago
    You are smart to do what you are doing and to write this!
    34 days ago
    Suseee, you have done so well, and I understand your anxiety, keeping the weight off is just as hard as losing it. I am a prime example of that, I have yo-yoed for yrs, losing the weight and gaining it back.I am in a major rut right now, dealing with my nemises and that is sweets. Give yourself a little slack, allow those little treats but just don't over-do, The Battle of the Bulge is a mind boggling game, but you have proved yourself to be a success with hard work and perseverence. Keep on Keeping on . You are a great example to us, you have shown us It can be done!
    34 days ago
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