Lifting yourself up and continuing forward
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
I decided to blog about the Healthy Reflections email I received from SparkPeople yesterday. It contained a quote by Elvis Presley :-)
"When things go wrong don't go with them."
I used to be the Queen of pity parties. All it took was for one bad thing to happen in my life and I could instantly think of 20 more things that were just horrible. I'd cry, mope, sulk and dwell on the negative until I felt like the most hopeless person on earth. (Don't I sound like quite the peach?)
I don't know when I stopped doing that, but I know that I haven't felt like that in quite some time. Oh, I definitely have my bad days, but they distinctly end with my coming up with a plan to fix whatever's wrong or realizing that things aren't so bad. Whether it's some magic rose-colored glasses I wear now or just a more positive attitude, it's much better than where I was!
First of all, one thing worse than feeling hopeless is feeling HELPLESS. Imagine how awful it is to feel like you have absolute no control over the "bad" things in your life! I did not like that feeling at all. And that's what my negative attitude did. Made me feel like I had no choice but to let things happen and cry about them. No no no. Even for occurences that we really do have no control over, we can control our reactions and how we deal with them. Have my initial reaction of sadness, anger, grief, etc. work through the emotions, reflect on what it all means, and resolve to make peace with it by accepting it or changing it.
There are so many lessons to life that are around us and that's how I view a lot of my hard times. To show me how strong I am, to show me my weaknesses and how to improve them, to show areas for potential growth or maturity, to learn how to do something better the next time...whatever the lesson is, it's there.
Do you ever look at how long some people have been members of SparkPeople? Do you ever wonder how their journey has been? I do! And I think about my own journey. Honestly, it's embarrassing that I started in April 2006 at 160 something pounds, and now I weigh close to 190. WTF?!?! And why am I even still here?!?! It's all about the journey. Even at my fattest, I've never felt so motivated and sure of my end goal than I do now. I can clearly see what overeating does, what the lack of exercising does...and definitely what they BOTH do at the same time. :-P I love all of Spark's new tools and enjoy reading all those health articles and success stories, learning what works for other people. I love starting a new month feeling like THIS IS REALLY GOING TO BE IT THIS TIME! Ha! I love joining different teams and challenges and getting to know my brethern in the struggle.
Sometimes -including today- I feel like I'm never going to see the 160s again, let alone my goal of 145. But what's the point of giving up? Tomorrow will be better, so GET OVER IT and MAKE IT HAPPEN! :-P