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Thursday, January 24, 2008
Ok so Im not really a blogger so to speak but figured I give it a try.
I signed up for this Kmart New Day contest and Im already stressed out from it. You must lose 2lbs every 2 weeks and can only miss that mark once in a 12 week period. I was so excited last week when I had lost 4lbs. it was like YES this is gonna work. Well this week Im retaining water and afraid that the scale on Saturday is going to hate me. I dont want to miss the mark on the first weigh in. On top of that I was suppose to recieve an activation link for their support community and it hasnt come. Ive sent emails about it and am still waiting. I wonder if my entry was even sent in. In a way I would probably be relieved if it wasnt.
On top of that its just not easy fitting in proper workouts with almost 1 year old twins. Their schedule takes up so much of my day that I have to try and squeeze something in during naps. Some days at that time I dont feel like it. I have no one to come watch them for me so I can get some time in and by the time the older kids and DH is home theres too much going on.
I want to do this and I thought it be easier second time around since I know what needs to be done. Its not!!!! I wish I didnt gain my weight back, I wish I tried harder after the boys came home to finish off those 8lbs that I had left to lose. No stupid me goes and gains 50lb. How in the world could I have let myself do that???
Im too heavy for my TM, the eliptical kills me, the bike makes my ass sore and I just have to bide my time and wait for the Gazelle to arrive. I am so hoping that at least will make it easier to fit in some good exercise. Something I can do while the babies are awake.
I dont to be one who complains all the time. Im just sooooo frustrated right now, and my body hurts from the fibro!
Kmart weigh in schedule:
WISH ME LUCK! Im gonna need it. There were actually women signing up who weighed what I want to weigh at goal. They havent got a clue on how it feels to be over 200lbs or pushing 300lbs. One woman cried because she weighed 134lbs!!! Can you believe that??? Someone really needs to slap her. Its the people who only have a max of 50lbs that win those contests anyway because they can slim down and tone up and look good. Those of us who are obese can slim down but no matter how much you tone its still not going to be appealing enough for the judging. What was I thinking??? How am I gonna compete with that? Its all going to be about image, I know it. Who's going to want to give someone who is still obese a makeover and photo shoot to represent their company??
Alright Im just psyching myself down now so Ill stop.