Abstinence Lost...pregnancy gained
Monday, May 04, 2015      3 comments

I started attending OA April 1, 2013. After 6 mos of learning about the program and what abstinence meant, I tried it on for size. It worked. I enjoyed the program and loved, in particular, my groups in the East Bay of San Francisco. But I ... Read more
OA - my experience & Abstinence
Wednesday, June 11, 2014      4 comments

Are you a member of OA? Have you ever tried it? Do you think it's crazy or wouldn't work for you? I did. It took 20 years, several failed attempts at joining, and urging by a good therapist, for me to finally give it a fair trial. Unbelievably... Read more
pizza and numbness
Tuesday, March 18, 2014      4 comments

since my late 20s i've had a problem with numbness and tingling in my hands and feet, especially when i sleep. at the time it started i was only a little overweight. it tends to get severe when i eat binge foods. i'd wake up and parts of me woul... Read more
an X addict
Wednesday, March 12, 2014      7 comments

there is something powerful about acknowledging addictive behavior and patterns. once one truly identifies as an addict, it is no longer possible to continue to say 'i can have a bit of X today at the celebration, picnic, dinner time, or whateve... Read more
Sabotage & Recovery
Thursday, January 23, 2014      8 comments

Well I have been really good at sabotaging my results lately. I keep expecting my scale to jump down a couple of pounds and instead it is ouncing it's way up and down. And the fact is just when I should start to see results from days of good eat... Read more
Finally headed down the Scale
Thursday, December 05, 2013      4 comments

Last month I posted about my old scale being off by SIX pounds (that is it made me think I was 6 pounds lighter than I am). My little ticker has been stuck at 193 because I didn't have the courage to update it to the true number. A month la... Read more
Scale Blues
Tuesday, November 05, 2013      7 comments

My scale is off by 6 pounds...that is that it apparently reads 6 pounds lighter than I am. It has ever since I started on Spark 18mos ago, but I didn't realize it was wrong until now. The nuisance is that I just lost 7 pounds when I discove... Read more
What it was like to give up
Tuesday, October 01, 2013      4 comments

It started with Thanksgiving and Pinterest last year. I finally discovered the photolicious site and was hooked. I loved gandering the organizing and creative ideas...but then I started to notice the FOOD. G-d, the recipes and the images of dess... Read more
Nobody's Perfect (Not even the Stars)
Tuesday, April 30, 2013      3 comments

If you ever get to thinking that you're oh so average---or, maybe you're like me & think you're well below that, then take a look at these stars with and without make-up. It's amazing what an equalizer the au naturale look can be. Okay, a f... Read more
Food Aphorism - April 25
Thursday, April 25, 2013      2 comments

If I didn't have a problem with food, I'd eat all the time. (adapted from Havelock Ellis' aphorism substituting food for alcohol) ... Read more
Message of Wisdom
Friday, April 19, 2013      4 comments

It doesn't matter whether you believe in Angels or in anything at all. If you enjoy the idea of hearing an affirming message, and maybe you once had and stopped using Wisdom or Angel Cards, or maybe you never had them. But for today, why not try... Read more
still away
Thursday, February 07, 2013      2 comments

my pause didn't last...they never do. but i have spark in the back of my thoughts always. i'll be back. until then, take care.... Read more
Here for today
Friday, February 01, 2013      2 comments

Visiting SP again, even for a day, helped me. Writing the post helped. Receiving supportive comments helped. I cried. And cried. And even now I'm close to tears. Support is an immeasurable gift. I managed not to binge for the wasn'... Read more
Never More Scared
Thursday, January 31, 2013      7 comments

I'm not sure I'm coming back right now. I wanted to come for a visit. I wanted to try to remember what I felt like, what it felt like to be on SP. I was in control of myself and it was getting pretty easy. Until I made a decision to let go and b... Read more
No Comments Needed
Wednesday, November 14, 2012      5 comments

Sometimes I just want to disappear. So I do. Sometimes I want to be here and be invisible. I haven't fully mastered that. I'm just feeling very private. I don't want to hear the usual fodder about what others think is right or even what's workin... Read more

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