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New path
Monday, February 03, 2020      3 comments

I've finally realized that, even though it's the only thing that has worked, I can't track my food forever. I REALLY thought I was DONE a couple years ago and could maintain things on my own but I cannot win the battle with myself over food. I'm... Read more
False starts and a new plan
Wednesday, November 20, 2019      2 comments

I was completely off the wagon and gained it all back, and probably more - the battery in my scale is dead. *sigh* I think I've decided to get bariatric surgery. I just can't put so much work into measuring and weighing and tracking m... Read more
Here's to another round!
Tuesday, October 16, 2018      1 comments

Two months really goes fast. I didn't realize I'd been away that long. Haven't tracked in a long while but hopefully I'll get it going again. So busy these days, it's hard to make time. I've been taking classes, trying to finish my AA, but... Read more
How to deal with family that makes too much food?
Monday, July 23, 2018      4 comments

Last night we went to my boyfriend's parents' house to celebrate his birthday. His mother always makes way too much food. WAY too much. There are 5 adults and a child and she had: Appetizers: ~ Huge veggie tray with ranch dip ~ Mozzarel... Read more
Is anyone watching Dietland on AMC?
Friday, July 20, 2018      1 comments

It's been sitting on my DVR waiting til I have time to watch. I finally got the first 2 hours done and it's really good. Very powerful and intriguing. I can't wait to see where it goes!... Read more
Trainer troubles
Friday, July 06, 2018      2 comments

I've been going to the same personal trainer at my gym for about 2 years, and in general he's a good trainer but his dietary advice has always been very strict and unattainable, for me. I never stopped going to our weekly appointments but I fell... Read more
Step 1
Monday, July 02, 2018      4 comments

I just tracked my breakfast for the first time in a long while. I reread my earlier blog posts. 11 months ago, I turned 40 and I wrote that I was in the best shape of my adult life. Well now I've gained back half of the 60 lbs I lost. I was SO c... Read more
Have you seen my motivation lately?
Friday, February 16, 2018      5 comments

I finally got back to the gym this week and it felt good. But what also felt good was the extra time I had in my days when I wasn't going. I really miss free time, I get so little of it for myself. Taking 2 classes this semester, one is a p... Read more
Injuries suck...
Wednesday, February 07, 2018      2 comments

I pulled a muscle in my back during last Tuesday's trainer workout and it still hurts. The inside of my right shoulder blade. It hurts all the time, even just sitting but it is getting better since it brought me to tears through Thursday. I went... Read more
Happy New Year!
Tuesday, January 02, 2018      2 comments

I think I succeeded in making myself so sick with all the sweets in December that I don't want to go anywhere near it now. There's cake, cookies, and cupcakes out in the kitchen at work and just the thought grosses me out. I did make a honey app... Read more
Back on the little blue pill
Thursday, November 30, 2017      4 comments

No, not THAT one. Yikes. I'm back on the Belviq as of this morning. My weight problem is not from poor nutrition. It is not from lack of exercise. My problem is impulse control. And that's exactly what the Belviq helps with. It does not wor... Read more
Scared straight (?)
Wednesday, November 29, 2017      4 comments

Got on the scale this morning. I've regained 16 pounds... not 8. Frack. Getting way too close to 200lbs again. I will, WILL turn this around. WILL! So mad at myself. AAAAARRRRGGGGG... Read more
Rededication, my ass.
Tuesday, November 28, 2017      7 comments

I am floundering. My eating has been bad and tracking has been sporadic and my gym time hasn't been as often or intense as it could be. Why can't I get my brain back in the game? I give in way too easily on my cravings. The voice in my head says... Read more
Rededication to health and fitness
Monday, September 18, 2017      1 comments

Now that life has returned to normal after the hurricane I seriously need to rededicate myself to losing weight. All summer I've been doing the bare minimum and just maintaining weight and then I let Irma completely derail me. There were hurrica... Read more
Checking in post-Irma
Tuesday, September 12, 2017      2 comments

Everything's ok after the hurricane. We got electricity back a few hours ago but internet is still iffy. No major house damage. Keep sparking!... Read more

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