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Not Always Perfect
Saturday, September 12, 2015      3 comments

The past couple of weeks have been a struggle, but I am still here. I had days where I was perfectly on track with my program. I had days where I was most definitely not. It's okay. Yes, really. The fact is, off track has become a muc... Read more
My Health Scare
Friday, August 14, 2015      7 comments

A couple of weeks ago, I had a health scare. A big one. I have not spoken about it yet here, but it was life changing. I was sitting at my computer doing some schoolwork. All of a sudden I had chest pains. And pressure. And then it mov... Read more
Break Through
Wednesday, August 12, 2015      4 comments

I have a little story. It is actually really big for me. Last night I was feeling burnt out from the day, and getting ready for a school conference call. It was after 7pm. I had put off my workout all day. I told my partner that I was feeling ba... Read more
Getting Back Up
Tuesday, August 11, 2015      1 comments

I have been thinking about coming back for a while. I considered scrapping this blog and starting over. I have been embarrassed. Up until the past month or so, I had just given up. I mean I have made some healthy changes one at a time to get to ... Read more
Excuses and Resolve
Thursday, January 29, 2015      0 comments

Sometimes when life takes over and gets chaotic, I think a lot of us tend to put our own self care and our own wants and needs on the back burner. I am often guilty of this, and have done this through the winter BL challenge I have been involved... Read more
Self Talk
Monday, January 12, 2015      1 comments

I just read an article on negative self talk, and it definitely hit home for me. I honestly believe that much of my struggle to stay on track is due to the awful things I say to myself all day, every day. I literally emotionally and verbally abu... Read more
Goodbye to 2014
Wednesday, December 31, 2014      4 comments

I am ready to say goodbye to 2014. As I reflect on my year, I can see all of the ways I have failed at taking care of myself. I hate feeling this way. I do not like being fat and unhealthy. It is miserable. 2015 is about to begin with a clean sl... Read more
Heartbreak and Emotional Eating
Saturday, December 20, 2014      5 comments

As some of you know I work in a really intense social services setting with victims of domestic and sexual violence. The past week- especially yesterday was super intense. I had some clients whose stories were so much. By the end of the day, I f... Read more
Frustration
Thursday, December 18, 2014      3 comments

I can honestly say that I am really frustrated with myself. I have taken on a challenge with great intentions, but this week I really did not do a great job of following through. I ate far too many office and get together treats, and my cardio w... Read more
New Challenge
Saturday, December 06, 2014      5 comments

It has been a long time since I have joined a challenge. I tried one a couple of years ago, and failed miserably. I know now, that I just was not in a place where I could be truly invested in making the changes to be successful. I fee... Read more
Turning 40
Wednesday, November 26, 2014      2 comments

My 40th birthday should have been nice- I was given the gift of a day out with lunch with my Honey. It was so kind of him to take the day off and spend it with me, and trying to make the day special. And he did... I ruined my own day i... Read more
Happy Saturday
Saturday, November 22, 2014      3 comments

Well, I have had a perfect morning. I woke up at 5 am just because. I love the peace and quiet of the world still sleeping on a Saturday morning. Just me, my espresso, and the kitties. I surfed, I read, I relaxed, and even meditated. I had time ... Read more
Feeling Good
Wednesday, November 19, 2014      2 comments

It is nice to be feeling fairly good again, after a couple of rocky weeks. I did end up going inpatient for a few days for my bipolar to deal with some medication issues. I am much better for it. I have been making better choices with ... Read more
Feeling Strong
Sunday, November 16, 2014      3 comments

The past week I have made mostly good food choices, although I did not exercise. I do not know why the exercise is so hard to do, but I find every excuse in the book. Usually it is the I am too tired one. Sometimes it is about being so busy. I k... Read more
Slow Start- But Moving Through It
Saturday, November 08, 2014      1 comments

So today I have had a slow start. There is much on my to-do list, yet here at my pc I am, with it being after 10:00 am, already. I am trying to rationalize that it is okay. I am not on a time line today. I have a lot to get done, but the house w... Read more

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