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Friday, December 06, 2019      3 comments

Well today I woke up the crab monster. I am stressed out. Not in a way I can not handle but in a way I know I have control over other people's decisions. I got on the scale and saw 183.6. I attribute that to the whole bag of hershey kisses a... Read more
12/5/19 ughhh
Thursday, December 05, 2019      1 comments

I have fallen off the wagon and I can't get back on it. I set out each day to get back on the wagon and just keep falling off. First of all almost all of everything in my life is falling apart. I am trying to suck it up and just move on. I h... Read more
Tuesday, November 26, 2019      2 comments

Well fasting blood sugar was over 200. So I upped my insulin back to the full amount at least through the holidays until I can get my head, heart and soul back on straight. I am digging deep just to lift my head, heart and soul through the hol... Read more
Monday, November 25, 2019      1 comments

took 40 units of insulin today. fbsl 178 weight 169 lbs I have been having a very rough couple of weeks with situations in my life. I went from being on top of the world for the first time in my 47 years of life to devastated and these s... Read more
Friday, November 22, 2019      1 comments

fbsl 141 166.0 lbs ... Read more
Thursday, November 21, 2019      3 comments

168.4 lbs fbsl 133 Anyone know a trick to not feeling emotions anymore?... Read more
Wednesday, November 20, 2019      1 comments

169.8 lbs fbsl 198 For those who do know, this is not a good change.... Read more
Tuesday, November 19, 2019      1 comments

Weight 168.8 up 8.8 lbs fasting blood sugar 151 up due to high stress and emotional pain. ... Read more
Monday, November 18, 2019      2 comments

166.2 today. emoticon Need a circle of people to hold me up.... Read more
Sunday, November 17, 2019      2 comments

Ate like I used to yesterday. Paid for it last night and today. I didn't wake up until noon today but could have slept a few more days straight through. 163.8 lbs today. I WAS 160 yesterday morning. I am sure it wont stay on my body. I am ... Read more
Friday, November 15, 2019      0 comments

SIGH~~~~~ I am trying to be upbeat and positive today. Even though I still have a lot on my mind. I have been up since 3 am crying. So much happiness to so much sorrow in such a quick time. I put make up on today in an effort to not cry to... Read more
Thursday, November 14, 2019      3 comments

76.8 lbs down 43.2 lbs more to my major main goal. Please pray for someone I care very deeply for, someone very very important to me. Something was found on an MRI of the brain and determination if it is getting bigger or smaller is bein... Read more
11/12/19 addition
Tuesday, November 12, 2019      1 comments

Thank you to everyone who showed me compassion today. I just want to be clear. My depression is not something that needs professional treatment. It is situational. And today my heart was broken. My trust in someone was broken. And I hurt... Read more
Tuesday, November 12, 2019      5 comments

Today started off bad. Very depressed today and don't see it changing. emoticon ... Read more
Monday, November 11, 2019      1 comments

Feeling frustrated with situations in my life. A couple to be exact. It doesn't make me happy. I rode about 40 minutes on the recumbent bike this morning and one situation interrupted that and I never got back to it. I am trying ... Read more

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