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Life in the new lane
Saturday, March 07, 2020      1 comments

The mental honeymoon after sleeve surgery is starting to wane. Emotionally, I have to accept my new way of eating. Tiny meals of 1/2 cup of food; 5 meals in a day. The need to focus on protein. I've had to deal with compulsive thoughts o... Read more
I have a new sleeve
Sunday, February 16, 2020      3 comments

I had VSG, Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy on 1/21/2020. That's where a surgeon cut 80% of my stomach away, leaving me a small sleeve as a stomach. IRL, "in real life," there seems to be a cliche that this is cheating, the easy way out, that i... Read more
Something is happening
Wednesday, January 23, 2019      3 comments

I am a compulsive eater, have been since childhood. It's a horrible, horrible way to live. I started sparking anew this year and am on a 22 day streak. I am being swaddled by SP with new thoughts, new habits starting to take over, an... Read more
Move that butt
Monday, January 21, 2019      5 comments

I've been a slacker on the 15 minutes per day exercising. Today I did it! 1.5 minutes climbing down and up basement steps; 7 minutes on the Cubii (small floor machine - you sit in a chair and peddle your feet around); 7 minutes doing Begin... Read more
First rest stop on the SP highway
Friday, January 18, 2019      8 comments

I've been tracking, exercising, using various tools on the site for a couple weeks now. Today I've looked at all I've done. I want to lose weight. I need to use the data and tools I've been using and lasso my eating. I see in reality wha... Read more
Is someone sabotaging you?
Thursday, January 17, 2019      6 comments

Yes. My saboteur is me. I'm a dyed in the wool compulsive overeater, since early childhood. I know just about everything there is to know about nutrition, losing weight, etc. When I make headway with my self-care, I run myself off the ... Read more
SparkPeople and Twelve Steps
Friday, March 09, 2018      2 comments

I'm so erratic. I come and go. But SparkPeople has been a beacon in the night for me. I keep coming, but leaving after a day or 2. I retired 3 weeks ago. I had thought I could "finally get my body back" if I left the anxiety and bagga... Read more
my foundation
Sunday, October 08, 2017      0 comments

sorrow solitude sorrow for my little baby that might have been deep deep deep deep deep sorrow my mother didn’t love me she shoved me away she berated me she hit me she weighed me all the time she hated my body because she hat... Read more