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Some Mondays are Mondayer than others
Wednesday, June 11, 2014      0 comments

Am dealing with medical issues in addition to weight ones. Had to undergo labs this weekend. The results were not good on a couple of fronts. I was so upset. Was not sure how to deal with it. Went back to my old standby, which was food... Read more
When the ground feels like Jell-O
Friday, September 13, 2013      0 comments

I have been avoiding responding to a legal matter. I had been called as a witness in a criminal case, and it scared me. I have been putting my response to this off, putting my head in the sand, as if that would make everything go away. Sad t... Read more
Confused
Thursday, August 15, 2013      1 comments

Yesterday I ate and exercised according to plan. I am, as I said, increasingly aware of moments of choice. I am trying to make better ones. e.g. If I really feel hunger, late at night, I am trying to make the thing I'm eating healthier... Read more
Boomarangs are bad....
Wednesday, August 14, 2013      1 comments

As they relate to eating. Yesterday was eating on time, not eating until way to late, and then eating WAAAAY too much because I was so hunger, and then saying to myself it didn't matter what I ate after that, I'd already blown the plan for ... Read more
Feeling lost
Monday, August 12, 2013      2 comments

Yesterday I was upset, and didn't eat much. Today I went only slightly over goal....closer than many other days this week. All I can say is that when food isn't there to ease the pain, I feel lost, scared, confused, anxious, and a thou... Read more
The morning after a bad night
Saturday, August 10, 2013      1 comments

They tell you to beware of HALT problems. Things that come up when you are Hungry Angry Lonely or Tired. Last night, I was L and T. Ate in the middle of the night, something small, but not a wise choice. This morning started off a... Read more
Getting to the heart of the matter
Friday, August 09, 2013      1 comments

I have been looking at what is taking me away from achieving my goals. To my surprise it is a few things, that seem to all center around the loss of control or fear of loss of control. I also had NO idea how much anxiety was underlying my day ... Read more
Waaaay off the beaten path
Friday, February 08, 2013      0 comments

It's been a while since I last posted. One can only guess, but I think it's because I've been too busy, too sick, too confused, too frustrated, too embarrassed, or perhaps it's something altogether different. Nonetheless, I am able to post... Read more
Some days all I can do is......
Thursday, January 24, 2013      0 comments

Have been having serious out of control eating issues. I want to just forget about all this, and eat without concern, and sometimes I have...ok many times over the past month I have. Though I have wanted to give up, for a reason I cannot yet i... Read more
What am I doing this for and why should I bother?
Tuesday, January 08, 2013      0 comments

As one can tell, I'm having a bit of a problem. First, it was eating enough for my frame and my exercise level. Then it was obsessing, and under-eating and over-exercising. Then, in an effort to try to break my obsessive habit, ... Read more
Odd Shift in Paradigm
Wednesday, January 02, 2013      0 comments

I"ve been struggling..obsessing about food, exercise and weight. It's gotten so bad at times, that most of the time I have under-eaten, and prided myself on how many calories I could under eat. Food and my body had become my enemies. So,... Read more

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