Sunday, September 15, 2019 4 comments
I think part of the issues I have lately stem from old guilt. As if there is something wrong with me taking this much time to work on myself, to take care of myself. Old ideas that mom doesn't deserve time to herself, to exercise to meditate, ... Read more
Trying to learn to be kinder to myself....still.
Saturday, September 14, 2019 0 comments
Just when I think I have something down, figured out, I realize how not figured out I have it. I am always a work in progress, learning daily, messing up frequently, dusting myself off quite often. And that is ok. I am learning...that it is OK. ... Read more
Fully back on track.
Friday, September 13, 2019 5 comments
So after many, many days of feeling negative and overwhelmed and frustrated and blah, blah, blah....I already wrote about all that enough. I am finally back on track completely. This is day 2 back on track, my waist has gone down another half in... Read more
Realized something, and frustrated too.
Wednesday, September 11, 2019 1 comments
Ok, so I have been kind of comparing myself to the "old me" lately. The one who was young and fit and thin despite eating what I thought was a TON of food. But it kind of just hit me this morning, when I was younger I wasn't home all day! I am a... Read more
morning musings on food
Tuesday, September 10, 2019 0 comments
Ok, trying to get back into the clean diet again. I spent quite awhile off. I just had a healthy breakfast, a large breakfast, of 564 calories. I know I should feel satisfied, but I keep wanting to eat cookies. I could have sweets after every me... Read more
I want to stuff my face.
Monday, September 09, 2019 5 comments
I am having a heck of a time getting back on track with my diet. I have no idea why. On the one hand I think look how far I have come, I have lost 51 pounds! That is huge! Then I realize I have 70 more to lose and I get really depressed. I know,... Read more
Back on track, back is better.
Tuesday, September 03, 2019 1 comments
My back is better! YAY! I spent 3 days in bed last week because of back and hip pain. Tonight I managed to go to my tap dance class despite still being a bit stuff. It really loosened up during class. I did massive amounts of stretching, saw the... Read more
Saturday, August 31, 2019 2 comments
I learned a long time ago there are two types of hunger in regard to food. Emotional and physical. Well duh right? But it continues to astound me how easily those lines can become blurred so much so that occasionally I go through a time of not b... Read more
Musing over adjusting to my new weight.
Friday, August 30, 2019 2 comments
The funny thing about losing a lot of weight is I have had to get used to my body again. At first it was just exciting, seeing the scale go down week after week. And after a certain point my body began to feel so very different I had to readjust... Read more
My break taught me...
Tuesday, August 27, 2019 1 comments
Taking a break from my diet has taught me that it would be so easy to go back to old habits and gain back ALL the weight I lost so far. But it has also taught me that I do not like how I feel off my diet. Healthy foods in the proper portions mak... Read more
Living to eat was the end of all self love for me.
Friday, August 16, 2019 3 comments
After my last blog entry I got to thinking of how I used to live to eat. I had said how being fit and healthy is so much more fun than stuffing my face. And to be honest, stuffing my face with junk food is fun. I do enjoy it, though I do not do ... Read more
Musing on old habits versus new and whining a little bit.
Friday, August 16, 2019 1 comments
My entire life food has been a comfort, a fun thing, a thing I just did without thinking about it. As a young thin and very active person I ate a ton of food. I could always out eat anyone! Even at 19 I still was the same way. But soon as I brok... Read more
I actually like weighing daily.
Thursday, August 15, 2019 5 comments
I thought giving up weighing daily would be a good thing for me. So many places and people tell me just once a week or less. However I find it is a good tool for me to weigh daily. I eat less and make fewer, if any, excuses when I weigh daily. S... Read more
old habits die hard
Wednesday, July 24, 2019 2 comments
Took a little break, gained like five pounds, no biggie. Back on track and realizing just how huge of a habit eating was for me, still is. I have to make a conscious decision every day to not snack after dinner. For years and years eating more f... Read more
Tuesday, July 16, 2019 5 comments
I have a love hate relationship with my diet. On the one hand I love that it has helped me come to terms with my food addiction, I can manage to only eat when truly physically hungry and really am enjoying all the healthier foods! I also feel so... Read more
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