Kind of Crazy
Tuesday, June 02, 2009      1 comments

I felt like I was getting back on track - I decided to try not to let single mis-steps ruin my entire day, to be completely and totally honest with myself and my goals, and to just take each day as a series of steps that need to be walked - the ... Read more
Friday, May 29, 2009      4 comments

I've been REALLY trying to stay positive, get in some kind of movement every day, and stay on my calorie plan. I swear I am. But I just can't take everything else anymore. My son, who will be 5 next month, has decided that he doesn't wan... Read more
The Fat Stereotype
Sunday, May 17, 2009      1 comments

I've never been a mean person, but I am an overly sensitive one. I never speak without thinking first, and I can't honestly tell you the last time I hurt somebody's feelings. I try hard not to use hurtful words, and I do not judge a book; or a... Read more
Trying to get back
Friday, May 01, 2009      3 comments

I am having the hardest time just making myself do the things that I know I should. I have such a profound and deep sense of grief and loss after the end of my pregnancy (ectopic). While I am cognizant enough to know that the baby couldn't sur... Read more
Sunday, April 05, 2009      7 comments

I've been trying to write this blog for never seems right and I end up upset, but I need to do it. As some of you know, I found out that I was pregnant in mid-January. My husband and I were overjoyed - we've been trying to add ... Read more
Starting at the beginning
Friday, January 02, 2009      11 comments

I finally did it. I finally broke down and updated my weight, my exercise goals, and put myself back in stage 1 of the spark diet. I lost over 40 pounds on the spark diet last year, but I'm up about 20 from where I was. Trying to go from wher... Read more
Back to the Beginning
Thursday, June 26, 2008      16 comments

I have come to a few realizations this week. I think that I know a few things today. I realized that the natural plateau that I had started a huge backslide for me. The first 6 weeks of it, I was doing okay - sticking to my plan, defini... Read more
Sunday, June 22, 2008      9 comments

My little boy turned 4 today - well, June 21st, it's after midnight - so I guess it's technically the 22nd. He's a smart, wonderful little boy. But I am sitting alone at my computer crying again because I think it is time for me to realize tha... Read more
Feeling Full
Thursday, June 12, 2008      10 comments

Today I realized that maybe understanding myself and my weight issues boils down to something very simple. Feeling full. I know that in the past I have eaten things long after I stopped needing the nourishment and long past the point at which ... Read more
So Much Weighing To Do
Thursday, June 05, 2008      13 comments

Turning and turning in the widening gyre The falcon cannot hear the falconer; Things fall apart; the center cannot hold; Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world, The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere The ceremony of innoce... Read more
Tuesday, May 27, 2008      16 comments

I'm tired. I'm hungry. I'm cranky and sunburnt and bloated and any number of unpleasant things. My motivation, my drive, my hope, and my weight loss have all been on an extended vacation for going on 12 weeks now, and I can't seem to get them... Read more
Recognizing my Emotional Eating triggers
Monday, May 12, 2008      7 comments

I have another spark diet cue to address. At first I found them kind of annoying, and then I started to like it. I spend the first week in a bewilderment, and then the reflection and looking inward starts to help. I am supposed to addre... Read more
The Good In The Bad
Wednesday, May 07, 2008      10 comments

My husband, Tim, and I have to go to a wake tonight. His sister has been married for almost 5 years - she's 26 and her husband is 25. It's his mother that passed away. She had been battling cancer since before their wedding, and was suffering... Read more
Friday, May 02, 2008      12 comments

This morning was my 6th week of weigh in since losing weight. I lost 3 pounds. Finally. In my ecstatic elation over having lost weight finally, I missed some very big things that this meant. In my head quarters are easy to follow. I p... Read more
Trouble Goals?
Thursday, May 01, 2008      8 comments

I am at the point in the spark diet where it cues me to blog about a trouble goal. I have been thinking about it for about a week, and I wasn't able to pick just one. My husband and I joke that if we could pause life, we would get a lot ac... Read more

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