Sometimes when realization hits, it's not always nice..
Monday, August 17, 2015      7 comments

I was at a cousins birthday party yesterday. She turned 11. Seems like just yesterday she was a lil chunkamonk lol :) And now shes 11 going on 25 and bossy lol Anyways, she had a bouncy house waterslide... yes they make those. Wish my daug... Read more
All bypass preliminary stuff done
Tuesday, August 04, 2015      3 comments

Finally last month all of my preliminary medical stuff for the gastric bypass was done, I was submitted for approval for the surgery, and approved a week later. Just waiting now to hear back on a date for my surgery. I am not nervous yet, ... Read more
The Good Always Die Young - R.I.P. Maurice L Cote
Monday, December 29, 2014      6 comments

Im 26 now, this is ten years later. I have gone through debilitating heartbreak, grief that made me want to curl up and die. You name it. I realize a lot of families aren't as close as I am with mine... Cousins are just cousins to some peop... Read more
medical issues up the wazoooooooo... But Im working on it.
Tuesday, December 23, 2014      2 comments

A lot has happened since my last post anywhere... A lot to do with my health. It has definitely declined, or maybe the new primary care dr I have actually just gave a fu ck to be throrough enough. In October of 2014 I was diagnosed with ty... Read more
My body is a temple.
Monday, October 20, 2014      1 comments

And I should treat is as such. Yesterday I was at a birthday party for my uncle. There was lots of good food there. I tried to eat some pasta, my body rejected it completely. I tried one bite and spit it out.... Disgusting... I had some ch... Read more
Feeling very down in the dumps right now...
Wednesday, October 15, 2014      5 comments

Just went to see my dr... I feel like I have a list of things wrong with me... So many tests to be done, and have done a bunch already... My a1c was in the diabetic range, so I officially have type 2 diabetes.... because of my kidney... Read more
Keep falling off that damn slippery wagon....
Thursday, August 07, 2014      8 comments

I refuse to blame anyone but myself. But there is always food from pharmaceutical salespeople in the office.... However, they almost always have a choice of salad in there. And I ran out of healthy food in the house, and didnt have $... Read more
I almost died the other day
Monday, July 28, 2014      2 comments

I was on my way driving home on a very busy highway in rush hour traffic. And a guy in a red truck behind me wanted to pass me even though i was quite obviously going past the speed limit. So when he went to go around me, me being a dick, plus i... Read more
decisions decisions decisions
Monday, July 21, 2014      2 comments

I have gotten off the wagon just a tad, not on purpose though... Last couple days i have just been running out of good healthy food in the house to eat. pay day is wed for ESL, then next thursday and wed for both jobs.... But I am already... Read more
This is the easiest its been in a long time
Wednesday, July 16, 2014      2 comments

To resist the foods i shouldnt be eating. In fact I just had an apple with some almond butter for a snack, and was very upset by the fact that it had like 19 carbs in it... :( I know we are supposed to have a regular amount of carbs ... Read more
Journal Entry to My Inner Skinny Girl
Tuesday, July 15, 2014      4 comments

Dear Inner Skinny Girl, I cant wait for you to surface!!! I cant wait to show you off! I had what I call a skinny girl moment, a few minutes ago. And it felt so good! It's actually kind of funny to explain. OK So, I'm at wo... Read more
Tad bit of a backtrack...
Tuesday, July 15, 2014      2 comments

Not through any fault of my own... welll kinda... I had no idea what my real start weight was when I started at SP. I weighed myself after the gym a couple days ago, and when the scale hit 257, I almost died.... I immediately called my fri... Read more
so..... I hit a bird today with my car
Monday, July 14, 2014      5 comments

it was a tiny little bird. Black and had grey on the top of his head. he was adorable. Anyways, so i was driving down the road from my early AM job at east side labs, and he flew in front of my car and went underneath it. I looked in my rearvier... Read more
I get very easily upset when i am hungry LOL
Sunday, July 13, 2014      3 comments

Im so hungry. For like meat. Something that bleeds.... Ive had 1 apple, 20 carrot sticks with a bit of ranch sauce ti dip them in, and 2 eas lean 15 bars all day. And water and one cup of coffee this morning before work.... I think w... Read more
More and more milestones present themselves to me!
Monday, July 07, 2014      1 comments

emoticon So so happy and excited! i read a blog post by someone about the little changes. And she was right. Its th... Read more

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