I know this is a weight loss site, I haven't had the chance to air my feelings out yet and I thought this would be a good start, Honesty, eating for comfort and eating my feelings. I know this is not healthy, but healthy changes will start as I face honesty in myself.
Hi members of Spark! I want to be totally honest with everyone here. I am not really a newbie here on Spark People, I have been off and on here on this site for several years, for several times, creating new usernames. My first step in this weight loss journey is to be totally honest with myself and I am really doing this. This is the hardest thing I have ever faced, honesty to myself. My lowest encountered weight is 265, I was also doing weight watchers that was about in the middle of March last year. I was happy then, active and full of life. Then in August of last year my mother fell in the bathtub and severely broken her arm. She has rods and screws in her arm now. She lives alone, like I do. We were both on a weight loss journey last year. Her fall has affected both of us. After her fall we were both eating our feelings and eating for comfort. When she fell, I thought I was going to lose her. Since her major fall she has fallen at least 12 times in about 9 to 10 months time. Her last fall she broke her collar bone. She is still kicking though, she will be going to a local fitness center for balance and getting strength in her legs. I am sorry this is a lengthy post. But I want everyone to know how and why I have gained honesty in myself right now. This happened to my mother, but it affected me greatly, I lost my father in 2006 and still suffering grief. I am hoping like heck my mother will get better with strength. Me - I was heavy as an adolescent, through my adult years. 46 now and I need to make healthier changes. Although I am still eating my feelings. I just stepped on the scale and weighed myself, 339. I know evening weight is not my true weight I will weigh myself first thing in the morning, and update my weight. I am believing in myself this time and being totally honest with myself. I need to lose weight for myself first this has greatly depressed me. I know losing weight will relieve some of my depression and get me a little happier. I am doing this for my mother also to show her I can do this. Sorry this is lengthy, thank you for your patience and reading my post. I am going about this slow and easy so I don't fall off the bandwagon again.