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Terri, he is a psychiatrist. I see him once every 4-6 weeks and he handles my medication. Then I see a therapist bi weekly for psychotherapy. :) I go to a mental health clinic. I have the two I just mentioned and I have a case worker named Aubrey. She makes sure she has everything I need.....helps me run errands and all that stuff.

I got myself an appointment with him. So hopefully he can fix this mouth sore problem or refer me to someone who can.

I am doing so so today.....my cold is wearing me out. I just slept for 15 hours. I am going to go out with a friend for dinner in a few hours though. Hopefully a nice long shower and getting out of the house for a few hours will help me feel a little bit better. :)

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Thanks Kris and everyone else for your feedback on my problem. I really appreciate it.

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wow. 6 days is way too long to be offline with this group. I'm back. And ready to tackle marathon training again. Wish me luck!

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I have just finished a 4 oz bag of corn chips and still want more food.

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Sorry I haven't posted for a while. Sometimes I get into a depression hole and I try to stay away from others so I don't bring them down with me. It started Thursday with some things and carried on into Sunday. So I finally MADE myself sit an journal Sunday and Monday and I'm doing a little better today. I'm telling myself that it was just a few days and not to give up. That if I don't give up then some day my 4/3 ratio of good/bad days will some day be 6/1 or 7/0.

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I had control with the eating when I was home, but I am to the point that I had no control with the eating when I got to school. I did get some tea at school as well as eggs and candies.

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Onicam, sorry about your math turtor. Hope you can find another one. I agree with Krsi, please try to get more water. It helps in so many ways.

Kris, my father is turning 91 in December. Hope you have much strength and patience to do all you need to do this week. Why are you going to the Dietition? Yes, I love the wind in my face on the bike. I don't like the close calls, though. I think we are going to sell the bike soon.

Linda, Hi. Good to see you here.

Kiwi, good luck with getting off the meds. It was never a temporary thing for me. They told me that I would need it the rest of my life. That is ok, though, because it does help me.

TNA, colds are such a pain. Having a bad dr is so hard. Is this a psychiatrist or a family dr? I hope you can find someone who really listens and cares about you. It was a pdoc in California that completely changed my life. He was one that took time with me. I was very afraid of drs because they are seemed to just not care. I remember telling one pdoc that the med he had me on was making me like a zombie. He simply increassed the dose. I threw the script away and never went back. I only hurt myself, though. Now I have a case manager, a pdoc, and a family dr. They all take time with me and are very caring.

Yesterday we went to the AA meeting and then helped clean the hall. I had a good breakfast at the restaurant before the meeting. In the afternoon, I had a healthy soup. Listened to my Alanon CD & worked some more on my afghan. We grilled some fish for super. I also sauted some aspergus. It was good. We did have ice cream later, though. We seem to be having that too often. I have to watch that.

I had a long talk with a friend that said she used to be able to eat anything and stay thin. Then she quit smoking. She got much heavier. Now she's a bit over weight, but she feels worse about herslef than she looks. She thought that I was that way. I told her that I have to watch what I eat and exercise regularly.

This morning I need to get to the store early.



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I did fine with water 2 days ago, but I had some difficulties yesterday morning and I did not even think of it today. It is now almost 7 and from 9-1 I am supposed to have no food or drinks of any kind in the room that I will be at. It looks like I am about to lose my math tutor. She says that she does not know me well, but thinks that I am not putting much effort in. I have ward her that I am with disabilities and she emailed me last night that she cannot help me. My math is too low to be in the class which is probably true, but she does not think that I am looking at the book for a while before asking for help. The way that she sounds she is going to give up on me like most others. Right now I feel like either eat or sleep, but I need to leave within a half an hour.



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Fran - what a beautiful post - thank you for that :-)

ONICAM - how is your water (drinking) going?

JANLEE51 - another thought that crossed my mind is I have been wondering if you have ever had Cognitive Behavioral Therapy? Some Therapists are qualified to practice this, and if you haven't, it would be worth trying. It is often VERY effective for your type of issue. I have had this and so has hubby, and for both of us it worked well.

Terri - it sounds like you really love the wind blowing in your face :-)

TNAF92 - Did you manage to get that Dr's appointment? Having your Mum go with you is a good idea - he might be a little more efficient, then. I used to LOVE scary movies, but for some reason, can't take them now. If hubby is watching something on TV that is a bit like that, or just heavy "urgent" music I have to get him to turn it down because it agitates me.

KIWIGYPSY - just be careful about "forgetting" to take your meds. When you have been on them more than a few weeks you need to take them regularly so that you don't run the risk of withdrawals. When your Doctor takes you off them, it will be gradually. Sometimes, too, some people think that they don't need them anymore, whereas in fact it is just the meds doing their job - keeping us on that even kilter. I hope for you that you WON'T need them after that, tho'!

I've got a busy few days ahead of me this week. Tomorrow I go to my Dietitian, the next day take my Stepfather to Whangarei (1 1/2 hrs north of me) to a Specialist re his cancer, then after I get home in the a/noon will have to prepare dinner for us and 2 brother-in-laws who are coming here because their wives are going to a Scrap-booking night at my sister-in-law's. The following day I go up to get my Stepfather (1/2 hr north) and then go south (1 hr) to the Hospital to his Gastro Specialist. I will be kind of kay....nackered after that and so will he - he will be 92 in December.

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Hi Kiwigypsy, my name is Linda. Good for you if you get to get off meds. in 6 months.
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Hi Kris

I've been on the meds now for three months but we established the correct dose one month ago. The doctor said i will be on it for six months and we'll see how it goes after that but he assured me the recovery rate is good and the chances of me needing it again after six months are slim. The meds have helped so much, in fact, now that i'm feeling so much better, i forget to take it in the mornings, but i do hope that he was right and that six months will be enough.

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Hi guys. Having an okay day....small cold. Bleh. Also, the mouth sores from the Celexa are worsening. I know have red spots all across the roof of my mouth. They don't hurt but still that can't be good. My doctor told me to watch out red or purple spots. I am not sure why but I don't think this is healthy. I seriously need to get of this junk.

Since I have started the Celexa I have had thrush on my inner cheek, a mouth sore that got infected and caused a really bad sore throat for a week and endless canker sores and blemishes. I am going to make an emergency appt with my doc and have my mom come. As you all know my doctor doesn't take his job seriously. He doesn't even know who I am, what I take, what's wrong with me. Then, when I tell him I have issues he acts all dumb founded and it somehow becomes my fault. I am just going to see him one last time to get off this Celexa and then it's time for a new doctor. I am sick and tired of being belittled and treated like crap.

I left the house today though. I went to the Labor Day Sale with my mom and got a few books and some props for the movie I start filming next month. Now, I am just relaxing and then I am heading out with friends to see Don't Be Afraid Of The Dark. I love a good scary movie. Ironically enough they are one of the few things that don't cause me anxiety. haha.

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Onicam, that is interesting because I wonder if I was born with my mental illness due to the place. also. You see I heard there was a lot of reports of mental illness coming from the place I lived as a kid. It doesn't matter I suppose, just interesting.

Kris, LOL yeah, I suppose I have been married a lot. It's like they say, once you accept yourself and enjoy being single then you can have a healthy relationship. I was soooo sure I'd never be married again after my thrid marriage. When I met my current husband, John, I was happy being single. He was too. We became friends. We took the relationship slowly. This is his 4th marriage, too. He likes that I have become stronger and more independent. I like that he isn't looking for a mother.

Fran, I'm so glad you have learned those things about yourself. I know what you mean about the "knee jerk" reactions can show unresolved issues.

Jan, So sorry to hear about the trama of your youth. I totally understand now why you react so to furnerals. I hope you can work through that in therapy. That has helped me so much. You are a strong woman. I like the accronym for FEAR - Face Everything And Recover.

I got my yoga done this morning. I'm a bit out of shape having not done it in a couple weeks. It is ok, though. I also did my prayer & meditation time. I woke in the middle of the night again. I got up and drank some water. Then I was able to get back to sleep. I'm having some tea this morning and feel I'm waking up.

I got to go out to dinner with some other friends yesterday. It was a last minute thing and it was fun. I'm so thankful for friends. I've made some in AA. While we were waiting for our food some other friends came in the restaurant. It was a grand time. Next John & I went to the Cottonwood Festival. We walked around and saw several people we knew. We bought some fancy soap from some people we know.

We were on the motorcycle and it was a beautiful ride. It has cooled off for us.

I don't know what were are planning for today. I know we will be relaxing. I took out some stuff to grill. A friend gave me some halibut. I'm looking forward to having that. I also bought some asparagus to have with it. John doesn't like fish so he'll have ribeye.

Hope you all have a good Labor Day.

Peace Out,

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There is a chance that some of the learning difficulties could be that way, but I have had problems since I was almost 4 months from Eastern Eaquine Encephalitis. I do not know if it relates, but my mom had me in utero and we were not real close, but close enough to where the 3 mile island incident occured. Its a good thing that you mentioned about the water since I have not had fluid yet and it is almost 9:30.

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Terri, Deb, Janlee51, Onicam, TNAf92, Abbemine, SLFgolf, Kiwigypsy, (and, of course, Kris and Nancy, who know me from way back!)

Hi! I'm Fran, and I have SADD, with severe depression running in the family for generations. (Suicide, mental institutions, etc.) Throughout my life, I've had many times when I contemplated suicide and self-injury. I spent a lot of time being supported by the wonderful people on this team a few years back, when my mother suffered a major stroke, and a few months later my disabled brother went into respiratory failure. Almost lost both of them several times, and they continue to be fragile, but are stable now.

I have been getting my life back on track, and I'm learning to deal with the continuous curveballs that keep coming. The past two years have been difficult, but I think that I've grown tremendously because of the challenges. My weight continues to be an issue, but I'm sorting out the health issues that are part of the problem and am getting closer to being able to deal with the emotional food issues as well.

I feel much more stable emotionally than I have in years. For me, Buddhism has been a lifeline--perhaps my Asian background gravitates toward this beautiful Eastern religion--and my own writing has also helped me to heal and come to terms with issues that have haunted me all my life. And, without doubt, the encouragement of people on this team and the sense that I was not alone made a huge difference to me when I was struggling badly with my family's illnesses and health crises.

I am fortunate to be able to moderate my depression symptoms with exercise most of the time--and I bought a light box this past winter, which helped a lot! Many of my family members are on meds, and I realize that this is a challenge in itself, so I am cheering all of you on who are struggling to find the right combination with the fewest side effects. It's a complicated journey!

Janlee51--my heart goes out to you as you are haunted by your painful memories. How brave of you to try to help your friend through something as difficult as a funeral for you! I wonder if the fact that you WEREN'T close to the deceased made it easier for your sense of loss to surface? Maybe your mental defense mechanisms hadn't kicked into gear? I know that when I react to something that I didn't expect to with a lot of strong emotion, I will often find that there's something I haven't resolved just waiting to pop out when I let my guard down.

Here's my biggest vulnerable spot--in movies or books, it's not the part where someone dies or is lost which usually bothers me the most. I'm ready for that--I can handle it; I'm prepared for death. It's when they are somehow found again that I surprise myself. I can't tell you how many children's movies had me bawling and sobbing when everyone was reunited--way over the top reactions that would leave my kids and husband just astonished. When I finally figured out what was going on (unresolved issues with my sister's death, wanting her to come back but knowing it's impossible), it made it easier for me to deal with. I still cry (it happened yesterday during a cartoon!), but it's not over the top anymore, and I can get over it quickly. So, kind of a message to me that I still have some things to deal with and sort out.

Anyway, it may not relate to you, but it's a thought. Have you spent much time in your adult life in counseling for your tragedy? Kris has some good suggestions, I think. I wish you peace and healing. . .

Sending positive vibes to everyone! Remember that you are taking positive steps in your life right now, just by reading the posts. (Yes, even if you aren't posting!) Keep putting one foot in front of the other.

Leaving you with another favorite quote: "A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step."

Peace.
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Terri - your hiking sounds like you had fun. It's great that your BBQ was really enjoyable :-) I am glad that you allowed yourself to grieve at the second funeral. You certainly weren't a "once bitten, twice shy" where it comes to marriage - LOL! I'm still on my 1st (36 years) BUT that is more down to stubbornness I think ;-)

JANLEE51 - Under the circumstances I can certainly understand where you are coming from regarding funerals. What you went through is tragic, and even more tragic that as a young child you had to witness it. Have you tried "breathing" through your anxiety moments? Another thing that MIGHT help is hypnosis or Acupuncture. Some Psychiatrists do hypnosis to deal with this sort of thing, and I dare say some Psychologists do too!

ONICAM - Sounds like you need to carry a sipper bottle attached to your waist. Then you might remember to take little drinks. Make sure you don't go getting dehydrated! I wonder if your learning issues are partly that changes cause anxiety because you don't know how or if you will cope? Just a thought!

Fran - hi - it's nice to see you back:-) Yes - my grandson has loads of allergies. He recently had RAST tests done and he is due to go to Star Ship (Kid's hospital in Auckland) for Skin Prick tests. They don't do them in the community if there is a risk of anaphylaxis. After that they are going to start food challenges with SOME things in the hospital setting. Thank you for the hug - tt was LOVELY :-) I LOVE those thoughts ...... so true!

TNAF92 - I often have those intrusive thoughts causing lack of sleep :-( have you tried Imovane? It is also known as Zopiclone. I use that when I need to.

Nancy - I was fortunate in that whatever med I have used has been good for me - no bad reaction to any.

ABBEMINE - when you mention that you stopped seeing your Therapist and that it was "mutual" - was there a falling out? If not, are you able to phone and make an appointment? If it WAS a falling out, perhaps you could ask your Dr for a referral to another. It sounds like things need to be nipped in the bud before they get too out of hand.

Deb - I've never been in to group therapy and I admire that you are trying this even tho' you have some issues with it.

SLFGOLF - Congratulations on the weight loss, AND the "penny-drop" moment.

KIWIGYPSY - Hi to a fellow kiwi :-) Just take your time playing around with the site, exploring it all. You won't get lost or muck anything up. There are some really great articles in the Healthy Lifestyle section, and I would suggest playing with the Nutrition Tracker getting used to THAT function, because, MAN does it help :-) Why is 5 months time significant with your meds, that you know you will be off them then? I went on meds nearly 10 years ago, and that was "possibly" for a few months, but I am still on them now, altho' a very light dose. I have found that on the odd occasion they need to be dose adjusted to help me with various things that life throws my way. Are you receiving therapy too? If not, this can help considerably and is worth talking with your Dr about.

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Hello everyone :) I'm new to the site and am still figuring out how everything works around here.
I'm on 40mg Fluoxitene at the moment and it's working great but i want to get things in place so when i'm off the meds in 5 months time, things will go smoothly and i won't need to use meds ever again (wishful thinking?).
I read some of your stories and they are truly inspirational! Thanks for sharing.

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Hi all,

Finally get a chance to check in. Another busy week, but getting a chance to get in all the classrooms this week. I'm anxious to get working with students. I just have to get everyone tested first.

I had my monthly check-in with the doctor for my weigh-in. I lost 3 pounds this month. At first glance I was discourage, but that lasted a total of 5 minutes and I stopped. 3 pounds lost is much much better than 3 pounds gained. Plus I've realized during my life pounds lost slowly I usually keep off. Then today something wonderfull happened. I went shopping with my daughter for jeans for both of us. I went down 2 sizes and fit into regular size 16 clothes. This is the first time in over 10 years I haven't worn plus size clothes. My teenage daughter was with me and was so excited for me. This is a moment I'll remember for a long time.

We also got my daughters cardiac results back. She does have a hole in her heart and has problems with 2 of her valves, but otherwise she is fine. She basically needs to be checked regularly be her cardiologist and be aware of warning signs of fatigue, chest pains, breathlessness, and dizziness, but otherwise can go on living normally. My son has these same problems and hasn't had any problems. She is going to go ahead with the swim team but will have to take precautions. Her coach is aware of her condition and she has a smart head on her shoulders about not taking chances. But we want her to continue living her life.

Have a great week.

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Hi thanks all for the kind words but I'm afraid I probably react bad whenever I go to a funereal. It all started when my father and I were in a car accident when I was eight. unfortuneately he fell asleep at the wheel and crashed. He died and I didn't but I saw certain injuries that I shouldn't have and when the funereal came I shocked everyone by laughing. The doctor said it was shock but now I really hate the funereals and the way i do react and there is nothing I can do to stop the reactions I have. I either laugh, cry uncontrollably, or I can't breathe


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Good going on expressing your feelings Deb. I had to express when I was in therapy and all
I could do is CRY!!!! To this day, I still choked up over all the demons in my life. Prayers are
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Hi everyone and happy holiday weekend!!

Onicam - being a slow learner isn't a bad thing. Slow and steady wins the race.

Abbeymine - There is also something to be said about over achieving - it shows a very caring and kindred soul. I hope that your house woes straighten out and you get to enjoy the home of your dreams.

Janlee - I don't react well to funerals/death either, known or unknown. It was really wonderful of you to support your roommate like that.

Npokarski - It's nice to make it through the medication merry go round.

Hi Fran, I'm Deb.

Tnaf - I have insomnia too. It's one of the issues that I have to address with my new pdoc. I hope that I find something that works well for me. I am tired of being up half the night. I can so relate to that problem. I tried Tylenol PM and it quit working after two days. My body doesn't respond to the antihistamine any longer than that.

Speaking of pdoc's, I had my first group and therapist visits. I like my therapist. Right now we are just getting to know each other and I am having to explain my current situation in more detail than at the intake. It is uncomfortable trying to spill your guts to some one you can't read or trust yet, but I am doing it. Once all the explaining is done we will begin to make some kind of progress I am sure. I know that I am uncomfortable because of what's going on with me and having to deal with all the emotions that surface from below sea level, I am trusting my therapist to be a decent submariner and help me find land. lol Group, on the other hand is different. I am not sure about Group. There are only 5 people and one of my dreads is that I get stuck with people who are there for something to do rather than to deal with real issues. I think that I have at least one of those and possibly two. It is very hard for me to share when I am dealing with a bystander who is here out of curiosity and not need. At any rate, that was the impression that I got, but I intend to give this part my best shot too. I am keeping an open mind if a closed heart with group. Well everyone please have a safe and happy Labor Day. Take care and God Bless, Debi T.

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Thanks BloodCovenant. My meds. are fine. That's the only thing that is working. However, I do feel better today. I went to church and came home to my husband's ham and eggs. Mmmm
good. Not so good though on the nutrition tracker **sigh@@#. After the breakfast, I took the boys for a long walk and then another walk down on the boardwalk. My energy is there, but my ambition isn't. Oh well, it's another day and I'll do fine. I have a wonderful group of Spark People who care. God Bless you and thanks once again. emoticon

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Onicam, at one time I was called turtle because I'm so slow. They said that I was slow and for sure. I tend to get it once I do. I'm slow with life lessons. For example, this is my 4th marriage. I have a keeper now though. I appreciate so much more now. I have a hard time with change, too. I'm working on that. I'm glad you come here.

Abb, hi. Good to see you here. Hope you are able to get back in with your therapist. How are you doing on your meds? I hope to learn more about you.

I tried to get out and run this AM, however it was too windy. It's still early so perhaps I can a little later. I did get in my prayer & meditation. I'm just sipping on coffee now & enjoying the quiet.

Last night's BBQ was fun. My husband really enjoyed himself.

Today I hope to get more on my afghan done.



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Hi, I just want to check in. I haven't been on here for myself for a long time. I felt so up in my life. Well now things change. I stopped seeing my therapist. (It was mutual). Really thought I had my life under control. WRONG!!!!! My usual setbacks has sunk in with full force. Sleeping till noon, not wanting to get out of the chair:( ofr the house. My appetite is the pits and I feel I'm losing control. To make this a little clearer, we are looking for a house. The paper work is like snail mail. When you want something as bad as I want this house, nothing seems to go right. I suppose I should really give all this credit to SINUSES. They have overcome my face, ears and body so much that I don't want to do anything but sleep. God has also put a name on my mind for several days. Don't worry, I can't devulge much about him, because I only know his first name. (Dan). He joined our group and I wrote a message to him, but can't find him now. You know, you worry about someone who could be worse than you and you want to help. I'm afraid I scared him off. Sometimes I can get to be an over cheaver. Tomorrow is another day and I'm praying I'm better. At least I can go to church and pour my heart out to the LORD. Take care and Thanks for listening!

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I am to the point that I want to improve, but I get scared of changes at least to a point. I am a very slow learner as well.

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Janlee, is it possible for you to explain in more depth what is bothering you. I remember the last time I went to a furneral it was very tough on me. Actually, there were two close together. I remember the first one made me really sad. I knew the man and I was kind of angry. In my head I realized he was in much pain and it was a relief. In my heart though, I felt that I didn't want him to be gone. You know what I think might have scared me. He wasn't much older than my husband. The second one was a young man and he reminded me of a brother I lost. I didn't get to grieve at the time. I allowed myself to grieve now.

TNA, thanks for the compassion, understanding, and suggestion.

Fran, hey there. we haven't met yet.

Onicam, you sound very teachable and willing to change. That is the biggest part of the battle.

I got to go to the Biker AA meeting this morning. It was about gratitude. That is so wonderful to listen to and talk about. I'm so glad that this is a new day for me. Then I did some laundry & deep cleaning. I tried to take a nap, but didn't work.

In a little while we are going to the BBQ. The ladies are going on a short hike while the men discuss classic cars. I'm bringing a change of clothes. We won't be eating until 7:30 & probably home late. That is hard for me. My hb know that though. We'll excuse ourselves early probably.



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I am not in a good place today. I really thought he would be the one who had trouble at the funereal instead it was myself.. I do not react well to people dying whether I know them or not

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I can't stand the racing thougths, thank God I did not have any bad reactions to the serequil that I take. I can't live without the stuff. I know what it is like to try and find the medication that is going to work for you. I went thru many before finding that prozac, abilify and serequil work the best for me.

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Terri, ug! I hate that. I had that issue with Trazadone. The next day I would be a zombie. I take Doxepin PRN right now. It doesn't work at all. It worked the first night I took it and not one night since.

I have insomnia myself. My problem is I have racing thoughs that cause me to toss and turn for hours and hoursI am trying to get it under control but I have yet to find a decent sleep med. I will probably just try Tylenol PM and see how that goes. I have already tried Ambien (didn't work), Doxepin (didn't work), Trazadone (horrible zombie feeling the next day) Mellatonin (didn't work) and Sereoquil (Horrible reaction. Back muscles locked up and left me bed bound and in pain for a whole week.) Benadryl was amazing for my insomnia but I can't take it anymore. If I take an anti hystemine with Wellbutrin is causes hallucinations. (Fun fact that the doctor neglected to tell me about. I was up all night hallucinating people walking and screaming in my kitchen).

I wish you the best of luck. :) You should maybe try Doxepin. It's a sleed aid/antidepressant/anti anxiety all mixed into one. It didn't work for me but that is only because I have a really high tolerance for sedatives. I used to take 400 MG Trazadone and Xanax and I still couldn't sleep. xD

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Hi, all!

It's been ages since I've been on here (haven't been very consistent with my SP in the past year or so!), but I wanted to stop by to say "hello" to the most caring, compassionate folks around. You folks are the best--so supportive, and you really make a difference in people's lives. I know you made a huge difference during some of my really tough times.

Hugs to all of you who are struggling right now. You are so wise to reach out in your time of need--and to offer advice and help to others. You bring light to yourself when you offer it to others. . .

For those of you who remember me, I am in a good place right now, despite some tough times this year. My mother and brother are both stable at the nursing home together, and that's a good thing. We just lost my uncle to melanoma a few weeks ago, which was sad--he was a Boston marathon winner and an Olympian back in the 50's/60's, so it was hard to see him unable to get outside to enjoy nature over the last few months, as he always did before. But he's not suffering now, and that's a relief. A few months before that, a little girl whom I worked with passed away suddenly. That was a very rough patch. But I have vowed to spend my days loving this world and this life in honor of my loved ones who can't watch the mist rise up to meet the sun, or smell the scent of pine on a wooded path.

I went for a run/walk today, and have taken a few bike rides in the last two days--a big deal, since I was sick all summer (and most of the spring, too). I'm still sorting out food allergies and intolerances and working out what is actually safe for me to eat--but I have a much better attitude about it than I did two years ago when I suddenly developed a peanut allergy. I don't feel like all the changes are about deprivation anymore--they're more like challenges to my culinary creativity!

Kris--I saw on the allergies board that your grandson has numerous food allergies, and I'm sending hugs and positive vibes out to your family as you work through everything. And also to your husband as he deals with Crohn's--so difficult. And a HUGE HUG to you for your positive attitude and the difference you continue to make in so many people's lives every day.

To everyone--keep on keeping on. Sit in the sun for a moment and love how it warms your skin. Turn on the faucet and feel the silvery cool water slip over your fingers. Breathe. Smile.

I'll leave you with two thoughts that inspire me:

Sometimes your joy is the source of your smile, but sometimes your smile can be the source of your joy.
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One joy scatters a hundred griefs.
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Have a beautiful weekend. Remember all the good that you are doing just by being on this thread.

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It is a good thing that you mentioned about the water. Other than almond milk, I have not had any fluids at all yet today.

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Deb, glad that paint situation came out so good. We haven't gotten our car back, but that's ok. We have the loaner. How did your therapy go? It's sounds wonderful.

Ski, (my maiden name is Wroblewski & that was a nickname-hope you don't mind) I'm 52 and think about going back to school to finish my degree in Accounting. I tried working a couple years ago, but I had some psychosis. The pressure was too much. I think what I've learned is to find the kind of work I really enjoy. That job was answering questions on the phone. I get nervous answering the phone. Don't know why. Any who, working is very satisfying & you are right that you are still just as good as a young person. The best of luck in your endevours.

Lotus, that is so cool "keep on keeping on" sounds great.

Onicam, please, please, please do get your fluids. You are blossoming.

Michelle, what work do you do? It's sounds challenging & yet rewarding. Glad you get the weekend off.

Jan, good thoughts going out your way.

TNA, you have just good insight. I can so relate to the med changing. I am in the midst again myself. The pdoc changed my night time meds to help me sleep. The side effect, though, is grogginess the next day. It seems to be triggering the depression, too. Will back in a couple weeks to discuss how it's working.

Kris, LOL..."grass widow". Hope your Father's day is spectacular.

As for me, I had a wonderful time hiking with the ladies. So many flowers were blooming since we finally got some rain. We took our time taking in the beauty. We also had much to talk about with each other. On the way back we wanted to go a different way. On way would go way away from the cars & we were suppose to take a turn off road. I was rather nervous having just had that hike that ended up 60 miles from our cars. We finally saw some campers and they knew where the turn off was. They gave us a ride in the back of their truck to the turn off. It worked out ok. The ladies had so much fun we're thinking of camping/hiking at the end of the month.

One of the ladies invited hb & self to a BBQ tonight. I'm looking forward to that.

Today is cleaning day & need to do some laundry.

I slept good last night & after my tea this morning I feel pretty good. I didn't exercise because I was quite sore yesterday.

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I have read all the posts but for some reason my mind is a fog and I can't take it in.

Hope you all have a really nice day. Tomorrow is Father's Day in NZ so our 2 kids are supposed to be coming out to see their Dad. It will be nice company for me because he spends virtually the entire day and then some in the garage. He often comes in well after I've eaten my dinner and only SOMEtimes comes in for some lunch - you could virtually say I am a grass widow most of the time.

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WARNING : SUPER LONG POST. I need a good vent. :P



Thanks for all the well wishes everyone. :) I had another good day. Spent the afternoon with a friend and managed to get in an hour and a half long work out.

Deb, I am on it now actually. :P I take 300 MG a day for about 8-9 months now. It helps to an extent. It's one of those medications that makes me feel like a 5/10 but with the right combo I was feeling much better.

It doesn't do much for my depression but it's helpful with my anxiety. I usually feel peaceful and calmer after taking it. So I think I am going to stay with and 1mg Ativan for anxiety and then try Paxil for the depression/bipolar.

It's such a bummer. Zoloft was a miracle for me. It knocked out my mood swings, anxiety and depression like it was nothing. But then sadly I found out I was allergic about 4 weeks in. (horrible burning rash all down my legs). Before I was just taking Zoloft/Wellbutrin and I felt great. I had energy again. I begin regaining interest in everything. I was able to go through the day without crying spells and panic attacks.

Now I went from 2 meds to 4: Celexa 20mg, Doxepin PRN 100 mg, Ativan 1mg PRN and 300 MG Wellbutrin and I don't feel right.

As I mentioned just last week I had a terrible depression rut. It was 4 days of panic attacks, suicidal thoughts, crying, no energy etc.

This is the second bad rut I experienced in the less than 3 months. The last one lasted 9 days and left me bed bound and suicidal.

Then on other days I feel okay but not in a good way if that makes any sense. I just feel like all my emotions are muted and I feel really hollow. I am losing interest in all the things I used to love and am having a hard time finding things that make me feel....anything. Like writing. I want to go to film school. I wrote a script for a movie I am filming this fall. I was so excited about it and now just the thought of it makes me feel depressed. Being a film maker has been my dream for like 5 years now and all of a sudden I just have no ambition. I feel like that a lot. I have a hard time finding energy and ambition on most days.

Thankfully I do have great days like today but they are not as often as I would like.

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That is fine. I am legally blind and learning disabled at the same time, so it takes me a lot longer than others to learn which sometimes frustrates others to the point that they give up working with me. I had also situations where tutors assumed that I could do stuff a lot sooner than what they think. An example here is when I was in French class the tutor thought that by the end of the semester I would have great subject verb agreement even though I told her that I mess up in this in English.

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I'm sorry. Morphing just means transitioning. I thought that you were doing a bit better. It's one of my kids' words. I didn't mean to confuse anyone. Deb

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Today was not a good day for either of us. Had to go with him to his older brother's funereal and I do not deal well with them but at least I could help him

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Good day all!
I can't begin to express how happy I am that this is Friday. I just can't. It's so beautiful that my students will be at home with their families and that I get to spend time with mine. It's been quite a week. Yesterday, had a suicide assessment for one student and interpreting a therapy session for another. I only have 6 students on my caseload and it feels like 100 some days. And those days pass.

And the best part is I don't have time to perseverate on my own crazy thinking when I am dealing with theirs. Whew!

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It is what it is...and I'm okay.

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What is morphing. I never heard of it. I am not sure, but I may have a cold. I am to the point tat I have not yet thought of fluids and I had to force myself to be out of bed. I am yawning even now.

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Dealing with depression this week.It seemed to have just crept up again.I lost energy to do anything and am disappointed in myself.I do know I can win this over and be back to my normal self soon.When I get this way it seems to mess up my exercise program.I will keeep on keeping on.

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I am totally excited about what my mom did for me. She wanted to get me an outfit for my quest for a clerical job. She is sending me money to spend on an outfit that I saw at Khols. I hope it looks as good on as it does on the hanger. I want a job so bad. I know my skills are a bit rusty but older employees are just as good as the younger ones. It is hard starting over at age 51. I will not get down as that will only make things worse. At least I am going to try and have a positive attitude.

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Good Morning, good morning, good morning,

Kiwi - I was properly scared witless when Sam did that to me. So was he. He was only three. Both he and I hate thunderstorms and high wind because of it. It did teach me to respect the weather and we did manage to make it through several other hurricanes before I moved back to the West Coast.

TNAF92 - Glad to hear you're better. Have you ever tried Wellbutrin? I really like it.

ONICAM- it sounds as if you're morphing and that is progress.

SDJ08822- Relaxing sounds wonderful.

Hi ANDERFELKERSON and BECKAFANO !

Terri - How great that the dealership is taking care of you. My daughter in law went to an area Rodda Paint dealership to buy nursery paint when she was 8 months pregnant in her brand new Outback. The clerk forgot to put one of the lids back on the paint can well and when they loaded her car they spilled a gallon of paint all over her and the front seat! They bought Meghan a new upholstery job and she got a new purse to boot. It was the biggest of messes, but they took care of them.

Today I am nervous but not overly anxious for my first "group" session and my first real talk with my new therapist. It will be interesting to say the least because I will be there most of the afternoon. Group is an hour and a half and until we really get into things, it is another hour and a half private session. I am not sure that I can take being so focused on me for that long. I may have to set up a different day for each instead of doing it all on the same day. It cuts down on mileage and gas if I do it this way and convenience is my goal.

Well I am off. I hope that everyone have nothing but good thoughts today. Take care and God Bless, emoticon Deb

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Having trouble sleeping. Woke up at 2 am and can't get back to sleep. I felt hungry so I ate some natural almonds. Hope that helps.

The pdoc changed up my meds to help with this. I only had tea yesterday, too. Only in the AM.

Don't know what it is.

Looking forward to hike tomorrow.




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Deb - glad to hear that you are in a really good space:-) I would have panicked like never before had someone locked ME out of a house during a hurricane :-( Did your son survive when you got back in - LOL!

Michelle - it sounds like you have developed a healthy attitude to the scales :-) Congrat's on the weight-loss, and even more on the feeling better physically ....!!

Terri - NZ IS short for New Zealand. Just as well you are friends wit the sales manager etc. What a horrible thing to happen to your car! I hope the leather is a good match. It's bad enough when something mechanical goes wrong without having sloppy workers working on it!

Becky - Not only have I NOT ever gone baby shopping, I have never gone "shopping" just for the sake of it - LOL! Just as well I am not a materialistic person - I would be in "starvation mode" all my life - LOL!

JANLEE51 - it sounds like you could be a good combination then :-) he was quite right with what he said.

Sandy - that chilling and relaxing is JUST what the Dr ordered ;-D

ONICAM - good one re the reduced candies and soda, BUT remember not to overdo the cashews - they are healthy BUT high calorie/fat. I hope they aren't the salted ones - they aren't a wise choice!

TNAF92 - Glad you are doing a little better. Hopefully your prescriber will be able to get on top of that for you. I'm pleased to hear that you are back on track with your tracking.

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Hi TNA, you sound great. It is so good that you are an active participant in your own health. Hope the med change will work well for you.

O, progress is very important. Some times it may feel like baby steps. That's ok. You are going in the right direction.



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Hey guys just checking in. I am doing a little better. Last week was tough....had 4 really bad days with deep depression and constant panic attacks. I feel pretty good this week but am still having medication related issues......mouth sores, tiredness, lack of emotion and severely increased appetite are all still being a problem. I can't wait to get off this Celexa. I'd like to try Paxil next. I am convinced SSRIs are the right way to go. In the past I have great results on both Prozac and most recently Zoloft (ended up being allergic though and had to stop.) While I have had really bad issues and no results with other classes of antidepressants. So getting on Paxil is my next step with my doctor. :)

Doing good with staying on track. I am back to tracking on here. I have maintained for 3 months now but I am ready to lose some more. Finished yesterday with 1500 calories and today with 1704. :D

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Sandy, glad you got a good workout in and now having a relaxing day.

My hb went to the dealer re my car. They are going to get a new piece of leather for the seat. I have the loaner car for a few days.

I still feel nervous. I went out to lunch with my Alanon friends. That was nice. I'm doing some laundry & listening to a speaker CD. I think I'll relax and do some crocheting.

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I did better this time. I am still not getting enough water in me, but instead of candies and soda I had multiple servings of cashews.

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Resting today due to intense workout. I am just chilling and relaxing today. Hope you all are doing well.

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Thank you slimmerkiwi but i'm also lucky to have him here. When my son finally left home I was so depressed that I almost gave up on my life but my roommate told me every parent goes through this some day and I needed to think about how he would feel if I just gave up

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ANDERFELKERSON, Good for you for not letting the scale get you down. That is a major sign of growth. Don't minimize it, but find a way to celebrate it.

Kris, I love pilaties. I use to take a class at the YMCA, but that was a few years ago, but I sure did like it when I did it. I also wish we lived closer so you could go baby shopping with us. I think its a crime that you have all those kids in your live and have never gone baby shopping.

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Hi "finding my center" (Michele), thanks so much for your post. emoticon I was so crouchy last night and then again this AM. I want to change that now.

Kris, that sounds like a fun day. Is NZ New Zealand?

Becka, have a grand time baby clothes shopping.

Deb, you are like a ray of sunshine.

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I got out and ran this AM. I also finished my prayer & meditation time. Had some Chia tea and starting to feel better.

Yesterday I felt overwhelmed because of what happened with our car. I took it to the dealer for an oil change. After I got home my hb noticed black on the driver seat. So I went back and they tried to say we did that. We are friends with the sales manager and several of the salesmen. They came out and gave me a loaner car. The sales manager said that he would take care of it today.

Today I go in to volunteer and an Alanon meeting. John (hb) is going to go over there today.

He reminded me too that I need to let go and let God. I'm so blessed to have him in my life.



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Good morning,
Today I'm going to start by sending the hugs and compassion to everyone. We are a busy group.

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That weird feeling after the call to my mom is fading. A lot of journalling in the last couple days and a couple of "all-out, totally conscious" binges and I have made peace with my body again today. We're going to be fine (me and my body that is). Extra tired this week and I still exercised. Unconsciously grumpy...and my students are great at calling me on that and I pull out of it. I'm going to be fine. Even with my mom in my life. I'm going to be fine. (I am still scared...well, terrified...and I have made an extra appointment with the therapist.)

Meanwhile, I weighed myself this morning. I do that only once a month these days. And I LAUGHED out loud. In the whole month of August I lost ONE pound. Whatever! I did however lose another inch around my waist and hips. And I'm feeling better physically than I have in years. So there scale! Ha! You can't hold me down. emoticon It is so ironic.
And life goes on no matter what the scale says.

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Just a brief check in to say Hi. I am in really good space and have been the past week so I have been lazy in my posts and that isn't right. I hope that everyone survived Irene in one piece and has restored utilities. Janlee, I am so sorry about your roommate and I can relate to you both. One day my son, at the age of 3, locked me out of the house during a hurricane and I had to take the hinges off the door to get back in. It was quite the experience. I moved from Louisiana shortly there after so my fear of hurricanes has become a non issue these days and I so feel for those who still have to deal with them. I get to worry about earthquakes instead, so I guess no matter where you live it is something. Beckafano, I love baby clothes shopping. I get to do it fairly often with my daughter for my dgs Micah. Onicam I hope that you make it to better space soon. Terri it is nice to see you back. I'm glad that you had a good time on your vacation. Slimmerkiwi, I hope that you get the me time you so need. I have been transplanting plants for the Church Carnival and Fair we had last night as a fund raiser for the school. I managed the house plant booth for the affair. It was a slug of fun. I enjoy being around the kids. I am not teaching material, but I play well with others. I have to go back for a meeting of the Financial Committee today so that we can figure out what was made and what we have for the first go round of field trips and such. I have my first group session tomorrow as well as my first real therapy session with the new counselor. I am nervous. I am not sure about going to group because I am not normally a "group" person but if she thinks it will help with my issues then I will give a shot. I am not stressing out about meeting a bunch of new people, but I am reserving my judgment and keeping an open mind about the whole thing. So at least my anxiety level is tolerable. I wish everyone a great day and an even better weekend coming up. Take care and God Bless, emoticon Deb

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Terri - will do! When I get some "ME" time I make sure that it IS "ME" :-) 3 full days on the road would see us travel one end of NZ to the other and back, just about - LOL!

Sandy - fingers crossed, but it sounds like they don't need to be crossed too hard :-)

Becky - how exciting going baby shopping. Even tho' I have had 2 children and have 2 grandchildren, that is something I have NEVER done :-(

ONICAM - sounds like you need to take a deep breath and then let it go slowly ........ a FEW TIMES! How about swapping some of that diet Pepsi for some water, OR mixing it with water??

JANLEE51 - your friend is very lucky to have someone as caring as you helping him!

I actually made it to my Pilates class this a.m. - the second time in a couple months.
The rest of the day I just blobbed watching TV or playing games on the computer!

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Thanks for that info slimmerkim I'll suggest it to his therapist next week

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I have been having a rough day. I am big time slipping on water, Ipod issues, big time binging, internet issues, and drinking lots of diet pepsi.

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I didn't wake up on time to exercise yesterday morning, so I exercised in the evening, after work. I pleased with myself for that. Tomorrow I get to go baby shopping with my niece and sister. My niece is pregnant with her first baby and I love to baby shop.

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Hey all,

Took a day off from exercising. I am so proud of myself. I did 40 minutes of circuit training for the first time. I am doing okay. My interview went well on Tuesday. I just have to wait for a criminal background check and i will be able to begin training. I am watching the US Open and doing school work.

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Kris, my thoughts are with you, having to deal with all the illness issues. Take care of yourself. Hope you get some rest & relaxation today.

Onicam, hope you are able to see someone to get help. You are not alone.

Katrina, your life is changing in such a wonderful way. I'm so proud of you.

I did get in a swim yesterday. It felt wonderful.

We got home last night. It was a long trip. Three full days on the road each way. I did get 5 squares of my afghan done. I have 6 left to do. Then weave in the ends and attach them. I also read half of a novel out load while we drove. It was fun. I don't think I can do that again though. Next time we go back east I hope we can fly.

I weighed myself this morning and I only put on 1.5 lbs. Feel good about that.

Today I need to get the oil changed & go to yoga class.

Hope this is a beautiful day for all.

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JANLEE51 - ask him if he has had CBT! It sounds like he is suffering PTSD from the storm when he was younger. PTSD generally responds really well to Cognitive Behavioral Therapy! (been there - done that!)

My grandson's appointment at the hospital was a real LONG one. He is starting some food challenges with the ones which cause the really bad eczema, but it is to find out how much is too much and how much is tolerable for him. He is also to start having bleach baths. People with moderate to severe eczema can evidently get a lot of relief from a couple of these a week. He has to go to Star Ship (NZ's main Children's Hospital in Auckland) to have some special skin prick tests. They only do the basic ones in the community, and not if there is a risk of anaphylaxis.

Yesterday was hubby's appointment at the hospital re his Crohn's. He has to continue on a very low residue diet. The Specialist said that he HAS to have surgery, but by keeping him on a very low fibre diet, they are hoping to buy him time because he can't have surgery until a year after his heart attack because of the meds he has to take re the stents going in. The Specialist also commented that his Crohn's and where the problem is, it is probably why he has had kidney stones (3 surgeries for that) and gall stones in the past. After finishing at the hospital I paid the parking, then we drove off. Just before we got to the barrier arm I mentioned I had forgotten where I had put the ticket to get out. We hunted high and low, and had to go to the Parking/Security office to tell them what had happened. Thank goodness I had the receipt in my hand. The told me to drive to the barrier, and push their phone button, and they would raise the arm for me. THEN blow me down if my SISTER didn't do exactly the same thing today when SHE went to the Hospital for an appointment.

After two days in a row at the hospital, I have been over tired today.

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Thanks hje he is one medication but during real bad storms they don't seem to help figured out he got caught out in one of the real bad hurricanes when he was younger and bad storms terrify him I'll try to stay in my own space next time and try to ignore him during it

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JANLEE51 - i'm glad that the storm didn't do too much damage to you. have you asked your roommate if they can find out as well? no-one wants to see you hurt either physically or emotionally

Michelle - it's great that you've spoken to your mother again, the wonkiness may just be down to the 'i'm in surreal land' after that sort of a call. i hope you feel better soon

ONICAM - emoticon for the panic attack, they aren't fun. being overwhelmed isn't either. i find when i feel so overwhelmed that i'll scream/cry/go nuts, i make a list of everything that needs doing, breaking it down in to manageable bitesizes and give yourself a nice reward when you get those bits done e.g. an hour by yourself to read etc. it might help emoticon

BECKAFANO - yay for you! how is turning your dream in to a reality crazy! go you! emoticon

Sandy - i'm glad to hear that the "fog" has lifted, long may it continue!

Terri - glad you were out of harms way, hope you enjoyed that swim!

PROUDNANA060910 - you are right, we all can do this!

well this week has been a bit of a weird one, i've gone from not wanting to talk or be near my hubby, to clingy as velcro. i'm sure there's some sort of logic there... been much better from my last post. had to zip around all of today courtesy of 2 hospital appointments,work and general necessary running around. i did manage to fit in my 45mins of walking so i'm happy about that, even if i am knackered!

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That's fantastic! Way to go! Your doing great! We can do this.

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I have been struggling when it comes to even one day at a time, so one moment is not working either. I am trying to get things done that I need to do before school. I am still overwhelmed with the amount of non school stuff that I must do and then adding school in does not help me be any less overwhelmed.

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Hello, the aftermath of Irene looks terrible. Hope all get to a safe place.

I'm in Colorado now and hope to be home tonight.

I haven't weighed myself, but feel good. Perhaps I'll get a swim in this morning in the hotel pool.



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Hi all going to my therapist tomorrow to learn how to deal with my roommate's panick attacks so i won't get hurt during them

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Hello all,

I am out of my fog. It seemed that when came through and left so did my fog. I was able to exercise today and do laundry. It is only 71 today so I am enjoying the cooler weather and watching the US Open. I have a job interview tomorrow. I plan on reading and doing school work later.

Onicam- Just take it one moment at a time. Only focus on the things that you can control.

Michelle- Forgiveness and forgetting the past are so important in our shaping our future. I am so happy that you talked to your mother. It will be hard but in the end no matter how it turns out, you will be blessed.

Kris- Hope all goes well with the allergist today. Thanks for the encouraging words.

Slfgolf- I will pray for your daughter in regard to her tests and outcome.

Deb- I am happy that you like your new therapist. Keep the positive attitude.

Love, Sandy

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Glad to see so many affected by Irene slowly coming back online and doing well. Prayers are still with everyone until I know everyone is safe.

Things are going great here. Life has taken a sharp turn for me. Although I usually don't like change, this one feels right. I've done a lot of soul searching. I think I'm ready to move ahead. Ready for a new adventure.

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I increased my 'speed' today while walking and it felt like I'm getting closer to my wish of being able to run and run a race. Does that sound crazy? Oh, well if it does, because I've had what would have been a stressful day today and I'm so pleased with myself I'm just sailing through the day. Yay for me.

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I have survived the storm, but I also had an anxiety attack today already. I am going to PT today as well and nervous since this is the first day that we are going to do strenghtening.

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Good morning,
Saw the news last night about Hurricane Irene. Holy mother of all waves, Batman! emoticon Sending more heart and love to all of you in that area.

I'm a little "off" today. Can't quite figure out how to put it in words. I spoke to my mother on Saturday after not talking to her for 10 years. (Long story, that...so I'll skip it here.) The talk was good. It made my heart happy to hear her voice and catch up. There were no daggers, guilt or otherwise unpleasantness. Just joy. And I am still "wonky". I suppose that would be normal but I do hope this renewed contact doesn't negatively effect my mental health. That is one of the reasons I stayed away as long as I did. Feeling maybe grief, relief, happiness, overwhelmed all at once? This will take some time and gentleness with myself to walk through.

Thanks for being here for me to share. Sending love and hugs...
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Survived the storm with just a few bruises from my roommate holding my arms too tight when it hit and a few broken windows

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Hey everyone
I wasn't doing too well so my folks invited me and the hubby to theirs for the bank holiday weekend. the change of scenery definitely calmed my mind down. i have work tomorrow and for the first time in a while, that hasn't settled a lead ball in my stomach. fingers x this continues. i'm quite chilled this evening.
my best wishes to anyone in the path of Hurricane Irene, whether they're on this forum or not.

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Good day to everyone!
Another hot, dry day here in CO. And I had a few hours home alone. Not very often that happens anymore. The difference for me this time is the anxiety of becoming lonely was absent. I actually enjoyed myself. Yeah! It's over now though as the teenager is home pacing and stressing about her homework. She is just like I was at her age....everything has to be perfect or the world will swallow me whole. I do hope she finds peace from that sooner than I did.

More heat wishes for the Hurricane Irene folks....courage to those finding new paths of recovery...warm thoughts for those with doctor appointments and ill relatives...and, as always, compassion and hugs to all.
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ONICAM - thanks for explaining shiva.

Deb - I'm glad that you like the new Therapist - it makes the sessions much easier. Good luck with it! Group Therapy wouldn't be suitable for me, but I can understand that it does help a lot of people to be in a group of people with similar issues.

Terri - this is a case of "Wish I was there" - LOL!

Michelle - I'm glad you had the quiet time with "the other half" last night. I agree with you "when all is well..........."

JANLEE51 - hopefully you DON'T lose power.

SLFGOLF - As I have mentioned at various times, I only weigh myself when I am in my Dr's town. I weighed myself on Wednesday - I had lost .52kg (1.146 lb.) It had been TWENTY days since the previous weigh-in, and that was a fast loss compared to some of the losses I have had. But you know what???? I was really CHUFFED to bits because IT WAS A LOSS! As the saying goes "Every little helps said the old lady as she *BLANKED* in the sea!" The same applies here, just not so crudely. I am glad that the cardiac testing is over and hope you don't have to wait too long for the results. A way to help your daughter relax about it is to tell her this: "What-ever the results, they are that already and worrying won't change it OR help it!" I told myself this prior to my surgery to remove a suspicious breast lump, and it worked so well that I went into the surgery without the sedative that they normally give to pre-op patients. They had forgotten to give it to me, but I didn't actually need it either because I was so relaxed. It turned out that it was an innocent lump so the worry would have been for nothing.

Tomorrow I am off early to take my daughter and her little boy off to his hospital appointment. He has to see the Allergy Nurse. Then the next day it is hubby off to the Hospital for an outpatient appointment.

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Hi all,

First my thoughts are with all of you in the path of the hurricane. Hope everyone stays safe.

Sorry I haven't been around this week. With the first week of school it just seems like time gets past me. I am proud of myself though that I did get on the treadmill every day after school as soon as I got home. I didn't even sit down first. I made myself change and do it immediately knowing if I didn't, I never would. I've also been tracking my food.

I'm only weighing myself once a week now and I stayed the same this week, but I told myself not to let it get to me. I lost 2 pounds the week before and I normally lose pretty slowly so its just catching up with me. This is progress for me. A month ago this would have had me in tears. The end of this week is my weigh in at the doctor.

We finally have finished all the cardiac testing on my daughter but we are waiting for the results. As soon as they have come in, the cardiologist will call us and set up a visit for us to talk with him. She is very nervous about the results but I think we are all ready to get some answers.

Hopefully I get my new daily schedule settled and I can get on here more often to post. Have a good rest of the weekend.

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