Argh! I typed out a response and then my keyboard batteries died at home.
We're snowed in here...about 2 feet which is a lot here. Managed to make it into work today though, thank goodness. Had our first snowfall Sunday morning but managed to get to church fine. I've been feeling detached from my church family but I think it's me. Wondering if God is telling me something and if I'm ready to hear it.
Got bad news about my dad Friday night. He went in to see one of his specialists (he has cancer) and he was concerned about my dads shortness of breath. It's been an issue for a few weeks, but my dad recently started smoking again, despite having lung cancer, asbestosis and emphysema. We all attributed the shortness of breath to those things. The dr. heard it and sent him down for an emergency ct scan. They found more cancer in a pulmonary artery leading to my dads lung. Oxygen isn't getting in or out effectively. They scheduled him for chemo to start immediately, yesterday. We were worried about all the snow but my brother drove in with his 4X4 and took my dad to his chemo. The clinic opened late due to the snow but at least he got the treatment.
These are some of the things that weigh on me that make food such a reliable...distraction. When I'm eating, I don't worry about my dad, my mom, our business, money or what we'll do. It's a break for my mind and my heart.
But..I did some yoga last night with my Wii Fit Plus disc and the balance board. It was tough boy. And I couldn't hold the pose properly because I can't bend that way yet, but I bent as far as I could and I kept my posture correct. It felt good to do something. My legs have been sore and I wonder if it's atrophy. Not sure if that's the right word but when I don't use my muscles they start to hurt.
Working away at my water which is my #1 goal right now. I'm on #4 now and as long as I keep taking a few sips each new song, I'll see my 8 today. How's everyone else doing?
Crystal from Vancouver, B.C.
"You're on the line between breaking point and breaking through"