Pacific Crest Trail
Done: 162.2 miles
To-Do: 2,527.3 miles
No cancer ... what?
I was called last Wednesday evening, put on this restricted diet of no fruits, no vegetables, no seeds or nuts. I could eat all the protein I wanted. I could eat white pasta, white bread or white rice ... from Wednesday evening to Monday. Monday only clear fluids and then that cleansing drink.
I had no warning, usually you are told in advance... I guess someone canceled out.
I had plans to eat with friends Friday evening at an all you can eat pasta bar.. no problem .. I ate white bread no salad. White pasta with Alfredo sauce with shrimp, bacon, and chicken as the toppers. I did not feel deprived.
Saturday morning brunch with my mother .. so I ordered a club sandwich on white bread without the lettuce or tomato and no mayo, and French fries. It was ok.. I was hungry.
The rest of my meals were ... well not so healthy, and I skipped some
Well Tuesday came.. I had a hour and half wait between two waiting rooms. They were running late. I hate waiting. Oh I’m trying to live in the moment. Learning not to always be strategically planning the future or thinking about should have or shouldn't s. I like being in control and here I am with no control and nothing I can do to make them hurry up..
- there is nothing in my past that could have change the situation I’m in now
- there is no tomorrow.. can’t plan, strategize about tomorrow until I know the results
- all there is right now ... this moment as I wait
Finally the anesthesia Dr comes and talks and we take that long walk.
Opening the curtains into the hall way ... way down the hall is a room - doors open - very very bright lights burst forth compared to the lights of the hall. Step by step I go towards the OR.
Do I stop this... avoid finding out the truth , hide and turn and run away .. the room is increasing in brightness and getting closer..
enter the room , nice nurse tells me to sit, anesthesia begins to do what he does.. next thing I know I’m in the recovery room... a new nurse is beside me.. soon she reads the results... No cancer detected is all I hear... no waiting... immediately I hear the results...
Now I’m trying to soak it all in...
So last year No prostrate cancer detected.... this year No colan cancer detected...
Well good.... but why is the doctor so concern about cancer showing up in my tests?
I have a problem..what is causing the problem? Don’t know... I guess more test will be in the future...
In the mean time
Sunrise
Sunset
And enjoying
Today we both walked around the block... I haven’t taken him around since last fall.... even the Dalhousie is feeling life spring back