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9/25/13 5:37 P

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A newscaster - very impressive. Hope you do get your meeting together.

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9/25/13 5:14 A

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Good morning I hope this finds you well.

Yesterday was a decent enough day for me. I had some cravings last night but I did not give in to them. It seems that doing the right thing is becoming a bit easier. I have had many thoughts about getting things I should not have as of late but I have been making the right choices. It feels good to not give in to that little voice in my head like I normally do. I know that I am not cured, nor do I think I am in control and "I got this" I know I only get a daily reprieve from my disease based on the actions that I take

I am starting the night meeting back up in town today. Hopefully as we go along we will gain a good group so we can all experience recovery together.


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Be of service there I can

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Pray & mediate before bed

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/25/13 5:13 A

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Hi Nomi, ho am a newscaster for a local radio station. That incident was big news around here, we are a very small town things like that generally do not happen around here. It was pretty shocking.

and thank you, its a battle everyday and not easy that's for sure. Being here and all you guys as well as my program help keep me on the straight and narrow so I cannot thank you all enough for being here

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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/24/13 8:22 A

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Greg - do you work in law enforcement?

Congrats on your abstinence.

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9/24/13 6:08 A

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Good morning
I hope this finds you well this morning. I am doing ok. I got plenty of sleep last night but I actually feel worse this morning than if I only slept 4-5 hours go figure *chuckles*
Yesterday was a decent day for me, day 15 of being abstinent. It feels pretty good to finally be gaining some traction. It was a busy day for me so I didn't get much else done, we had a double murder in the area so I was at the station most of the day waiting for information. We live in a very small tight knit community, murder is not something that happens here very often, and the details of it were shocked and really rocked the community. Thankfully the perp was taken into custody fairly quickly. It was pretty surprising as it was someone who owns a local business and is relatively well know, you just never know what life has in store for you day in and day out, and you never know about the people that surround you.

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Pray & meditate before bed


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/23/13 8:50 P

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Have a good evening.

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Good evening my EE friends. Hope all of you had a happy Monday. LOVINGWOLF911 and
PASCAL921, welcome back on the boards. I wasn't able to post this past w/e because of a very busy schedule. I believe I will be posting only in the evenings for now.
Greg, I'm happy for you that you were given space for the OA meetings at the hospital. I hope the group will be successful and will eventually show a lot of recovery.
I had a good day. I went off the rails of my food plan this past week end, but thankfully today I am back on track.



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9/23/13 9:05 A

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Hello everyone...I'm glad to be back after about two weeks without posting. It's been a wild ride. My husband spent a week in Oregon fishing. I'm a grad student so work takes up a lot of my time and with chores and cooking and my commute, there just isn't always time to sit down and reflect. But I am caught up on my work and sleep and I'm feeling good. I'm glad to see that you're all doing well. Greg, good work on your abstinence, that's quite an achievement. LovingWolf welcome to the boards.

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9/23/13 5:57 A

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**food mentioned**

Good morning, I hope you had a good weekend. Mine was decent I had no complaints.

I was abstinent yesterday for day 14. This WED I will be restarting an OA meeting here in town at the local hospital. I am grateful that they provide us with space to hold a meeting. I hope that we get a decent turn out and that people come and participate. It was too much before to be responsible for everything week in and week out, that goal is to get people to take action, be a part of the group and handle some of the responsibilities so it does not fall on my shoulders all the time.



I feel good about resuming the group, I have learned a lot in my experiences since the last time we had one here locally. I fear I may have led people astray before with the "progress not perfect" and the "take what you want and leave the rest" I fully appreciate what those phrases mean now. Before I would hide behind progress not perfection and not have the courage to be honest about myself and what I was doing and what I needed to do for my recovery. It was progress that I was not eating entire pizzas, however I was still allowing myself to eat other unhealthy items and thinking I was doing "goodĒ Which I was however I was deceiving myself.



The other thing I regret is stressing the "take what you want and leave the rest" I fear that we "left" too much on the table. In the beginning I took it as I could do what I wanted in the program and leave the things I didn't want to do *chuckles* which as we all know simply doesn't work. This program is a lot of hard and rigorous work, and I would leave it all if i could because thatís in my addictive nature, I want to do what "I" want, not what someone else tells me to do. I have since grown to realize that having a sponsor is crucial; I dare say itís a MUST for the program. I am not certain how anyone can work the program and not have a sponsor. I know people who do it, but I also see the results, or lack thereof from doing it "on their own". I also now see the importance of having a meal plan that is another one of those things that I cannot see the program without. I feel more confident this time around that I am armed with the facts about myself and the program, that hopefully I can pass on what I have learned and has been taught to me.



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Pray & meditate (done)

Submit meal plan (done)

Pray before/after each meal

Text my food sponsor before/after each meal

Be of service where I can

Take recovery actions through my day

Pray and meditate before bed.

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/22/13 10:13 P

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Hi ya'll! I know I haven't been active on here but I am going to start again. I had a good day today we didn't go out to eat and I ate mostly healthy but a few set backs. I'm a new mom fyi and hoping my little one starts sleeping a bit more so I can get my workouts back in order. She was doing great for nap time but I've been so tired I've been joining in her naps.
Which in return makes me irritable and eat. Well don't want to bore ya all. Thanks for listening to me or rather reading my post.

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9/22/13 8:15 P

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Have a good rest of the evening.

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9/22/13 6:33 P

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Tired today. Up late with a sick kiddo. Ate through it. First time since July 5th. Getting back on track today. Exercised, lots of water... trying to practice what I preach: Being gentle with myself! Temptation in the kitchen.... I don't have to repeat last night just because I blew last night. emoticon

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9/22/13 1:24 P

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Good Afternoon
I hope this finds you well. Yesterday was a decent enough day, it was 13th abstinent day.
not much else to say, it was a pretty quiet day nothing exciting happened.

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pray & mediate (done)
submit meal plan (done)
pray before/after my meals
text my food sponsor before/after meals
be of service where I can
take recovery actions through my day
pray & meditate before bed



" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/22/13 1:24 P

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Mostly because I didn't want to be around the food.

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/21/13 8:59 P

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Did you not want to go because of what you might eat or other reasons?

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9/21/13 2:26 P

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Good afternoon I hope you are having a good day

The sun is shining here itís a beautiful day; things are a little stressful around the homestead but nothing to eat over.

Yesterday was a good day it made 12 days abstinent with 9 of those back to back. I felt a little pressure to go to my brothers today, itís his birthday and they were having a bbq and a party for him, I just felt like I wasnít ready for that situation just yet. My other brother also asked me if I would be attending thanksgiving this year, I told him I wasnít sure at this point, really I am sure I donít want to go
*chuckles* but he said I should come anyways they like having me around. I feel a bit bad but itís what I have to do for myself.

Goals for the day
Pray & meditate (done)
Submit meal plan (done)
Pray before/after my meals
Text my food sponsor before/after meals
Be of service where I can
Take recovery actions through my day
Pray & meditate before bed.


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/20/13 11:55 P

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Greg - I also get teary at Undercover Boss.

Had a lovely day today.

Food starts off good. Have my morning routine down without a problem, gym, journaling, good breakfast. Downhill after that.

Don't want to bore you all its the same old same old.

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9/20/13 12:12 P

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Good morning, everyone! I have been having a train wreck of a week. Every morning I wake up determined to stay on plan, but by the end of the day I am overeating and mad at myself. Last night I went to my first Celebrate Recovery meeting. Everybody else there is a recovering drug addict or alcoholic (not compulsive overeater), so they served dinner and dessert. I only had one helping of chili and cornbread, but being a perfectionist, I couldn't figure out how to track it since it was all homemade. I felt really awkward in the small group section of the meeting, but enjoyed the whole group part. Everyone was encouraging me to sign up for the "step group", which is on another night of the week. I don't really want to commit two nights a week to the group, PLUS I was too embarrassed to tell them I couldn't afford the $7 for the workbook. The end result is that I came home for the CR meeting and binged. Today I woke up so mad at myself! My goal this week was only one pound, but I will be lucky if I haven't gained since I have had such a bad week. I am really struggling with a feeling of hopelessness this morning...you know, that "What's the point?" feeling. I would appreciate any suggestions for helping me get back on track.

GREG..you have mentioned being abstinent. What are you being abstinent from? Also, I know just how you feel about the animals. My daughter has been a vegetarian ever since she learned where meat came from when she was about 3 years old. When I tried to give her meat, she would literally gag on it. Now she is almost 16 and still won't eat it. I eat meat moderately, but it has been bothering me more and more how the animals are treated, and so I have been eating less and less of it. I am particularly bothered by pork (even though I love bacon!) because of how intelligent the pigs are.

LUCY - How are you holding up this morning? Sorry to hear you had a rough night last night. emoticon
Thanks for listening! Laura

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9/20/13 6:45 A

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Good morning
I hope this finds you well this morning. Yesterday was a decent enough day for me, day 11 of being abstinent. I had the chance to go into a "health food" store yesterday out of town. I use the " " because it didn't seem very healthy to me. It has so many "healthy" sweets that it was ridiculous. Sugar free, or gluten free, everything but sweet free *chuckles* I was looking for vegetarian options but most of the stuff I saw was things I could get in any grocery store. They had a nice selection of fresh spices but that really wasn't what I was there for.
I had a little incident yesterday where I lost my temper. Mom needed paperwork from the social security office to submit with some other paper work she has for house hold stuff. Since I live there I had to get the same paper work, I thought I could just call and get the paper work later on. I sat in the car for about 1/2 hour while she was in there only to have her come out and tell me I needed to go in and wait in line. I was not pleased to say the least; I did it but begrudgingly so.
I learned a little something yesterday, I was aggravated at someone who called me for help but really didnít think what I had to say was a viable option for them. Itís amusing because thatís how I act a lot of the time, I now know how my sponsors feel *chuckles* I could only share with this person what I have gone through and what has been taught to me. If they donít want to listen or are unable to do it there isnít much I can do, I feel badly that they are struggling because I know all too well how that is. I also understand how my sponsors feel now. To see someone struggling and knowing if they follow some simple (but not easy) instructions they can be freed from the trap they are in. I have come a long ways from where I was, but I still have a ways to go, I also need to pray for the strength to surrender and follow the simple directions of my sponsor. If I could but do this in as little as a yearís time I could be 150-200 pounds lighter and be that much closer to a life free from this terrible disease, so what the hell is wrong with me? Each day that goes by ďmy wayĒ seems less and less of a viable option and actually starts to look like the insanity it actually is.
The rest of the day was good. I have been watching Undercover boss on Netflix, itís nice to watch a nice positive show, plus the damn thing always makes me cry *chuckles* yet I keep watching it.
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Pray & Meditate
Submit meal plan (done)
Pray before and after my meals
Text my food sponsor before and after meals
Pray
Be of service where I can
Take recovery actions through my day
Pray and meditate before bed


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/20/13 6:07 A

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Hi Nomi, a lot of OA groups record people who speak or share and then post them online, i have heard some amazing shares and people I really relate too. When I cannot get to a meeting or am feeling down, I can listen to a speaker file online. Drop me a line if you want I can send you some links to places you can listen and check it out

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Hi everyone, I am having a hard time tonight. My kids were not well behaved tonight at a school function and I am feeling very agitated. My hubby is working the night shift and my kids are in bed. I am home alone and the fridge is calling me. I know that eating will not make me feel better in the long run but the urge to do so is very strong. I don't want to eat. I want to eat so badly. I know that I am feeling lonely, tired, and angry which are three emotions that you should not eat when you feel them. But it's so very hard. Anyone around tonight?

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Popping in to say hi.

Greg Ė whatís a speaker file?

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Hello everyone, I am still rather new to the group but would really like to overcome my EE. I think it is one of the main things that is keeping me from being successful. My plan right now is mainly to follow my hunger cues and try to make healthy decisions. I have noticed that a rigid eating plan makes me want to binge. All I can think about is all the things that I can't have and of course then I want them immediately. So far my strategy has been working well for me. Except that I find i'm not eating enough. I believe I am restricting to avoid the temptation which is not any healthier. Does anyone struggle with the same problem?

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Megamillions135,

Wow! What a huge milestone! Hopefully now you can come up with an action plan to help you overcome the ee. I am going to think about what you have said and see if I can't come up with the reason I eat my emotions as well. Thanks for sharing!

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Love your Goals for the day!
Stay Strong, YOU CAN DO THIS! emoticon


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**food mentioned**

Good morning
I hope this finds you well. Yesterday was a decent enough day for me; It made 10 days abstinent and thankfully I was able to reach out to my food sponsor to avert a near disaster. I had a strong craving for chocolate chip cookie dough yesterday but I managed to avoid it. My daily check in was rather long today so I skipped writing it all here, it is on my page under the blog Heat of the Moment if you want to hear about how I was helped avoid a binge and in turn ended up helping someone else


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pray & meditate


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/18/13 5:53 A

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(I have deviated from my usual routine of naming my reports after songs and went with a movie I watched yesterday)

Good morning

I hope this finds you well. Yesterday was ok, nothing special I was abstinent. Things were quiet around the house. I watched a very powerful documentary called Vegucated on the positives of going Vegan. It was very shocking to see how the animals that are out food are treated. I felt ashamed to eat meat and animal products.
I donít know if I will go full on vegan but I am going to begin exploring a shift towards being a vegetarian. Its I will also start shifting away from meat, thatís going to take a little while as itís a part of my dietary intake and I cannot just stop eating it as I am on a fixed income. I will start to transition towards more fruits and vegetables, grains and rice, things of that nature. It will be a process. I have already moved towards getting away from eating beef. Pork will be next as some of the more shocking images were how the pigs were treated. I am not saying one way or another if I will never eat meat again, it will be a personal choice one way or another and I will figure that out as I go along my own personal journey, but as of right now eating meat of any kind is not a pleasant experience, I had to stop eating my supper last night because I was disgusted with it, however the cats seemed to enjoy it

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Submit meal plan (done)
Pray before/after meals
Text my food sponsor before/after meals
Be of service where I can
Take recovery actions through my day
Chair home meeting and play recovery speaker
Pray & meditate before bed


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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MEGAMILLIONS135, great post. I'm glad you are thinking the way you are now thinking. A positive attitude is the beginning of our healing.

I like baked ham too Greg, but I stopped eating it when I stopped eating red meat. I hope your day ends up being a good one.

Its raining here all day...even had a tornado warning...none came, but of course I couldn't take my walk today. Dancing to the oldies instead.


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9/17/13 6:33 A

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Good morning I hope this finds you well

Yesterday was an ok day for me, it was decent food wise I was abstinent. I am considering removing baked ham from my meal plan. I am not sure if its because its high in sodium or exactly what it is but it tastes a little too good for me. I will finish what I have because I cannot afford to throw it away and replace it. I use sliced deli ham for eggs and lunch and that is fine, rather curious that one incarnation of the same food has a different reaction than another. I was out of the house quite a bit yesterday, but while I was there I was still harboring resentment from the day before so I kept to myself and out of the way

I did not have the time to listen to a speaker file yesterday, I will work on it today. I enjoy the ones from the nyoa page better because mostly they are 15-20 minutes and that is a lot easier to manage than the oala ones that run anywhere from 35-40 minutes. I don't have a long commute or anything like that where I have a lot of time. I have a lot of work to do this morning, Ill focus on finding time this afternoon.

Goals for day

pray & meditate (prayed)
submit meal plan (done)
pray before and after my meals
text my food sponsor before and after my meals
focus on being tolerant and patient today by being mindful and using prayer
be of service where I can
take recovery actions today
work on listening to a speaker file
pray and & meditate before bed


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/16/13 8:43 P

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Still not on wagon.

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Hey Everyone! So I've been watching a lot of old Biggest Loser episodes, and reading a lot of books about how to grow and change your habits etc. The main thing I've gotten out of it has been that there is an underlying issue for why you emotionally eat or binge or stress eat or over eat. So I wrote down every time I had problems with my weight whether it was lost too much weight or gained. I made a HUGE discovery! I realized the early on I never had an issue with weight because I spent all my energy doing things and trying to be perfect, 3 sport athlete, straight A's all while having a part time job. Then I realized I was an overachiever because I wanted to be loved by my parents, friends, peers, and family. When I feel unproductive, which makes me feel sad, BORED, or stressed, I feel unworthy of love and so I turn to food! Now my plan is to figure out how to realize I am worthy even if I'm not doing something or proving myself. Good Luck on your journeys! Thanks for being here for my support as well!

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Happy Monday everybody. We are getting a lot of rain here again today...its a good thing I don't have to go out anywhere.
Greg I'm happy that you are able to keep your abstinence. As a compulsive eater, binge eater, and an emotional eater, I know that it takes hard work and a lot of determination to make our abstinence work.
Hope everyone will have a great day today.


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9/16/13 8:42 A

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Good Morning

Greg - I think you are doing the right thing by removing yourself from a toxic situation. emoticon on the days of abstinence.


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9/16/13 5:53 A

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Good morning
I hope this finds you well. I was abstinent yesterday that makes 7 days of the last 8
My day was decent enough yesterday. Mom got home last night from her vacation, which was positive and negative. She wasn't even home 1/2 an hour and the complaining started. It kind of threw the whole house off. Normally when mom comes home the animalís transition back into being with her, but because of the negative attitude in the house they followed me upstairs when I removed myself from the situation. I am of course please to see her, but I was disappointed that things resort to business as usual so soon after her coming home. Rather than get angry about it I simply went upstairs and took myself out of the room.

I feel badly because she very much wants people to talk to through the course of her day, but I find myself feeling short with her, resentful and not really interested in what she has to say. I know that sounds horrible but I am a solitary person. I am content to be quiet and by myself most of the day. I go to work or meetings and interact with people in a healthy way, the rest of the time I like my peace, I don't really say much and I keep to myself. She on the other hand talks all day long, asks questions, complains ETC. I don't deal well with the complaining, I do feel bad that I get automatically short with her as soon as she speaks to me and itís something I am working on. However I don't feel I should have to sit there and listen to her complain about the world on a daily basis, or do I? I cannot decide if its being of service to sit and listen to her talk and answer every question she throws at me, or if I am serving my own mental health by simply staying upstairs in my own area

Goals for the day

Pray & meditate (done)
Submit meal plan (done)
Pray before and after my meals
Text my food sponsor before and after my meals
Be of service
Take recovery actions through the day
Pray & meditate before bed.
Work on cleaning up my area upstairs to build a peaceful and quiet place for myself.
Work on researching and educating myself on my job and future goals.
Put together a daily book of information, quotes, and other things I have been compiling so that I can read it daily and use the information
I will listen to a new speaker file today


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/16/13 12:01 A

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9/15/13 12:25 P

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Good afternoon

all is well this quiet Sunday. I was abstinent yesterday, that makes 6 out of the last 7 days abstinent. My mom returns from her vacation today, which means I will no longer have the place to myself, but the upside is I do miss her and the animals will gravitate back towards her *chuckles*

The sun is shining, the wind is blowing and the sky is blue it is a good day to be alive. Progress continues

Goals for today

Pray & Meditate
submit meal plan (done)
pray before/after meals
text my food sponsor before/after meals
be of service
take recovery actions
pray and meditate
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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/14/13 3:24 P

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REDROSEBUD4, I'm so sorry to hear of the devastation in Colorado. Praying for all of you to keep safe.


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BBMOM...I agree that those aren't the kind of guys you want to be with anyway. They sound very shallow. I always think about Christopher Reeves' wife and how she married Superman but ended up with an invalid, yet she stayed by his side no matter what. That is someone with character. That is the kind of person you need. Take care of yourself and lose the weight for YOU, not for jerks like that.
BRIT ....isn't it always raining in Britain? LOL

I am feeling very blue today. It may be the change in the weather. As the days get shorter, my depression tends to kick in. I took some Vitamin D3 this morning, so hopefully that will help a bit. I guess I'm just feeling overwhelmed by everything...the house feels out of control, I need to find a job desperately, the yardwork needs to be done. Ever feel like there is so much to do that you don't know where to start? I'd appreciate prayers from anyone who is a believer.

Thanks so much! Wishing you all a good day.

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9/14/13 12:21 P

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Hello
yesterday was ok, day 5 abstinent. Not really in the best mood today so I don't have much to say

Goals for today

pray & Meditate
submit meal plan (done)
pray before and after meals
text my food sponsor before/after meals
be of service
listen to recovery speaker
read a recovery reading

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/14/13 11:31 A

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I hope you are safe and things improve there soon RedRose, Ill keep you in my thoughts and prayers


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/13/13 7:08 P

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emoticon emoticon Stressed and heart broken. I'm in a flood zone city in Colorado. We aren't use to this. My home is ok, but seeing the devastation on the news is heart breaking.

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9/13/13 1:45 P

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Its raining here in Britain (Yes the British always talk about the weather). On the bright side: I finished work, came home and rather than raid the cupboards for food I just had a handful of peanuts. Later I'll have some scran but I'm not craving at the moment for anything.

Best of British to everyone on their journey and you BBMom




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BBMOM, don't fret over those guys. They seem to be only users who will use you to serve their purpose when they want you to, and then they will move on when it suits them. You are worth far more than that. By the same token, I'm happy that you are looking to lose the excessive weight and take better care of yourself. You must do this for you, and not for anyone else. For now you should enjoy yourself while on this weight lose journey...make new friends and pamper yourself....and give yourself small presents when you reach a short term goal. For instance, every time I lose 10 pounds I treat myself to a fun day of pampering....beauty salon for my hair, and I will usually get my fingernails and feet professionally done also. Normally I will do these things for myself, but a ten pound loss is something to celebrate.
You and I have a similar weight to lose. I need to lose about 125 more pounds, but I am positive because I've come from a long way. My top weight was 400 pounds, and now I'm down to 275...still far too much weight but at least I'm on the right track.




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9/13/13 6:28 A

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Good morning

as amazing as it sounds I don't have much to say this morning ;)

I was abstinent yesterday, that makes 4 days not counting WED.

goals for today

Pray & Meditate (done)
submit meal plan (done)
pray before/after meals
text my food sponsor before/after meals
be of service
do something for my recovery through the day
listen to speaker
pray & meditate

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Hello Team,

I am a 43 y/o single mom. Currently, I am also an empty-nester since my 20 y/o daughter has started her 3rd year of college. I've been a member of the spark community since Dec 2012. I was on a great high at the beginning of my journey to lose close to 100 lbs. At the beginning, I was so motivated and quickly lost about 50 lbs (with the help of SparkPeople and Weight Watchers.) Now I'm a stuck. I have gained back about 10 lbs and have been in a rut for a few months now. I regularly throw pity parties for myself when I am home alone. (Had one last night!) I have no excuse other than to say, I continually let the negative things that other people say and do affect me and not in a good way. My last (2) boyfriends both dumped me because I am too fat. Yes, guys, they said that. Not in the same way, but the sentiment was the same. One said he found a woman with a thinner, nicer body than me, so that's why he was leaving. The other said, that although I am on this healthier path, he wasn't willing to stick around and hope that I got the results I am seeking because he prefers a more fit woman. He said that I have all of the womanly qualities and traits on his list of what he is looking for in a mate...it's just that fat chick wasn't one of them. They both would like to remain friends because I am soooooo easy to talk to. I am so sick of being the girl that everyone can talk to about their relationships and never having someone interested in me that way. It's so frustrating, and thus it's time to eat.

In any case, I am trying to use their negativity as motivation to work even harder and get back on track. But it's a hump that I am failing to get over.

Any motivational words of wisdom? emoticon

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Hi Greg. Yesterday was an unusual day for you. Being that it was so unusual, I'd also call it an abstinent day. I have odd days like that sometimes when my blood sugar drops too low. I am forced to eat something sweet to bring it up again...if I don't, I will be in serious trouble...or even die. On those days I still claim my abstinence because there was nothing I could have done otherwise.

Edited by: CAROL3SAN at: 9/12/2013 (08:27)

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9/12/13 6:18 A

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Good Morning how are you?

I hope this finds you well. I wasn't feeling the best yesterday but I got through the day.

I had to ask my sponsor about my abstinence yesterday . I was good with my food with the exception of a ****** I had in early evening. We were experiencing some severe weather and without power for about 4 hours.

It was supper time but I had no way to prepare food. All the power in town was out, so no stores or restaurants were operating, which was probably a good thing. I was so hungry I would have eaten anything at that point. I was not able to get in touch with my food sponsor for guidance because my cell phone was dead and i had no way to charge it, likewise the internet was down, so I was totally in the dark

I did not have a snack planned as I had a hearty lunch and figured I was good till supper, also I was short on funds. I had the ****** about 5:30, we didn't get the power back till almost 8:30. They are relatively low in calories, about 110, but they do have sugar in them.

I think itís important to mention I had strong cravings for something sweet earlier in the day which I reported to my food sponsor. I had thoughts of going to the store to get something, I had nothing in mind. My food sponsor suggested I have some water which I did, and I felt better.

I am not sure whether to call yesterday abstinent or not, initially I would say yes. It was not the best food I could have had, but it got me through till I was able to cook something for supper. it was not what I had in mind earlier in the day for something sweet but it did have a slight sweetness to it.


Goals for the day

pray & meditate
submit meal plan (done)
pray before/after my meals
text my food sponsor before and after my meals
pray
be of service where I can
do something for my recovery every hour
pray and meditate before bed

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/11/13 4:16 P

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Congratulations on your third day of abstinence Greg. Speaking from someon who struggles with abstinence from time to time, I really know how important it is to get to day 3. I've been trying to get to a full week but recently I can't seem to break through. Today I'm doing well, but I am stressed out about my daughter being hospitalized yesterday. I hope I can keep it together and not start binge eating.


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"....This above all, to thine own self be true"
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"If it is to be its up to me"


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9/11/13 6:04 A

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Good morning

I hope this finds you well. Yesterday was my 3rd day of abstinence. My day didn't go exactly as planned as I was sick and I had to travel, however I made the best of it. I avoided having soda with lunch, and avoided eating unhealthy things as well as not going back for seconds.

Goals for the day

pray & meditate (done)
submit meal plan (done)
pray before and after my meals
text my food sponsor before and after my meals
pray
be of service where I can
do something for my recovery every hour
pray & meditate before bed


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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/10/13 4:48 P

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great job Carol!!

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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