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4/30/16 8:30 P

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Yeah...I got blamed. I had a therapist who told me over and over that I was "choosing" to be like this and feel like this. I was with him for four years. I still struggle to get that toxic message out of my head!

And yes, I understand being the listener and the giver but having a really hard time getting help for ourselves.

You're not alone.

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CHISAMI1's Photo CHISAMI1 Posts: 39
4/29/16 12:59 P

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Thanks everyone reading the replys made me feel a bit better unfortunately mental illness and the like where treated like weaknesses and laziness when I was growing up so I've never really sought out help or medication or the like I've swallowed it and just kept going. As far as being open with my friends I wouldn't even know where to start since I'm the rock I listen and help I don't really know how to reach out, which I guess is hypocritical since I tell everyone else how important it is to. Regardless thanks I'm happy i made the post

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LAURANCE's Photo LAURANCE Posts: 6,138
4/29/16 7:36 A

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That feeling of drowning is so hard and miserable! I can understand that loved ones don't want to hear it from us. Shucks, even ones who are merely liked ones don't want to hear about it from us.

So you come here! Here's a place where you can talk about it and find other people who understand because we're going through these things, too.
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4/29/16 7:27 A

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Hi,

I'm sorry to hear that you are having a problem with a deep depression and that it is affecting you so much that you are fatigued and spinning at the same time. Do you do meditation at all? A little meditation might help you focus on what is and what is not important, since so much has fallen into your lap. Sitting down and making a To Do list might be a good idea too. List your chores in order of importance and go down the line and do them. Sometimes it helps having a physical list, so that you can track your progress. What you don't get done today, put those chores at the top of your list for tomorrow so you will be sure that you finish your tasks. Please be good to you during this time of unrest. It is always good to focus on the here and now. Stay in the moment if you can. You will find it easier to negotiate the depression if you do so. Take a long bubble bath or go for a long walk for a change of scenery if the weather permits. Do something that makes you feel good, no matter how small. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Sending you positive energy and hugs!!!! Let us know how you continue to feel, so that we may offer some sort of encouragement as we all work towards good health. Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon

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4/28/16 5:13 P

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I'm sorry you're suffering so much right now with fatigue and sadness. I wish you felt you could share what you're going through with your loved ones because it's even harder when you're dealing with these feelings all alone. I'm glad you came here to share with us, because many of us here understand depression and profound sadness very well and are willing to listen and even offer advice, if you like.

Do you have a therapist or doctor that you see? If so, if might be a good idea to check in with him or her. It could be depression, or life stressors, but it could also be that you have a health issue going on like a low Vitamin D level or thyroid or something like that.

In any case, it's sounds like you have a lot going on with the extra stuff that fell into your lap, but if you can, try to get some extra rest each night. Getting enough sleep can help so much.

Hang in there and keep in touch with the team so we can encourage you.
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4/28/16 4:40 P

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I understand. I'm having a tough week myself. My anxiety is so high right now it feels like my body is full of sand and its occasionally exhausting just to breath. I go home and try to leave it all in my car. I'm a single mom so I don't bring my burdens to my daughter and its hard not having anyone of the adult persuasion to talk to at home but I am thankful for SP and my friends. I don't have too many that understand what anxiety and depression are like but I do have a few I can talk to. I know it feels like you are being a burden but if they love you, you aren't. They would much rather you talk to them than have you keep swirling in a pit of sadness. Trust me!

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4/28/16 4:13 P

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I'm so tired and sad lately I feel like I'm drowning, I fell off the wagon for 2/3 weeks and just forced myself back into gear not to long ago but it feels like I'm running in circles and that i'll need get the health under control, I feel very.. very sad hard to put it to words. However I'm keeping it to myself I feel like if i speak out I'll be a burden on my loved ones. Right now a lot of extra stuff fell into my lap to take care of and I can't drop the ball on any of it but it's all so overwhelming, I wanna curl up sleep and never get back up

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