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12/26/19 7:57 P

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Getting ready to re-start on January 1, 2020.

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Hello is anybody here? It seems like a ghost town here.

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Ok i am back again, starting over with a bit more determination.
four daze of writing my morning pages. and one day of moving my body!
I am giving my own self a hug!
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That is great progress! I haven't been doing as well as you, but I am determined to make time in the mornings for my morning pages.

Lisa, Pelahatchie MS
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This is my third day of week one and so far it has been very intense. My morning pages are filled quickly and the task really have me thinking things through.

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1/20/11 9:43 A

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Woohoo! Good stuff!

"This above all: to thine own self be true" ~ William Shakespeare

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony" - Mahatma Gandhi


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I have the book, the workbook that goes along with it, my journal and pen and a starting date of Monday, Jan. 24, 2011. I'm really excited to give this another go.

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1/18/11 10:11 A

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Woohoo! Glad you are here! Just like anything a little bit goes a long way. :)

"This above all: to thine own self be true" ~ William Shakespeare

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony" - Mahatma Gandhi


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Got my book on Friday.
Didn't get to even look at it until today (Mon)

I did pick up 8 composition notebooks today that I am going to use for morning pages.

I will commit to the contract. I will do the 12 weeks readings, a weekly artist's date, do the weekly assignments and do the morning pages as of tomorrow, Jan 18, 2011.

I bought The Artist's Way Every Day at the same time. I will catch it up to today and read it daily thereafter.

Have I told you (the team) how glad I am to be able to work this with you!?

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1/13/11 11:10 P

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Gotta love the library! I might make that an artist date...

I think everybody resists morning pages in the beginning particularly if you've never been a journaler and THEN you can't imagine your life without them. LOL. When all else fails you can repeat "I don't know what else to write." until you finish the 3rd page. In most cases, after about 10 repetitions you write what you really want to say. ;)

Enjoy.

"This above all: to thine own self be true" ~ William Shakespeare

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony" - Mahatma Gandhi


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Checked the book out from the library.
I plan to buy one as well, but have to wait until tomorrow.

I have tried to do this book many times. I have a real resistance to the morning pages. I also have problems remembering any specific memories, just a general negativity toward me from my father.

Tomorrow I will try again on the morning pages, totally spaced them today.

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11/11/10 6:38 P

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I am really happy you went back and did more of the activities...I feel as if I know a little bit more about you and I am that much closer to you....if that is possible. Great job!

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Way to go! You made it through week one! Thank you for sharing your experience with us. :)

"This above all: to thine own self be true" ~ William Shakespeare

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Well, I have finally finished Week One...I have gained some insight on myself, but like everything in life, two steps forward and one step back.

1. How many days did you do MP this week? I only did my morning pages four days. I have a really hard time carving out the quiet time to do it; however, they are soooo helpful! I am employed as a writer, and there is a definite improvement in my productivity on the days I complete them!

2. Did you do your Artist Date this week? What did you do? Did you enjoy it? It took me a little over 2 weeks to complete Week One, so I did two artist's dates. The first one was having my hair cut and highlighted. There is nothing like getting a new look! The second one was quite by accident, because I had another activity planned but I ran out of time, so instead, when I woke up on Sunday, instead of my usual hopping out of bed, I laid in bed for about 30 minutes and stretched every muscle! It felt good!

3. Did anything else really awesome happen? Did you suddenly have an "I GET IT NOW!!!" moment? Did you end up backtracking a little? How did it go? This week was bittersweet...I truly enjoyed the creative affirmations and reading and re-reading the basic principles. I loved writing out alternate career paths even though it was hard because I love how mine has turned out. The hardest was writing about my creative champions, because three of them died way too early. It was painful, but healing at the same time.



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11/9/10 9:57 A

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I bet I do it again!!!! emoticon

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emoticon Great job with Chapter 1! You make me want to go back and rework it. emoticon

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11/7/10 8:13 A

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I have completed Chapter 1!!! Yippee! Here is my wrap up:

1. How many days did you do MP this week? 7 would be great. How's that experience going for you?

I finished all 7 days. The experience was up and down. I never disliked it like I thought I would. Since I was sick this week, so days were a struggle to write anything since my head was simple blank. Other days were more productive!

2. Did you do your Artist Date this week? What did you do? Did you enjoy it?

I actually did 2 artist dates! One was a happy accident. The first was pure luxury. I had a keratin treatment done to my hair Friday. It was pretty impulsive, but taking time for pampering was nice. I always like having my hair done. It really doesn't have anything to do with vanity either. There is something so nice about having someone scratch your head!!!! Seriously! It is relaxing...and it brings back fond memories of my grandmothers rubbing my head and forehead!

My second artist date corresponded with a Chapter 1 activity. One of the occupations I would do in another life was jewelry designer. So, I took out a beautiful boulder opal bead I purchased in Portland earlier this year and strung it. Insights galore!!!!

3. Did anything else really awesome happen? Did you suddenly have an "I GET IT NOW!!!" moment? Did you end up backtracking a little? How did it go?

I definitely had an AHA moment. I also realized knowing something intellectually is very different that experiencing it and I shouldn't discount the value of walking through the experience.

I know that my need to be perfect is a block. I worked through this in my artist date yesterday. Please see my blog for more on this

http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public
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11/1/10 7:29 A

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That is great!!! You are right---a book like that would be a great Christmas present! LOL!!!!

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10/31/10 8:36 A

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Way to go on doing your artist date! I've got some cheerleaders who are blocks. There should be a cheerleading school for dummies book out there we can give them for christmas... LOL.

"This above all: to thine own self be true" ~ William Shakespeare

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony" - Mahatma Gandhi


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I finished reading the first chapter and have started my morning pages. I also took my first artist's date yesterday. The project I worked on turned out to be a little frustrating, but I found a way to get through it. I also thought of other, less worrisome things to do next time. My first reactions to the chapter's activities were similar to RLMCCUE's: some of the people who have been my biggest cheerleaders are also the ones who are sources of blocks. So, I feel some guilt in this even though it is what it is.


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thanks a lot :D

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Welcome - thanks for joining our group! Be open and perhaps some memories will flood in - if not imagination is encouraged!

"This above all: to thine own self be true" ~ William Shakespeare

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony" - Mahatma Gandhi


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hiyas as recommended i read the artists way and am now working on morning pages and the first week's tasks. some of these are hard because i dont really have memories of what people have said to me in the past. but i know i can do make up 5 lives for sure! that and the blurts.

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wow way to go on your short story! That's amazing. Michael's sound like fun. Today I took a bath. I haven't had time to "bathe" in a while so it counts. I am probably going to take a trip to the dollar store and rummage aroudn there for inspiration. I WILL sit down and play my guitar this week just for fun.

"This above all: to thine own self be true" ~ William Shakespeare

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony" - Mahatma Gandhi


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I've decided to take this very slow. Really slow. It might take me six months to get through the book but I will do it. I had my first Artist's Date last week in Michael's - I told myself I could buy ANYTHING and did not have to justify it. I bought some new pens to draw with but toyed with buying a painted figurine kit for kids. I also wrote a rough draft for a short story - my first attempt in several YEARS!

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Procrastinating on the blurts and now writing my morning pages as a result. I started off strong last week but alas starting again this week. This is working on me though and giving myself room to not be perfect.

"This above all: to thine own self be true" ~ William Shakespeare

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony" - Mahatma Gandhi


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I just finished Chapter One last night. The most remarkable thing about my experience is the amount of fear that has come up. I have tried doing the Artist's Way several times and have never gotten past the first week. Well, now that I've done a little living and growing since the last try, I think I'm better equipped to handle the emotions that come up. When I do the affirmations later I would like to post them and I hope that other people will share some of their affirmations.

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Anybody ready to talk about Week 1? I am amazed as I read back through the chapter how I still get support and insight from it. My favorite quote is
"There will be many times when we won't look good - to ourselves or anyone else. We need to stop demanding that we do. It is impossible to get better and look good at the same time." I'm repeating this to myself now as I'm trying to finish a piece of work that I just don't think is good enough. Trying to give myself permission to be a bad artist but that doesn't come easy.

Doing the affirmation work in this Chapter - taking those negative blurts that I say think or feel about myself and turning them into positive affirmations has been some of the most important work I have done in this course. Just the knowledge that you have the ability to change or respond to that inner recording is powerful.

The very least you can do in your life is to figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is live inside that hope. Not admire it from a distance but live right in it, under its roof. from Animal Dreams by Barbara Kingsolver
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I've been trawling around old posts in this team and keep finding inspiration and all kinds of good information. In preparation of kicking off week 1 (again), I thought I'd repost an interpretation of the chapter originally posted by Merricat. Good stuff here. I'd recommend reading the chapter in the book first and then read below for some more insights:


SHADOW ARTISTS

Let's face it: no (wo)man is an island, entire of themselves. Even if we feel surly and hate the whole human race, we really need SOME support, some nurturing and encouragement...and no person needs this more than an artist.

Ever try telling your parents you were going to be a painter/actor/sculptor/potter when you grew up? I'll bet you a week's salary they didn't respond with "YEAH! GREAT idea! I am SO proud of you for such a creative idea! Let's go and look into art classes/acting classes/arts summer-camps, so we can both learn more about how to do this fabulous kind of job.!"

If you got encouragement AT ALL, it was qualified: "being an artist is wonderful...BUT what will you do for a real job? What about paying bills?" or "I think it's great you want to act...but what ELSE will you study in case (or when) that fails?" Above all, "be SENSIBLE!"

Yeah. Reeeeal encouraging.

So what happens? Writers drift towards becoming lawyers (a wordy profession); sensitive sculptors become counsellors; detail-oriented film-makers become Administrative Assistants. All good, sensible jobs. All slow death for the artist inside.

Sometimes, a blocked artist will become a Shadow Artist: one who likes the company of artists, supports the Arts, and spent a lot of time and/or money being in the arts/artisan community, either mentally or physically (or both). They gravitate towards the group that they should be a part of, by birth and temperament, but they don't completely FEEL they fit.

Shadow Artists might parallel a career they would have taken, had they the courage and encouragement. The blocked director becomes a film critic; the blocked writer becomes an editor of other peoples' works. It's too scary to get closer to that fire...it's beautiful, and it feels so RIGHT...but it COULD burn.

That fear is easy to understand. And, since fear feeds fear, they beat themselves up whenever a "well, what IS..." thought comes along. Words and actions that we would consider atrocities coming from outside, are things we say and do to ourselves every day, because we "know" a REAL artist is stronger than we could ever be. They just magically KNOW the right path, survive the harshest conditions, and still

succeed...because they are REAL ARTISTS!

So how do we move from Shadow to Real? It takes time. It takes a dozen or a hundred or a thousand Morning Pages, a bunch of Artist Dates, and some steady, CONSISTENT work. As I've said here before: progress is only noticeable when you look back AFTER a period of time, and see just how amazingly far you've come.

Part of that work is regaining something you were born with: A sense of safety.

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Think about being a little kid. Did you worry about the rent? The groceries? The utility bill? Who was running the country? Psychotic hyperelgious whack-jobs who tried to blow people out of the sky?

Of course not. You were much more interested in the perfect mud-pie, the super-cool finger-paints (ooooh...with the NEW SHADE OF PURPLE!!!), the pain-in-the-butt baby sister/brother who kept colouring outside the lines of YOUR book. Your concerns were selfish - you, you, you! - and the rest of the world could go hang!

And now here you are at the other end: where it's all about them, them them...and, well, maybe you can take some time and effort for

yourself. Maybe. Next week. Or month. If there's time. Maybe.

Time to start traveling to a place between ME!!!! and NOT-ME!!!! That's the spot where you find the perfect balance.

I'll say it again: IT'S A SLOW PROCESS. Everything worth doing is worth nurturing over time. I don't care if we're talking casseroles or the ability to throw a perfect pot: we have to take the time it takes. And the hardest part? Those first few steps. We haven't built up enough strength, courage, insight to completely protect us from the NO NO NO!!! screaming inside us.

So let's start.

I guarantee you: you'll screw up. Sounds like the opposite of all this "you GO, baby!" rah-rah stuff, right? Not really. If you pick up a crayon and try to copy a Van Gogh, you'll fail. If you write a sort of "War and Peace" and end up with "Detente...IF That's Ok With You",

you've failed. NOT because you're an idiot who can't do anything right. Just the opposite: You've failed because you've cleverly set yourself up for it. You've "proven" you can't paint (like Monet), can't write (like Parke Godwin), can't sculpt (like Rodin). VERY clever!

No, starting at Expert level is a guaranteed failure. So don't go there: start tiny. Baby steps. Finger-painting cool swirls, not copying Mona Lisa. Sculpting with Play-Dough, not the Pieta. Or, if you're comfortable with it, kid-steps: DAS Pronto instead of Play-dough,

You get the idea.

For one, it's not as scary to the IC. She doesn't see AS MUCH harm in the "silly stuff" as she would in, say, registering in a four-year Fine Arts Degree program (MAJOR PANIC!!!!!!). And, gradually, she realizes that this MAY not be TOO bad...it MIGHT be ALL RIGHT. Eventually. In time, you know, it might be, you know...well, not OKAY, really but...um..


...less bad?

Doesn't seem like a big step, does it? But it's light years away from NOOOOO!! DON'T!!!!

In short, the first person you have to convince is yourself. But how do we do that?

The same way we'd coax a poor, abused puppy out of a deep hole: make them feel safe.

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CORE NEGATIVE BELIEFS:

See how many of these hit home with you.

"I can't be a successful, prolific, creative artist because:"

Everyone will hate me

I will hurt my friends and family

I will go crazy.

I will abandon my friends and family?

I can't spell.

I don't have good enough ideas.

It will upset my parent(s)

I will have to be alone

I will find out I'm gay (or straight...whichever you're NOT now)

I will do bad work and not know it and look like a fool

I will feel too angry

I will NEVER have any real money.

I will get self-destructive; I'll binge on booze, drugs, or sex

I will get cancer. Or AIDS. Or a heart attack. Or plague.

My lover/husband/wife will leave me.

I will die.

I will feel bad because I don't deserve to be successful.

I will only have ONE good piece of work in me.

IT'S TOO LATE! If I haven't become a fully functioning Artist yet, I never will be!

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Any touch a nerve? Personally, 8 of those still ring true to me (in my mind alone, of course). My brain KNOWS that NONE OF THE ABOVE ARE TRUE, of course, but...welllll...

Look: beliefs ARE beliefs. THEY ARE NOT FACTS. I believe in dragons. I do. I really really do: they exist somewhere, in some form. And I ain't talking some weird bat with long noses who sort of LOOK like dragons if you squint at them during a total eclipse. And I can't grab one and show it to you..but does that make them less real? Not to me! In THIS case, the belief causes no harm (but if I give away everything I own and join a Dragon-Worshiping Cult, feel free to shoot me). Unfortunately, the above list of "true" beliefs can cause INCREDIBLE harm to you. Your heart and mind and life deserve more.

Why? Easy. Every one of these boil down to one Fact: YOU'RE SCARED.

(Psst...tell you a secret: so is every full-time, successful artist and artisan I know. But we'll talk about THEM another time.)

Remember: your IC is clever. Brilliant, really. But also remember: this isn't a little gnome-person living in your head. The IC is you. Ergo, YOU are clever. Brilliant, actually. As Pogo says: "we have met the enemy and he is us." Scary stuff...but also darned good to know. Because when you KNOW your enemy, you're already well on your way to defeating them.

Okay, how do we do THAT?

That leads to Week One's tasks.

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1. Morning Pages. We know about 'em, we do 'em, and if you want to read more, there's lots of info here (but don't use that reading as an excuse not to do them).

2. Artist Date. This week I'm buying stickers and putting them on my notebooks and binders. How about you?

3. Time Travel: list 3 enemies of your creative self-worth. Be as specific as possible. Here's one of mine: that rotten hag in 4th grade who looked at the picture it took me THREE DAYS to get JUST right to decorate my desk...and said "so who helped you with this? Who did the actual work?" (I STILL wanna smack her!) This is the beginning of your Monster Hall of Fame. More will come along as we work through TAW.

It's important to acknowledge these injuries. You can't get past ANYTHING lost without grieving for it. From a lost glove to the death of a friend, the only difference is the depth and length of the grief...so why would losing a cherished belief not count as a major loss? Answer: it DOES.

4. Time Travel 2: Select and write out 1 horror story from your Monster Hall of Fame. Length doesn't matter: long, short, in between.

Include as many details as you can remember - the room you were in, who was around, how did you feel, what did you say/do....etc. ESPECIALLY write about the part that still rankles you. In the above case, it was the long pause she made before she looked up and asked "who helped." During that pause her eyes got squinty and her mouth got pursed, and her hand sort of scrunched the paper, and I knew she was somehow upset and I was both scared and furious.

OPTIONAL BUT SPIFFY: Draw a cartoon of your old monster (or a sketch, if you like). Trash it as you like: make a circle-slash on it (universal symbol for NO!), put it on a dartboard, draw horns on it and black out teeth...whatever helps.

5. Write a Letter To The Editor (so to speak) defending yourself against one of these monsters. Mail it to yourself. It's especially fun to write as the kid who received the hurt: "To Whom It May Concern: Mrs. Unger is a rotten ugly bag, and she has ugly pig-teeth, and I worked hard on my picture and she's so dumb she wouldn't know a good picture if it bit her big ugly nose. I drew a GREAT picture! She's stupid and stinky and WRONG!"

6. Time Travel: list 3 old champions of your creative self-worth. This begins your Hall of Champions. EVERY ENCOURAGING WORD COUNTS. Whether you believe it or not doesn't matter. If you thought someone was probably just trying to be nice...yes: it counts.

Can't think of any compliments? Then think back to positive memories. When did you feel good about yourself? What had you done or said? It doesn't matter if some sourpuss tried to belittle it: there WAS at least that one moment. Write about it.

OPTIONAL BUT SPIFFY: Take that compliment and decorate it:

***~~~I Stopped And Helped Those Stranded German Tourists in Banff. It took hours, no one spoke English, and I made super-sure everything was OK before I left them. I have a GREAT BIG HEART!! GO ME!! ~~~***

Post it near where you do your MPs, or on your car dashboard, or anywhere where you'll see it often.

7. Time Travel 3: Select and write out one happy piece of encouragement. Write a thank-you letter. Mail it to yourself, or to your long-lost mentor.

8. Imaginary Lives. You have FIVE other lives you could lead. What would you be? Hmmm....I'd be a child psychologist, an Environmental Lawyer, a Buddhist nun, a professional underwater treasure-hunter, aaaaand.....maybe an Opera singer. How about you? Don't overthink these: the point is to have fun with it. Now pick one and BE it this week (for a while, at least!). Did you want to be a cowboy? Then go riding for a couple of hours. Did you want to be a scuba-diver? Ok, how about some time at the local pool (or lake)? S'up to you!

9. Work with Affirmations and Blurts. I haven't posted the affirmations that are listed in TAW because a) you can look them up online, b) a lot of them have to do with God, and that triggers mighty big guilt-trips in some people, and c) you're smart enough to discover/come up with them yourself (and if you already have the book...quit picking on me!!!).

If you don't think Affirmations mean anything, then do this: settle yourself down in a nice spot where you won't be disturbed for a few minutes. Look into a mirror. Say - out loud, and quietly serious, not joke-y - "I am willing to change." Say it 10 times. See what kind of "oh no I am NOT!!!!" feelings come screaming up.

We hear a lot about affirmations, but don't discount Blurts. Blurts are sudden answers, sudden truths. Often they're those "ooops...did *I* say that?!" types of things. Take a negative blurt ("I can't dance, I'm too fat and stupid") and change it into an affirmation ("Belly-dancers have such curvy, sexy bodies, and I have DANGEROUS curves!!) Take positive blurts and run with 'em. They DO come up, you know. Last one I remember happened when I realized I was in water over my head, and I was starting to panic. And I thought "Screw THIS noise, I CAN swim!" And I did.

10. Take your artist for a walk. Just the two of you. See how much your consciousness can change after just a 20-minute stroll. Think about arty things. Or kid-y things. Or just Stuff.


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WEEKLY CHECK IN

These are our weekly looks back. They're private (if you want) or shared with everyone (if you want). Do them in your MP notebook, or in a separate place if you're trashing your MP these days. A little steno-pad is easy to hide...just a thought. ;) And this is stuff that's mostly fact-based, rather than "insight", so it's not nearly as sensitive. Mostly it's a...little travel-journal. Something you can look back at.

Check in:

1. How many days did you do MP this week? 7 would be great. How's that experience going for you?
2. Did you do your Artist Date this week? What did you do? Did you enjoy it?
3. Did anything else really awesome happen? Did you suddenly have an "I GET IT NOW!!!" moment? Did you end up backtracking a little? How did it go?


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Carry on!

Edited by: TWINKLEMAMA at: 5/2/2010 (02:05)
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I'm a bit stuck on week one. I have been working on it for 3 weeks :S
But have made some very interesting connections. So I think maybe if I just keep plugging away I will move to week 2 when I am ready.

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I got through most of the list. I am still "being a teacher" since that is a week long thing and I haven't done the bursts and blurbs or the walk with myself. I seem to have lost my workbook--boo hoo! so I am reading Bettina's posts avidly. I hope it is okay to work on both weeks concurrently since I am almost done with week 1. LOL

Check-in Morning Pages done 9 times from the 20th--a couple were at night.

Artist's Date was the short session with crayons.

Nothing awesome to report unless you count the insights I have been going through as I write my morning and evening pages! I realized that my dad was one of my monsters even though I idealized him. He used teasing and sarcasm that on the surface was funny, but cut to the bone. Not only that, I am guilty of the same thing now! Gotta change that tape!

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Surprisingly the list was not to bad. I did blend #10 with this weeks AD though...

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Don't know how long this will last, but I've jerryrigged (or is it juryrigged?) the modem right into my laptop. Now it's got delusions of Desktopness, but hey...whatever works.

RLMCCUE - well done. There's another way: sit down and do one or two questions today. And another couple tomorrow. Work on them online, if you want. Share them with others (if you want).

You sound a lot like me. I had a year to do my thesis, but actually DID it in about five weeks. It got me my degree, and it WAS published, but it took me another six months to get my head back to the so-called real world. These days I'm a lot more apt to give myself this loving, gentle advice: "shut the hell up, quit whining, and get to work."

Surprising how well that works on me.


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Well, I did all of the week 1 assignments today. It took me about 40 minutes total once I stopped hemming and hawing and got down to it.

It made me feel really good to confront my monsters and to write a letter to one of my champions. Sad thing is, I can't even remember her name! But confronting my monsters is what I was most worried about, and it really took a load off my soul. I think now I can grieve those wounds and let them heal.

I'm in sensory overload right now, so I think I'm going to wait until tonight to read chapter 2 and Bettina's summary.

Thanks again for doing all of this, Bettina. Please know that you've already helped one person and made a big difference in her life!

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I am going to go upstairs once I am off the site and try the list. CMY (Carol)

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Okay, makes a fair amount of sense. I will go forth and ruminate no more in my Morning Pages.

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Hi, folks. Today's the day I return my library books. Let's hear it for free 'net access. Only have a few mins, but I'm trying to catch up on mail.

KYRRDIS - Morning pages are a garbage dump. Brain-trash. Any "real" writing done in them defeats the purpose of DOING the MP. These are "write stuff as fast as you can and don't stop to think" sorta things; the exercises are "write as fast/slow and as much/little as you need to do the exercise with as much/little thought necessary to immerse yourself in it and clean out the old wounds. It's a "remembering the past" as opposed to "dumping out the present so you can sprint on to the future" thing.

*shrugs* having said that, I'm betting you can run faster mad than I can scared, so....

DEC - Yes, got your letter, and want to answer it ASAIGMSSBA...as soon as I get my stupid system back up. I'm picking up new ethernet hardware (yeah, yeah...over at my pal's, the Ether Bunny), and hope to have the damn thing up and running before Monday.

*sighs, lugs her 30 library items off the floor, and trudges to the self check-out...HATES rush hour traffic IN THE CITY!*



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Perhaps you could write a politely worded 'letter to the editor', proving your detractors wrong.

Me, I'm working the exercises into my morning pages. I spend 90% of my time carping when I do them anyway.

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That's very true, Kyrrdis. I hadn't really thought of it that way. Trashing my mom and my brother is going to be really hard for me because they're so important and encouraging to me now. They're a big part of my support system.

Now, my first grade teacher and my college art instructor I had my freshman year, no problem trashing them! Words cannot describe.

Speaking of which, it's already Friday. I suppose I should get on to my assignment.

I don't know if it's okay to do the assignments as part of morning pages, but I'm going to do them separately. My morning pages are much more free flowing and written with less thought. I'll be much more deliberate with these assignments. I do plan on using another notebook for my assignments, though, so I have them all together in one place.

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RlmCCue, I have the same problem. I suppose that we would have fewer creative blocks if those people HADN'T mattered so much to us.

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Can you do some of these exercises as part of your morning pages?

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I am mostly amazed at the stream of conscinous in my writing and the memories and thoughts and concerns that flow through my ink pen. I am an ink pen geek or sorts. I lov ehaving that one pen that allows me to write fairly quickly and clearly.

And of course being a notary my ink is alwys blue!

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Every day is a new day to succeed or fail - but you have to get out of bed first!

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It's very hard for me too, because some of the people who discouraged me are some of the people that I love most in my life, so I'm torn. I'm going to do this exercise, though, because I need to work through my confusion.

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So many thoughts popped up as I read this. I realize that I can hardly remember why I doubt my creative/artistic abilities. I have probably buried all those experiences way down deep inside to prevent the hurt. I will get this list done! I will explore these things in my Morning and Evening Pages and maybe they will come to the forefront for me. I can't believe that I am as repressed as I am beginning to see I am...all those years of pretending to be happy go lucky outside while cringing on the inside........hummmmmmmmm.....

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Phew, thank you. I feel much better now. Wow, I can breath again emoticon

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KYRRDIS - Thanks for the compliment. That was part of what I interpreted in my own words. It wasn't hard: I just thought back to all the "yes, dear, but eventually you have to decide what you'll REALLY be" lectures. And THIS coming from a family where my great-uncle is a renowned artist and illustrator.

He's in his mid-80s now and making a whole new splash - and a big one - by changing over to painting murals in enamel (easy enough to do in Italy's weather).



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PRYZYM - yes, it's a 1-week list. The next week's is similar (in size).

In terms of actual work, if you sat down and DID it, it would take about an hour. It's just looking at it all at once that makes you go "NUH-UH! That'll take me a YEAR!!"

S'okay. I had the same reaction first time.
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---If you got encouragement AT ALL, it was qualified: "being an artist is wonderful...BUT what will you do for a real job? What about paying bills?" or "I think it's great you want to act...but what ELSE will you study in case (or when) that fails?" Above all, "be SENSIBLE!"---

Yes, this is EXACTLY what I got. Plus, being told I didn't draw all that well. $#&*$#&!!! As for writing, I was told it would make a nice hobby. You don't write a book because it's a hobby, damn it, you write because you're a WRITER.

My mother wanted me to go to law school, BTW... however, I became an administrative assistant. Sounds like I need to be writing screenplays. Hmmm...

During my AD, I discovered that I still draw women fairly well (although I'm rusty). Didn't try drawing men... maybe later. I did try drawing landscapes, cats, and fish, though, things I hadn't particularly worked with before. Some were better than others.

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Hello everyone,

I am very psyched about week 1. I have finished reading the chapter. It brought back a lot of good memories of being an art major in high school. The work that I did on sets for plays. The enjoyment that I felt in making articles for teachers and my friends. I went through some boxes and actually found some of my sketchbooks as well as a short stories and cartoons that I did in high school. My fiancee went to school with me and it was so much fun reminscing with him about my art work and he confessed to me that he is interested in cartooning again. He used to send me his cartoon characters in love notes through the day. He has been a great champion in my regaining my creativity.
I know that there is a lot of work for this week. I want to encourage everyone to take the time and do it. Reading the chapter really opened my eyes.
We can do it and be better for it.

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I'm a little overwhelmed. OK a lot overwhelmed. I understand the work in process, I am wondering if the
list needs to be completed during week one? I'm guessing it is, which is why I'm emoticon

Or maybe it is that feeling safe will be a new experience... I'm not sure which.

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greetings... I will start BUT I am speaking only of me... and I may have missed the mark... BUT I was able to regain my feeling of comfort and safety by being more revealing of the real ME... and not the me that I think others want to see... Yes, I am recovering my sense of safety... yet even reporting here lends to some fear of judgment... so i am still learning to be real and feel comfortable....
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Here's the spot to talk about this week's work. Feel free to also use it for the week's MP and/or AD, or use the other forums specifically for those. It's up to you. If the threads get too big, we'll just add another one.



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